Chapter 6

White

“I told you to stop wriggling if you don’t want to fall!” Lisa shouted on my back and tightens her hold around my waist

“I can’t help it! I am cold! It’s your fault the kids throw me a bucket of water for smacking your head!” I yelled pissed, remembering how the young kids bullied me earlier for smacking Lisa’s head because of her endless teasings about me can’t play the piano

The moment I realized I was slowly falling for her I immediately take it back. She’s so full of herself, she’s really getting on my nerves whenever I see that stupid smirk on her face that’s why I rudely smack her head, turned out the kids in that orphanage really loved her that much so here I am, clothes are all wet from head to toe and freezing to death because of the cold afternoon here in Jeju

And I am so lucky the mighty Lisa here choose a fucking horse instead of a comfortable car, now I feel really cold as we head back to the mansion

“Whoa it’s you who smack my head in the first place” she yelled at my back, her chest touching my back as the horse gallops so I have no choice but to lean forward, making her complain since earlier at my back that I will fall 

“Why are you kept on leaning forward? You should stay close so that you won’t fall!”

I rolled my eyes when she pulled me closer to her

Did she just freaking forget she’s sick hours ago and the fever might come back because of her pulling the wet me close to her?

Well she’s Lisa Manoban anyway, surely she will not die from a simple fever. Knowing how cocky she is, a little devil like her won’t die easily

“Are you cold? Because if it is, we can stop if you want” she whispered on my ear

I flinch because of her breath touching my sensitive skin, I turned my head to the side because there goes again the butterflies dancing in my stomach

“No I’m alright, don’t mind me” I lied

Damn it, I am really cold! But if we stop right now we might get caught by the upcoming heavy rain. The dark thick clouds are really scary from above and we really should head back before it's too late

I flinched and closed my eyes when a sudden cold wind passes by, I stiffened because of the sudden coldness enveloping my whole body

“Are you okay?” Lisa’s worried voice echoed in my ear

“I’m fine” I answered and held her hand wrapping in my waist for body heat

Her free hand is holding the rope to maneuver the brown horse, I am amazed how she professionally ride this scary thing with only her one hand.

“You sure?” she whispered again and this time, her soft lips accidentally touches my right cheek.  Making me almost cussed when a sudden electricity and body heat travel from my head down to my toe

"Yes" I nod and moved away from her again

I find our position uncomfortable because you know I am feeling her chest on my back, though it’s not that big like mine but I certainly can feel the softness and tenderness of it, I wonder how it looks like, I bet she has this rosie nipp-oh my god, my pervy mind please leave me alone!

Is this because I am cold that I am suddenly thinking of lewd things?! I can’t believe it!

“Hey are you sure you’re okay? You suddenly stiffened, I can feel it” Lisa worriedly whispered again

I closed my eyes again because of the sudden contact against my back, damn it. I am cold yes but why do I feel so hot right now?

“Shit Irene, are you okay? You look pale!” she exclaimed and suddenly stop the horse.

I looked at her confused when she tilts my head to her by holding my chin.

Her pair of worried brown eyes welcomed me and I swear my heart is now thumping mad on my chest by only just staring at them. How can she do that? How can she made me feel this way by only just staring at me? How?

I removed her hand and looked away

Even how many times I remind myself to not let my feelings grow deeper I really can’t help it, I know how dangerous it is to fall in love with her but I really can’t stop it because if you were in my situation right now? I bet you will know what I am feeling

Imagine Lisa’s stares are only fixed on you, both arms wrapped possessively around your both sides, smelling her sweet scent and feel her body heat in your system plus the scenery of a long line of wonderful beach in your side. Both seated in a tall beautiful brown horse alongside the road with lined gingko trees on each sides, imagine you are like currently in a romantic scene of a romance drama in a beautiful island

How can you stop your heart from beating mad? How can you not fall in this kind of situation?

“I’m okay Lisa, why did you stop? We should go back” I said, not daring to look at her face only an inch away from mine

She sighed and removed her hands on me, she moved away and suddenly removed her shirt. Leaving her now in a black sports bra, I glared at her “What are you doi-

“Wear this Irene” she didn’t let me finish and wore her shirt on me

“What about you? It’s so cold Lisa! You’ll get sick again” I exclaimed worried

She smiled “I’m fine, don’t worry about me. I can’t let you get sick, I’ll lose my mind”

“But- a sudden cold windpasses by again, making me stop complaining on Lisa and hugged myself. I guess I am still cold despite wearing her warm shirt

“You’re still cold?” she raised her one eyebrow

“I’m fine, let’s go back before the rain will come” I ordered and tugged her hand, attempting to signal the horse to start running again

But Lisa only stared at my face, another cold wind passes again and before I could feel the cold in my body, a warm soft thing landed on my lips.

My heart literally screamed when I saw Lisa closing her eyes while kissing me softly with her plump lips, her warm mouth sending heat dominating all over my body. Her one hand landed on my cheek and she deepened the kiss, she bits my lower lip making me gasped and she took it as an opportunity to enter her tongue and explore my mouth

I suddenly can’t breathe and I just closed my eyes, feeling her warm lips invading mine. The heat I am looking for is now very evident in my skin

She took a quick peck on my lips before she let go of me, her both hands are now on my face while she flashed a wide, mischievous smile

“There, are you still cold?”

Damn

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“Ma’am Irene, dinner’s ready!” I stop on pacing back and forth in my room when I heard Joy knocks on my door.

I stopped on dialling Irene’s number and hid my phone on my drawer. She’s not answering when I needed her the most, damn it. I wonder what should I do from now on, can I just back out? I really think I can’t do this mission anymore! I am falling and I shouldn’t! I will only get hurt in the end

“Ma’am Irene?”

“Coming!” I yelled before I opened my door

Joy in all smiles welcomed my sight

“Good evening ma’am Irene, ma’am Lisa is already waiting for you in the kitchen” she giggled

I stopped “Where’s Leo?”

“Hmm he can’t join you for dinner because ma’am Lisa told him to, she said this dinner is exclusive only for the both of you” she giggled again like an in love teen age girl “This is my first time I saw ma’am Lisa cooked for anyone ma’am! Oh my..she really likes you a lot!”

I scratch my nape. Oh no, I can’t be alone with her, I can’t ,Jennie you can’t, protect yourself as long as you can. You can’t fall in love with your friend’s fiancée!

I closed my eyes as I think of an excusable excuse to avoid my dinner tonight alone with Lisa

“I can’t Joy, aw my stomach hurts-aww” I acted  in pain and held my stomach, I slowly bowed to be more realistic in front of the confused maid

What I am doing seriously?

Joy held my arm and looked at my face, I grunt even more to show her I am really in pain “Oh god, ma’am are you okay? What’s wrong?”

“My stomach suddenly hurts, I think I’ll pass dinner tonight. I am not in the mood to eat” I lied

Seriously, what gotten into you Jennie? Avoiding Lisa in a way like this? Really?

“What? But ma’am Lisa is waiting for you-

“Aww! Ouch! It really hurts, Joy can you just leave and tell Lisa I’m not okay?” I grip on her hand, she looked really worried and slightly pissed. I smiled apologetically to her, showing her I am sorry for wasting her master’s effort for me tonight

“Okay, I will tell ma’am Lisa right away. I will get medicine for you ma’am” she bowed. Yes!

“Ah no, you don’t have to Joy..you know I only need to” I gave her a meaningful expression, she gets my point and only nod before leaving my room

I sighed in relief before I closed my door.

I am really hungry but I didn’t mind, I’d rather suffer in hunger rather than I’d suffer with those butterflies in my stomach around Lisa. She really has this quiet effect on me and I am not liking every bit of it

I lay down on my bed and started calling Irene’s number again. I lay my phone beside frustrated because she’s still not answering

I only hugged my pillow as my thoughts are drifting on how I should act in front of Lisa from now on. Should I just pretend I am not feeling this way towards her? Or should I just back out and give up on my dreams and return to my normal life?

I shook my head, no I can’t. I can’t give up!

I stopped on my thoughts when I heard a click on my door, I hurriedly acted on sleeping when I saw Lisa’s tall stance enter my room. I tried my best not to move when I felt her seated beside me

I heard her sigh and suddenly held my forehead. “You’re not pretending to sleep, are you?” her voice tinged with a little bit of anger

I only ignored her and continued pretending to sleep peacefully, I could feel her stares on me despite my closed eyes

She chuckled “Silly of course you’re not, you looked so peaceful sleeping. I’m sorry for making you sick”

What? She’s sorry? For what? I am not even sick for real! I am only pretending!

“For forcing you to come with me, I am so idiot” she cussed

Oh no Lisa, it’s not your fault. What on earth is she thinking?

“But I guess you’re okay now, thank god for that. I don’t want you to be sick, I’ll lose my shit if that happens”

Stop it please? You’re making me blush here..

Oh god, when will she leave? And why I didn’t lock my door in the first place? I am so idiot

She removed her hand on my forehead and arranged the duvet on my body. She moved my head so I can lie properly in my pillow. I really tried my best not to open my eyes the moment I felt her soft lips again on my forehead

“Sleepwell baby, dream of me” she said before she turns off the lights of my room.

I hurriedly dash off to sleep the moment she left me with all those thoughts of her running in my mind. I only woke up in the middle of the night with the loud thunders and lighting waking me up

I cover my both ears with my hand and crumpled my body as another thunder crashes again

I really hate thunders

I tried my best to sleep again but those consecutive loud thunders are really bothering me. I get up from my bed to stop myself from crying like a kid and proceed downstairs to make a glass of milk to calm myself down

Luckily, I successfully made it to the kitchen without chickening out. I made a glass of milk and when I was about to drink it down, a sudden lighting came to place making me  drop the glass and seated on the floor with my hands on my ears

“Please make it stop! Please!” I already cried and hid myself under the long table, a lightning and thunder hit again and I swear it is making me scared all of a sudden!

“Fuck what is this?” I heard Lisa’s husky voice and saw her feet beside the broken glass cup, she bent down to clean my mess up when another lighting came again

Her eyes met mine

“Shit Irene!” she yelled pulled me into her arms. “What are you doing here under the table?!”

And another loud thunder

“Oh god! Please make it stop!” I cried in her arms and tugged hard her shirt. She cussed so hard and removed my hug on her, she cupped my face with her both hands and landed her forehead on mine “Shhh it’s okay, it’s just thunder baby. It’s okay..” she hush

“Damn it please don’t cry, let’s go back in your room” she said before she carried me in her arms.

I was only burying my face on her chest when she slowly making our way to my room again. She laid me carefully in my bed and seated beside me, still silently crying

She suddenly stands up so I tugged her shirt “Where are you going? Don’t leave me..”

“I won’t leave you, I will just close your curtain baby” she caressed my hair. I let go of her shirt as I watch her close my curtains.

My room is now dimmed and the only source of light is coming from my lamp. I hugged my pillow and closed my eyes shut as another loud thunder echoed in my ears. I felt Lisa seated on my side and suddenly held my hand

“Don’t cry please? It’s okay it’s just thunders, it won’t hurt you for real” her soft voice played in my mind despite the heavy downpour of rain and the thunders.

It’s so soft, it’s so calming and very soothing

I grip on her hand and pulled her slowly closer to me, her face puzzled at first but soon she smiled and kissed my forehead. I closed my eyes, her presence somewhat calmed me down from crying and panicking

I’ve always fought alone my fear on thunders since I was a kid, never in my life I’ve experienced this kind of comfort from a person, even from my own father. This is the first time I've felt it and I never imagined it will be Lisa

“Please don’t leave me..” I pleaded and longingly looked at her eyes.

She shook her head “I won’t, you want me to sleep  here tonight?”

I slowly nod my head, staring deep at her pair of brown eyes. Her brown irises looked really stunning when gleamed by the light, I stared at it like my life dependent on it and unconsciously bring my hand to held her face

Her eyes slightly widened a bit “Yes please..stay  Lisa” I pleaded

Lisa licks her lower lip before she settled herself beside me, I moved a little to give her space. She held the back of my head and made her one arm my pillow, the other one is busy caressing my hair

A sudden panic dwelled within me when another loud thunder crash again. I closed my eyes shut and I felt Lisa bring me closer to her and hugged me so tight in her arms.

She buries my face in her chest, feeling her heart beating against her chest “I’m scared Lisa….I am always scared of the thunders since I was a kid”

“Shhh don’t think about it, only think about me. I am here, I won’t leave you and I am here to protect you. Sleep now, just sleep it off baby” she whispered and kissed the top of my head

For the first time ever in my 19 years of existing, a new color came to brighten up my miserable life

It is the color that Lisa brings

White…