Xander's POV

This was not just our first date but it was also my first real date. We kissed, hugged and now we are cuddled lying down on the blanket. I couldn't feel happier. As I gazed at Ella, I got to experience feelings for the very first time in my life; joy, protectiveness and a strong deep sense of belonging. It may sound silly or even cheesy but I kept on hugging Ella tighter and the more she cuddled to me the more I felt complete and happy. Her head now relaxed on my chest and her hand kept on playing with the buttons of my shirt. And the latter action meant that she was in deep thought.

"What are you thinking about my love?" I inquired and her head shot and looked at me with surprise and shock filling her orbs.

"Huh?" Ella questioned as she was caught out of guard.

"You were either in deep thought and unconsciously playing with the buttons of my shirt or you were consciously undressing me." I teased and saw her gasp, turn red and hide her face in my chest.

"I am sorry." Ella whispered and I couldn't but laugh at her stressed voice.

"Ella I was just teasing you. But what were thinking about?" I said as made her look at me and kissed her forehead.

"You...Us" she said as she drew away from my hands and I reluctantly let go of her so she can sit.

"What about me and us?" I questioned not liking her low uneasy tone.

"I am not your usual type...You may get bored with me." Ella answered in the saddest lowest whisper ever.

"Ella I will never do that. You mean the world to me." I honestly argued

"But I am neither thin nor hot. I am no Linda" She continued to talk down about herself but those words caused me more pain more than ever.

"I don't need you to be like Linda. And you are curvy and beautiful. You are perfect Ella." I assured her and wished that she can honestly sees the way I see her; she is perfect and I am a lucky man to have her.

"But your longest relation was with Linda so that must mean that she is your type." Ella once again argued as doubt consumed her and tears were twinkling in her dark orbs.

"I would never call any of the hookups I had with her or with any girl before her "a relationship". Ella I didn't give a shit about Linda. But when it comes to you I care about the slightest details. With her I spent weeks without a single call but with you I can't go to sleep without talking to you. I never tried to impress any girl before but now I turn into a ball of nerves whenever you are around because I am deeply afraid of doing something that you won't like. I also see red whenever I see you with another guy but I allowed Linda to cheat whenever her heart desired...Isn't that suppose to mean something?" I explained again assuring and moved closer to Ella and hugged her.

"I am just afraid that one day you will realize that I am not your fantasy girl." Ella mumbled to my chest and I felt her tears soaking into to my shirt.

"I can honestly assure you that my dreams are all about you; all of them" I confessed while remembering both the wildest ones and the affectionate ones.

"I love you" Ella said as she looked up and connected our gazes. Whit those words I connected my lips with her for the tenth time today and explained to her in just an act how much love I hold for her. I hate to sound girly but every kiss we share feels like the very first kiss and I find myself being affections, loving and passionate. I try my hardest also to impress her with all the skills I have. My tongue begged for entrance. I wanted to roam her mouth and savor her taste. Ella this time allowed me and my tongue and hers fought passionately for dominance. She was stubborn even in her kisses and I liked the passion that her kisses held.

In mere minutes, Ella was lying down and I was on top of her. My hands started to explore her body earning a gasp. Maybe I am rushing her into things? Maybe she does not want us to move this fast? I drew my lips away from hers and as soon as mine connected with hers I saw pure love. She studied me for mere seconds and I was about to tell her that if she wants we can slow down but her next action surprised me. Ella held my hand and placed it again on stomach as her cheeks burned red.

"Ella.." I surprisingly uttered.

"It is okay Xander. I am just new to this." Ella shyly explained

"If you are not comfortable we can slow down. I will wait for you." I frankly assured her

"I love you." Ella confessed again and to my surprise she placed her hand on my neck and connected our lips again.

That evening we talked, joked, kissed and made out. I knew that Ella wasn't ready and her first time needs to be special and that is why I didn't push her to do anything big. I just enjoyed the comfort she shows now as I touch, hug and kiss her. Her cheeks that day stayed stained red until I drove her back home and her voice also reflected her shyness and that was refreshing because most of the girls will just expect a redo of whatever physical act they get but Ella just snuggled to me and shyly talked about her dreams, classes and students.

"I love you" I said as I dropped her off by her house.

"I love you too." she replied shyly

"We still have just two minutes." I sadly announced feeling my heart sink at the idea of letting her go.

"I know..." Ella replied sadly as she looked at her house.

"I want to take you with me. I want us to share a bed again. It does not feel right without you by my side." I honestly told her

"I can try to convince them to let me move back but you sold the mansion." Ella uttered and hoped flickered in me

"We can live with my parents that way your parents can be assured that I won't do you any wrong." I proposed and saw Ella's dark eyes now reflect the same hope

"I will talk to them tomorrow." She promised and I just nodded and kissed her deeply hating the idea of letting her stay in a different house.

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