-I LOVE YOU-

Thorn's POV

She haven't came out of her room after I've done that. Sometimes I knock on her door to give her food but she doesn't responds nor opens the door and I felt mad about myself about it. She hates me now and I can't do anything about it because I'm the one who made her hate me this much.

I finished preparing the lunch as I put her food on the tray getting ready to deliver it to her, hoping that she opens her door and finally eat something.. it's been 2days since she locked herself in her room and I'm worrying a lot.

Balancing the tray with one hand, I started to raise my free hand to knock on her door but I stopped by her voice. I leaned my ear on her door trying to listen to her while keeping the tray of food in my hands.

"I-i needed to get out of here..--no, I just w-want to go away..please help me. -- Thank you Grayson." His name made my grip on the tray tightened as I started to see dark spots appearing on my vision, my head feels like exploding and my blood is boiling as fuck like a hot water in a kettle.

Without thinking I dropped the tray on the floor making a loud noise as the plates breaks and the spoons scattered around the floor, the glass of juice is now spilled on to the floor with the glass half broken then I kicked her door so hard enough to unattached the lock for me to come in.

"T-thorn!" A gasped of horror slips her mouth as she held her phone tightly on her chest while looking at me with her widened in shock eyes. She's wearing a tight jeans and a loose grey t-shirt, she's also wearing a pair of rubber shoes.

My eyes went on her side as I saw a large two duffle bags sitting on her bed just beside her. I saw her hands shakes as I realized what's going on.

She can't fucking leave me alone. Not now.. not ever.

"What's going on here?" I looked at her eyes as I spoked in a cold hard voice while gritting my teeth together.

"I-i .. n-nothing.." I saw her throat moved as I walked closer to her not minding the broken door behind me.
All I care right now is her and the thought of Francine leaving me just made me furious.

Am I that hard to be with!?

"Are you leaving me?" Trying to calm myself, I remain standing in front of her while staring at her eyes hoping that she will say 'no'. But, she didn't answered my question instead, she moved and back away from me like a frightened cat.

"I said are you fucking leaving me!!" Shouting at her in anger, I hit the lampshade beside her and it made a shuttering sound the moment it hit the floor as she screamed then nods her head furiously.

"Y-yes..yes! I'm leaving you.. I-i don't want to live here anymore. My mother is gone, I don't have any reason to continue living here anymore Thorn." She shouted back and I didn't know but every word she spat at me caused a tremendous amount of pain in my heart.

She didn't want to be here anymore and that means, she can't be with my side forever.

Closing the gap between us, I placed my palms on the side of her head as I lean down at her leveling my face to her face as I looked straight in her drowning eyes then whispers, "Please ..don't leave me."

Her orbs shakes as it glistens in tears that she's trying hard to keep.
"I can't.." Two words and I felt numb all of a sudden. I can't understand why she have to leave me when I already apologized to her about the things I've done.

Or maybe there is another reason, "I see.." I paused taking the time to move away a bit from her but my hands remained on the wall with her in between. I continued, "You're leaving me because you're gonna go with that Grayson guy, isn't that right!?"

"W-what? No...t-that's not true." She uttered in a low tone as she looked at me in disbelief.

"Then why the fuck are you leaving me.. tell me the fucking truth! Dammit!" I punched the wall just beside her head in anger as she screamed then crouched suddenly on the floor while covering her head with her hands. She's shaking in fear.

Looking down at her, my feet suddenly moved away from her frightened state as I stopped just about the end of her bed.

"I already apologized..hell, I regretted it big time and all I'm asking you is to not leave me alone but you can't give it to me. I've taken care of you...isn't that enough!" I shouted through gritted teeth while clenching my hands in a ball of fist making them almost pale and bloodless.

I can't feel anything..all I want right now is to shout and shout until I can feel again.

"Y-you didn't take care of me..you took advantage of me!!" She's finally standing on her feet with her tears rolling down her cheeks and dying on the floor, her index finger pointing at me as her other hand is clutching on her chest as if it can help her to breath and as much as I hate to admit it, she's right..I took advantage of her.

But, "It's because..I love you." She stared at me as if I've grown another head, her red lips are parted then after a moment she laughed hard through her tears.

"Love?.. I-it's not love Thorn." Using her soft hands she wiped her tears only to be replaced by another set of pearl like tears.

"Then if it's not love..tell me what is it that I'm feeling? Tell me why the fuck everytime I look at you or your just simple smile I felt like the happiest man ever, tell me why the fuck everytime you call my name using your luscious lips my heart flutters like a fucking teenager inlove, fucking tell me everytime you cry I feel pain as if there's a needle that's poking my heart and I needed to protect you. Tell me what is that feeling Francine." I started to walked closer towards her again, this time I took my time and when I reached her. I lift her chin up using my fingers to face me as I leaned down, my thumb caressing her lower lip as my other hand strokes her smooth cheek gently then whispered huskily in a low tone, "Because I know what I'm feeling and..I love you."

The moment I saw her in my room that night, I already knew that she's the girl in my dreams and the only girl that I'll spend my future with.
'i hate her' that's the lie I told myself at that night to cover and ignore the feelings that I'm feeling because I have to, but now I can't lie to myself anymore..fuck it! I don't wanna lie to myself anymore and I'm just hoping that she stays because I'll make her the happiest girl ever in the world and I'll make sure not to hurt her nor make her cry anymore.

"T-that's not true..m-maybe you're just infatuated to me.." no I'm not just infatuated at you, "you'll eventually f-forget me.." I would never forget you..not even in my wildest dreams, "you will find s-someone better Thorn." I won't and will never will find another one because for me you're the best.

I was about to open my mouth to correct all the wrong things she accused towards me but I was stopped by a car's honk.

"I-i ..I gotta go."

Still in the state to sinking the words she told me and the rejection she thrown at me with my mouth hanging in the air, I was pushed away from her and before I could realized, she already has her bags on her hand as she started to walk out the room.

"Francine! Wait!" I run behind her as fast as I can and hold her wrist, spinning her to face me before she could reach the main door's knob.

"T-thorn..please l-let me go." Her eyes looked at me begging as she tried to take her hand back from me but I didn't let her.

I can't..

"I love you.." is all I could told her still hoping that she'll accept me and don't leave me anymore.

"We're step siblings Thorn, we can't be together!" She shouted at me but not loud enough as pulled her close to me slamming her body on my chest. My arm wrapped around her waist pulling her even closer.

"Fuck that label, we aren't step siblings Francine and will never be step siblings! You understand!" Her body moved and struggled hard against me but I just kept her in place using my strong hands.

"L-let.me.go, Thorn!" She hissed in her gritted teeth as I heard a doorbell on the front door.

"Your mother and my father aren't married Francine. And I think you aren't that dumb enough to not know what the fuck that means." She swallowed hard before pushing me away on my chest as I let her go. She stumbled on her feet but I'm glad she didn't fell.

"You're crazy..." She spoke breathlessly while looking at me in the eyes using her teary ones.

I smirked as I slowly approach her, the doorbell on the door rung multiple times in a desperate way.

"Yes..madly, deeply..crazy inlove with you." And with that, I pulled her wrist one last time as I slammed by lips on her lips crashing it with her in a rough way. She started to throw punches at me and kicks in everywhere but I didn't let her go instead, I nibbled on her lips seeking for an entrance but she kept her lips closed. It made me pissed.

"Francine? Hey..are you okay!? Francine!!" I heard the loud banging on the floor as my hand slowly crept up inside her shirt then cupped her right breast in my hand, kneading it softly that caused her to moan.

"A-ahh..Thorn..mhmmp--n-no..s..t-aah..op..hmp--"I grabbed the opportunity to slipped my warm tongue inside her hot mouth as I explored around feeling thankful that she didn't bit me.

I was stopped by a cold hand that collided into my cheek making my head turn sideway as she pushed me away from her. I remained like that.

"I-I'm leaving.." and only that moment my head turned to her direction, she quietly picked up her bags from the floor after fixing her clothes then opened the door revealing Grayson wearing his worried face. He looked at me confusedly with a hint of suspicion over Francine's shoulder and I just stared at him, fighting his eye contact.

"Let's go." I heard Francine muttered as Grayshit carried her bags to his car and they drove off.

I was left behind, looking at the back of his car slowly disappearing in my eyes. I've never felt this kind of pain before..I've never felt so broken for a long time. The only time I grieved like this is when my mother passed away but now, it's like the pain that I've felt way back then was doubled by now.

And I can't help but to be mad at myself and about the things that I've done. I should've fight for my love and didn't let her leave me easily like that.

I've finally found someone that I can finally call mine but in just a mere seconds and a couple of mistakes..

I've lost her without even acknowledging the love that I have for her. She rejected me.

I looked at the huge mirror that hangs just between the windows and punched it hard not minding the shuttered glass that sinks deeply into my skin as the blood drips down and it covered my knuckles.

"Fuck it! Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!!" I shouted a couple of hundred times while keeps on punching the already broken mirror, realising the stress and pain in me while the memories of her going with that asshole instead of staying with me keeps on replaying in my mind and even if I want to forget it, I just can't. It's so fresh and clean and at the same time so hurtful.

This big empty house suffocates me.

I'm alone now and it's because of the things that I've done.