Beginning of Chapter Ten
-Déja Vu-
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:: 15 minutes later ::
(Jacob's Pov)

Returning from Diya's laundry room and after checking on Desiree, I finally took a seat on the couch shirtless. As you probably know, Dyme had a little fallin' out eailer and actually stained my white shirt with her bloody hand.

And I knew for sure that I couldn't go home without a shirt, or that's just begging for a whole notha' argument with Christine. So now I have to wait until my shirt is clean to go home, I just hope that bleach works😩

Diya on the other hand is sitting on the couch next to me, holding and messing with her arm that is now wrapped up in bandages. It was quiet in the dark living room, where only the light from her windows shined a nightly blue glow down on us. It was finally peaceful after one hell of a night.

"I'm sorry--you had to see me like that..." she confessed, saying it softly.

"Yeah me too. I hated seeing you hurt yourself like that. I guess that's really how your arm got like that sadly..."

This wasn't the first time Diya cut herself, this was just the first time I've actually seen it with my own two eyes. Her wrist and all the way up her forearm was proof that this wasn't anything new.

"Why do you cut yourself again anyways?" I looked at her, seriously.

"To let go of the pain. You see how calm and...soft I am now. I cut myself because it's soothes me and it strangely calms me down. I really don't expect you to understand that but I'm just telling you.......well again"

"Mm. But don't you think it's messing up your arm? You have so many cuts Diya and those cuts were there before we even met"

"I know. I told you I--I re-cut some of em not to make anymore. ...Maybe I am....crazy" she looked away.

"Nah, you just a weirdo..." I teased.

"I know" she smiled. "I'd rather be different than boring like yo ugly negro-ass"

"Yeah whatever. Now, please can you just tell me what's up with you? Why have you been acting so iffy towards me?"

"I won't anymore okay, I'm sorry for acting like a bitch. I was just...going through a lot of emotions and then I blew up in the kitchen. But now I'm fine and I promise you that I am. I was at my lowest point Jay, and I'm ashamed that you had see me like that"

"It's alright, I don't think of you any less or different..."

"I'm also sorry about being jealous..., I'm woman enough to tell you that I was in fact jealous of you and her. Only because she has you now. The one that got away for me,... the one man I would give my all too and just the one I loved period. But if she makes you happy, then I'll be happy for you okay. Just tell her to watch her mouth around me and our kid. I don't play that disrespectful shit"

"Trust me I know and I guess it's vice versa for me too. Even though I yelled at you saying "I don't love you, slut", you should've known that, ...that was complete bullshit. If I didn't love you, I would've never came back to you as much I did,... I would've cut you off completely,.... I wouldn't be here talking to you or concerned about you. I care about you Diya, honestly. I even told my mama this, that's how much I was worried about...us. I hate seeing you cry and...hurting yourself. I hate that you don't know how much of an amazing and great person you are deep down. So what if people don't see that, don't let it get you down, girl. Because what I see, is someone completely different than what you portray her to be. You're special and special to me. And I love you, I put that on my father's grave and everything else" I patted my chest were my heart was.

Looking down at her fingers, she smiled and finally looked up at me. "So what do you see.....when you look at me, be honest"

"A beautiful young woman, who's been hurt drastically in her life. But she still tries to be the best person at the end of the day. An amazing mother who would do anything for and to protect her baby. A strong person but isn't perfect all the time. And--.....I would say some other things but I can't. I gotta be loyal to my girl, right..." I stopped myself.

"What were you going to say?" she laughed.

"Nothing nosey. Maybe you'll find out later.."

"I understand, I admire your loyalty. But thank you for those words and yes....I have been hurt like you know. But I'm happy now. After you came into my life, things might've went south with us but....you bring me so much joy deep down"

"I can see that, ....well.... when you're not yelling at me of course" I chuckled, rubbing my head.

"But I love you Jacob, I always will. I Just ask that you do right by your daughter okay. And how come you haven't told me about your money situation yet?"

"How you find out?" my eyes widen.

"Around the block. So y'all got robbed huh? Damn. I'm sorry for hounding you for the cash but ya dumb-ass should've told me" she leaned back.

"I know. That was stupid but I was embarrassed to be honest"

"Well now I won't be so hard on you about that anymore okay, but still give me a couple of dollars for her"

"Of course. Now can I ask you something though?"

"Like?"

"Can I know about all ....the incidents where you had company. Like last night for example, what happen when you "went out"? Or the first time where you ain't wanna open the door..., then the phone thing--..."

"Mmm" she smirked, looking away. ...oh boy😒😒

"I'm just curious is all. I'll tell you whatever you want me to" I suggested.

"Oh, Is that so. Welp, that night I ain't wanna open the door, yes... I had male company over. An old uh-- flame of mine rather and I'm sure you know what happened after you and Des left. We did um...have sex. And the time I was moaning on the phone was just me moaning on the phone *she laughs* I was bored and bothered. And last night I um--....I hooked up with my best friend, crazy enough"

My eyes widen again. "You hooked up with Kehlani?"

She slowly nodded her head, confirming this shocking news to me. Since when did best friends start doing those kinds of things😣

"Wow, I ain't--well I knew you liked girls but...I never thought you'd sleep with one"

"Nigga, you watched me sleep with one in our foursome" ..Mm...so😏

"Yeah but there was me and that other guy watching, not just you and her"

"Well now you know, but I'm not a lesbian or anything.....nor do I ever wanna be with just a girl. Its just great sex..." she shrugged confidently.

"I bet. So um- who was on top?"

"Me nigga" she laughed. "Sike nah, you know I'm always the b*tch, so Kehlani took over"

"How she take over?"

"I'm not going into detail, you pervert. Its personal anyways, and that brings me to my favor"

"What favor?"

"Since I told you about my company, now tell me what you didn't want to tell me before, since you're a soon to be married man" ...awe damn😩

I blushed. "Come on--"

"Nope. Spill it..." she sat up.

"Why couldn't you have asked me something about Christine or something?" I sighed.

"Because I really don't care and I know you f*cked her, so tell me the secret now"

"This stays between us okay, if I catch this on social media or around the block, I'm a beat ya ass. And another thing, since I'm about to confess this to you, don't use it against me..." I warned her.

"Ouuu. What?"

"I-uh ...*scratches head* ...I'm still really attracted to you..." I confessed.

She gasped dramatically and held on to her chest. "Oh my god Jacob, I would've never known. Not by the way you smile at me, ask me questions and stare at my ass when you can" she said sarcastically.

I gave her a stale look, seeing her not impressed by my confession annoyingly. I guess she didn't get the sexual aspect of that. A nigga really.....missed her in every way possible. Up at night from wet dreams that don't contain my actual girlfriend, to scooping her body out right now as we speak.

She yawned. "But I'm a--go to bed now okay. Lock my door on your way out please when your shirt is done. I love you and thanks for our little talk. And by the way......I'm still attracted to you too, and I know you meant that in both ways. I miss you sexually too" she approached me.

"Yeah you're welcome. Love you too and uh-how you know I was talking about sexually?" I stood up to meet her.

"I know my ex-boyfriend all too well. But all feelings aside from now on okay. Hug?" ....wow. Did she just change or what?😨

I gave in and wrapped my arms around her, feeling her slim body against mine in our embrace. Her hair smelled so good too, man like always always always.

"Good night" she pulled back from our hug.

Just as we released each other, she stood up on her toes to plant a soft kiss on my cheek, making me blush a little.

"Night..." I said, watching her walk away now after that. ...damn that walk though😩😰maybe it's time to go home. ....but Damn I'm an idiot.

"You can stop staring now" she said, not even turning around.

"Ha....you got me that time..."

"I get you all the time nigga..."

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