Eve couldn't help but let out a deep sigh as she turned on her shower and let the hot water wash over her. She had almost woken Javíer in the hopes that he would join her before they got ready for work. But after watching him sleep peacefully beside her kitten, Eve decided to let him rest for a few more minutes. Javí would surely be hungover after the embassy dinner and it was the least she could do. Besides, after the night that they had shared, Eve needed a moment or two by herself to sort out the avalanche of emotions that she was going through.

Now that she was fairly certain that she had fallen in love for the first time in her life, Eve needed some time to do a gut check and figure out what she was going to do. She just hoped that the noise from the shower didn't wake him before she came up with some answers for herself.

In the past few weeks Eve had flirted with the idea of possibly falling in love with Javíer Peña. Given their connection, she couldn't help but fantasize about a life with him. But Eve had a terrible track record of things completely bursting into flames the moment she believed that she had finally found real happiness. Even though Javí hadn't given her any indication that he was unsatisfied with their new relationship, Eve wasn't used to things actually working out for her. It was hard to trust that the rug wouldn't be pulled out from underneath her the second she let her guard down.

What the fuck had she done? Eve squeezed her eyes shut and cursed herself as the warm water hit her. Falling in love with her boss had never been her plan. Not that she had boarded the plane to Colombia with a solid long term plan in mind. But she was just supposed to be hiding out in South America until things blew over back home. Now fate decided to have her fall in love? Now? Great fucking timing.

Before she had crawled out of bed, Eve had watched Javíer sleep for a few moments. He always looked so innocent when he slept; she just couldn't help herself. But nonetheless, she took a moment to examine her heart as she gazed at him and found that she still felt the same way as she had felt the night before. If anything, her love for him felt as though it were growing little by little the more time that she spent with him. But that also meant that her desire to protect him was growing stronger and stronger, as well.

Her family would never approve of their relationship. Eve knew that from the beginning. 'The Great Agent Peña' wasn't great enough to be accepted in her parent's circles. They'd probably never bring up the subject of race to her face; knowing that angle would never work on her. Instead, her parents would try and find a clever way to chip away at the bond she shared with him. They were masters of their craft and would probably end up making them think that breaking up was their idea all along.

But if that didn't work, Eve tried to figure out what their next move would be. To say that Javíer was dedicated to his work with DEA would be understatement. Maybe they'd try that angle, Eve considered. Pulling some strings on the federal level would be something she'd do if she were in her parent's shoes. If her and Javí managed to beat the odds and stay together long enough for him to meet her parents, Eve suspected that they'd attempt to and have him choose between her and some high level position that Javí could only dream of. It wasn't fair, but Eve was used to their tactics.

Unfortunately, Eve had learned from the best and knew that she had to be on guard if she was going to protect what her and Javíer had together. That's if Javíer didn't wake up one day and realize that she wasn't the woman that he wanted a future with.

All Eve could see as she closed her eyes and leaned into the water was Javíer's kind face and the shy boyish smile that he reserved only for her. Even with all the doubt swimming around in her mind, he still was so precious to her. But the harsh reality was, Eve really had nothing to offer him other than...well, other than herself.

And if Eve was being honest with herself, after quitting her job and losing her baby, she really didn't know who the hell she was anymore. Playing the role of the perfect Senator's daughter the night before was a stark reminder of who she didn't want to be anymore. But other than that, she was a blank slate and it was a confusing feeling.

Before getting pregnant, Eve had her future all planned out in painstaking detail. Now if someone were to ask where she saw herself in five years, Eve wouldn't have a fucking clue.

Before she quit, Eve had been on track to meet all of her career goals. Making partner at her firm was all that really mattered to her. Falling in love had always been one of those things that she would have liked to have happened, but it had never been a priority for her before. Getting pregnant had never been in her plans either, but her baby had sent her on a different path.

Eve still found it amazing that she had been ready to drop everything for her daughter. But she knew that she wouldn't change a thing if she had to do it all over again. A small voice coming from her heart reminded her that losing her baby had also been the catalyst that sent her on the path that led her straight to Javíer.

Maybe it was foolish, but Eve couldn't help but wonder if her daughter had tipped the scales during that coin toss with her mother and sent her to Colombia instead of Switzerland. It was comforting to believe that her baby was looking out for her in some way.

But if she was meant to be with Javíer, then what next? They were expats living in a foreign country who have never once talked about what a future together would look like. Did he want to stay in Colombia indefinitely? Could he even love her back? So many questions were dancing around her head, Eve could barely keep up with them.

But the question weighing the heaviest on her mind was the one she couldn't seem to hide from. How could anyone truly love a person that didn't know who they were? If all she could offer Javíer was herself - then who the hell was she in the first place? With or without her parents meddling, their relationship felt doomed from the beginning. The thought of hurting Javíer made her tummy hurt.

Then it dawned on her - maybe Javíer would never love her back. He had said so himself in his Jeep; he'd never really been in love either; maybe he wasn't capable. If he didn't love her then the hurt that she could cause him would be minimal at best.

Eve let out a bitter chuckle in her shower as her greatest fear started to feel like the best solution to her current predicament. She could love Javíer all that she wanted; after all, she never had to say anything to him about what she felt for him. It could be a secret.

Slowly, Eve became convinced that him not loving her back was the answer. It could save him from getting his heart broken when she inevitably fucked up or her parents decided to play their games.

It would hurt not to have him love her. It would hurt like hell. But the possibility of sparing Javíer that pain felt like the right thing to do.

If he fell in love with her, it would make leaving her so much harder for him. It was inevitable, Eve convinced herself. One day he would see what a mess she was and Eve wanted to leave the door open and make it as easy as possible for him to go on without her.

Eve let out a deep resounding sigh as she turned the heat up in the shower; nearly scalding herself in the process. What woman hopes that the man they love won't fall in love with them? She was probably more fucked up than she had originally thought. But that knowledge only strengthened her resolve, but also caused her to want to punishment herself for her shortcomings.

The truth was, if she were a better person she would just break things off with Javíer now...but she just couldn't bring herself to do it. Keeping him was probably the most selfish thing she's ever done.

"Morning." Javíer suddenly yawned from the other side of her shower curtain, making Eve jump.

"Tylenol is in the medicine cabinet." Eve called out, knowing that he'd probably need some.

"That obvious?" Javíer puffed out a small laugh as he looked for the pain meds. "Need some, too?"

"Nope." Eve giggled as Javí found them, shook out two pills, and popped them in his mouth. "You drank enough for both of us last night."

"At least one of us is responsible." Javíer jested as he pulled back the shower curtain and let himself in, jumping and cursing out loud when he felt how hot the water was.

"Sorry." Eve muttered as she turned it down for him and made some room for him under the water. She really did love that they were at this stage of their relationship already. It felt nice and domestic and Eve liked it more than she thought she would. But that didn't mean that she didn't check out his body. Even soft, his cock was still very impressive. "Ready to get back to work, boss?"

"I never thought the day would come when I would actually say - no." Javíer bitterly huffed as he took Eve's shampoo and poured some in his hands. Eve assumed that he was simply getting ready for his day, but smiled to herself when he stepped behind her and began to collect and lather her hair. After washing her hair only once before, Javí acted as though caring for her hair had always been his responsibility. And it was adorable how seriously he took his new role.

"I am not looking forward to work." Javíer admitted. "Without anything new to mess with the surrender deal, I'm pretty much just spinning my wheels. Not to mention that the lovely senators are still here. So I plan on laying as low as possible after I hear from Feistl and Van Ness."

"Sneaky." Eve hummed as his strong hands massaged her scalp and made her forget all of the bullshit that had been fuelling her mind just moments before. True to form, Javíer managed to comfort and center her without even trying.

"I was thinking of signing off on getting you a satellite phone." Javíer informed her as he worked on her hair.

"Sweet." Eve moaned as she closed her eyes and enjoyed his loving attention. "Trying to keep tabs on me while I run your errands?"

"Something like that." Javíer puffed out a small laugh as he focused on lathering her long hair.

"I still have my pager, but I could just buy a cell phone myself, you know." Eve insisted. "You really don't have to go to so much trouble."

"Perks of dating the boss, baby." Javí chuckled before he turned her around and focused on rinsing the shampoo out of her hair as he spoke. "I'd just feel better if you had one on you when you left the embassy. These satellite phones are supposed to get a better signal."

"I don't really leave that often, Jav. You know that." Eve sighed. She didn't like that idea of him babying her. But, then again, Eve had experienced first hand how the streets of Colombia had the potential to be dangerous. The more she thought about it, the more she was touched that Javí cared so much about her safety. "You're really good at this, by the way. If you're ever thinking about a new career, I know a lot of women that would pay top dollar for this kind of treatment."

"Do you now?" Javí played along, finding himself oddly proud of her praise. He'd never washed a woman's hair before Eve. Come to think of it, he had been going through so many 'firsts' lately; all because of her and he really didn't hate it. "Well, there was a time when I would have jumped at the opportunity to service a larger clientele." Javí explained as she turned her back to him and leaned her back against his chest while he wrapped his arms around her. "But lately, I gotta say, I've been really enjoying servicing just one woman."

"Do you now?" Eve mimicked his response, earning her a rare genuine laugh from Javí. "Not much money in that, but I get it. Guess you'd better get that cute little butt of yours into that boring suit then, huh?"

"I'd rather spend the day with my kitten." Javí smirked behind her ear, close enough that she could feel his lips brush against her. Javíer was amazed at how responsive she was to him. It was almost as if he could feel the effect that he had on her and it was as close to magic as he'd ever felt before. And needless to say, it also made him rock hard.

"You remembered that, huh?" Eve giggled with her cheeks burning and her core beginning to ache for him. "I guess you weren't that drunk, after all."

"How could I forget the sight of you riding my cock?" Javíer dropped his voice as he found her bar of soap and began to squeeze and fondle her breasts under the guise of washing her. Eve felt her knees go weak as she leaned back against his broad chest, content to let him have his way with her. "Even if I live to a ripe old age, I'd never forget such a beautiful sight. But I woke up and you were gone."

"Work." Eve hummed as he rolled her nipples between his fingers and pressed his hard cock against her ass. "I'm a girl, I need time to get ready, baby." Eve explained through her giggles and panted breaths. "But you looked so good in my bed. A part of me wanted to use my mouth to wake you up. Your cock is so perfect, I just can't get enough."

"Fuck, why didn't you?" Javíer growled against her neck. Eve pressed her ass against him, encouraging him, and he wasted no time guiding his cock inside of her. Wrapping one arm around her neck to hold her in place as he pushed into her warmth with a deep satisfied moan.

"I wasn't sure if you'd want me to." Eve groaned out her words as Javíer's hard cock stretched her walls and filled her. He always felt just slightly too big, but still she craved more.

"I would never complain about you sucking my dick, kitten." Javíer replied as he pressed her against the shower wall, slamming his cock as far as he could inside of her. Stilling his movements to appreciate how perfect she felt. Whenever Javíer was inside of Eve, everything seemed right in the world and he was exactly the kind of man that he wanted to be. It was an intoxicating experience that only she could give him. "What about you, huh?" Javí taunted through her moans of praise. "How would you feel if you woke up to my tongue, huh?"

"I wouldn't mind at all. But you might get kneed in the face, though." Eve giggled. Her laughter caused her walls to tighten around him. The sensation was amazing and he had to start fucking her. "But I'd make it up to you, baby. Fuck, you feel so good, Javí. Don't stop."

"You drive me wild, princesa." Javíer praised as he reached around her body and found her clit while at the same time kissing and sucking along the back of her shoulder. "I'll just have to take my chances."

"Baby, just like that." Eve begged as Javíer circled her clit the way she liked while he picked up the tempo and fucking her even harder against the cold tile. "I'm so fucking close. Fuck me."

Javíer turned her head to face him and slanted his lips against hers. It was a messy sloppy kiss that stole the air from both of their lungs, but they just couldn't stop.

"I'll never get my fill of you, cariño." Javíer promised as she reached behind her and ran her fingers through his wet hair, tugging handfuls of it the way he liked. Earning her the deepest moan from the back of Javíer's throat.

"Good, because I can't let you go." Eve panted out her words and instantly regretted sharing so much, but Javíer barely noticed. Her release was building as he ruthlessly pounded into her and put the perfect amount of pressure on her clit.

The sounds of their bodies connecting bounced off the bathroom walls as they indulge in their passion for each other. When Javí made her come, Eve had to cover her mouth to muffle her cries. She was convinced that she was seconds away from professing her love for him and had to silence herself. The way it made her feel was so incredible, she just didn't trust herself.

"That's it, baby." Javí praised as he slowed down, trying to prolong her pleasure for as long as possible as he dragged his cock through her fluttering walls. Kissing her shoulder and neck as she came squeezing his cock.

Instead of sharing her feelings, Eve found a better use for her mouth as she dropped to her knees and took Javíer's cock in her mouth. Tasting herself on him and humming around him as she brought him to the back of her throat over and over again. Desperate to make him come.

"Jesus." Javí called out as he watched her beneath him with one arm against the shower wall to steady himself. She looked up at him as she hollowed her cheeks, and Javí was done for. He looked into her big blue eyes and came in her mouth with a loud roar; hoping that he didn't fall over on top of her when his knees buckled. "Got any plans for lunch today?"

"We make quite the pair." Eve hummed as Javíer helped her to her feet. "With me worried about Murphy Muffins first thing after sex -"

"And me thinking about food?" Javíer laughed as he finished her thought. "That was so good."

"It was." Eve grinned as she rubbed her nose against his.

Javíer tenderly kissed her lips just as the hot water started to run out. Both of them groaned against each other's lips when they realized that they were going to have to end their shower and head out into the real world.

"I gotta run next door and get dressed." Javí informed her as he kissed her forehead. "But I'll come back and take you to work, okay."

"You gunna shave?" Eve asked as she ran her fingers down his cheeks and felt his stubble. Pressing her lips on 'her spot' along his jaw.

"Yeah, sorry."

"Let me?" Eve asked with a child like excitement in her voice.

"You wanna shave me?"

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Javíer found that it was useless to try and deny Eve anything, especially when she was happy. Once Eve was dressed she let herself into his apartment and he already had all of his shaving supplies out and ready for her. What's the worst that could happen? Besides, in a way, he felt kinda honoured that she would want to do this for him in the first place.

Javíer craved intimacy with Eve and was finding that letting her in was becoming easier and easier the longer they were together. Sometimes he wondered why he hadn't been capable of truly opening up before her.

Maybe it was an odd mix of timing and meeting a woman that not only challenged him, but fit him perfectly. Not just in superficial ways, but in deeper more meaningful ways that he'd never considered before. Either way, there was no use denying that he was in deep. He just had no idea Eve was too.

"Have you ever done this before?"

"Just my legs and armpits." Eve grinned as Javí shook his head and tried not to laugh at her cuteness. "And other more sensitive parts of my anatomy." She added with a playful wink. "Your handsome face should be a piece of cake."

After a quick tutorial, Eve lathered his cheeks and chin with his shaving cream. Javíer sat still on the ledge of his bathtub and tried not to laugh at how seriously she was taking her