Today was just a normal bright sunny day. I woke up very early, went to Haman and wore my favorite purple dress:

(If you don't like the dress you can imagine other one dw ^^ )

And I also did my hair:

I did it myself since I don't like anyone to touch my hair

I was in my chamber reading my favorite book while eating lemon flavored candy when all of a sudden I hear knock on my door "come in" I say before marking the book page I was left of with red bookmark and placing the book on the couch next to me, then my sister walked in with smile on her face, I smiled back as she sat next to me " hello sister why are u so happy?" I asked while looking at her and she responded "Bali - beg is in the garden alone and I want to go talk to him but.." "but? " I asked confused "can you please come with me ? You guys are very good friends" "of course I can " I said happily as I got up and we went to the garden.

We walked in the garden and there he was the infamous Malkocolo babi - beg that my sister was in love with since we were little kids, he never liked her that way tho he told me a couple of times that she was still a kid for him which makes since since she is 15 years younger  than him. "Go talk to him" I whispered at her, she smiled and walked up to him and they started talking. While they were talking I looked up in the sky and enjoy fresh summer breeze when all if a sunbed I see my mother standing at her balcony doing the same, I smiled at her as we made eye contact and she smiled back, her smiled suddenly fated away as she saw Mihirmah talking to Bali - beg, she looked very angry and signaled me to come to her chamber.

I let Mihirmah know I was going and she didn't really care since she was focused on Bali - beg. When I came to my mother's chamber she sat me down and said" why is Mihirmah talking to him again? What if someone sees her? Is she crazy?" She was clearly angry " Valide.. I don't think she realizes that he dont like her that way..and just keeps going and-" my mother interrupted me " Well that will stop! I'm anning on marrying her to Rustem Pasha! It will be best for her and your brothers" I looked at her in complete shock "but valide-" "No Hieren! It will be like I said! Rustem Pasha is very loyal to Suleiman and me, he is also smart and will help ur brothers" she said while Nodding. I honestly didn't know what to say, I knew Mihirmah would be hurt and sad " Mihirmah won't like that valide..." I said as I got up " Hieren...my darling... " She started as she placed her hands on my shoulders " it's the best we can do to save ourselves..plus Rustem will be loving husband to Mihirmah..she will get over it soon" I nod as I smiled a bit " yeah you're right.."

All of a sudden we hear knock on the door "come in" says my mother as sumbul aga came in " Sultanim" he said she bowing " what is is sumbul?" "You're majesty wants to see you imidietly" he said as my mother nodded and turned back to me " I'll see you later" she smiled as I bowed to her.

Later that day I got news that my mother was moved to the old palace, when I asked my dad about it he scolded me and told me to leave him alone. I asked my brothers about it but they didn't know as well " did she do something bad?.." I asked Mehmed with teary eyes" did Sah sultan made trap for Valide? " I said scared " I don't know Hieren..but there probably good reason why she stayed there now " he said as he pulled me in for a hug, as I hugged him back Mihirmah came in with chihahgir, I smiled as I saw my younger brother " chihahgir" I picked him up and gave him kiss on cheek " I'm going to go see mom" Mihirmah said while looking angry " does dad knows about this? " Mehmed asked sounding worried "No and you guys have to cover me up " Mihirmah said confidently " are you crazy!? You will get in trouble Mihirmah!" I said angry " I won't if you cover me up! Plus Bali - beg is Coming with me so there won't be trouble " she smiled after saying his name " Bali beg? Again? Mihirmah stop with him please it's bad for you and you're not going anywhere! " I said placing chihahgir down " I'm older than you Hieren I don't have to listen to you!"

" ENOUGH!" Mehmed suddenly shouted " Mihirmah you can go" I looked at him skooked as Mihirmah smirked and left " Mehmed are you serious!? She will get caught!" " So what? It's her fault not ours" he said as he left me alone taking chihahgir.

Few hours have passed of me trying to stop Selim and beyazit from fighting "both of you enough" I said "No! He started! Everyone always protects him cuz he cries about everything! " Beyazit shouted " Beyazit you know that's not true, everyone loves you the same as Selim " I said while petting his shoulder "no! It's always him! Father always takes him everywhere he goes! Never me! " Beyazit said before running off,I sat down on the couch and sight " that's because I'm better at everything than him" Selim mumbled as I looked at him "Selim! Quit it!" I shouted " yours brothers not enemies! You should help each other to get better! Not fight " he looked at me weirdly " you and Mihirmah fight" yes but we don't hit each other or insult each other like you and beyazit" I said before patting his head " go and apologize to you brother" "but-"
"not Selim " he sighed and left.

Not so long after Mihirmah came in my chamber, I didn't look at her at first since I was reading " hello" I said before looking up and seeing my sister crying "Mihirmah? What happened?" I asked concerned as I walked up to her and hugged her " Valide she.." " she was? Is she okay? Did something happened to her?" I asked worried " no no..she.." she then broke down in tears " she wants to marry me to Rustem Pasha" then I froze, I didn't know how to tell her that I knew..but I had to have a reaction so she don't find out " oh..Mihirmah I.." " how could she do that when she knows I love someone else ? That's so crule " she said before looking at me "Mihirmah...I think Rustem Pasha is good for you..he seems like very nice men and-" she interrupted me" are you taking her side!? I can't believe this! " She shouted " I'm just trying to make you feel better! Bali beg would be er treat you right Mihirmah! He does not love you!" Mihirmah suddenly froze " you don't know that...he's just afraid to be hurt because of what happened with Ajbige-" I cut her off " no Mihirmah you're wrong..I'm sorry but you're very wrong" " prove me then...if he says it himself Illlet him go.." she said while her voice was cracking" fine I'll prove it to you..."