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Hyunjin

The next morning, i woke up and was immediately greeted with a sleeping bangchan turned on his side, hands pressed together as his head was using them as a pillow.

I just layed there, comfortable next to my loving brother before i had to get up and deal with all the stress that came with the day.

What on earth am I supposed to do..

How am I supposed to keep going like this?...

She's the only one thats keeping me on my feet right now, but shes also one of the reasons I'm hurting..

How did i get here..?

How did I manage to make myself feel this way..?

I just wish something good would finally come my way, something that will make me happy...

"Goodmorning Jinnie.." Chan spoke with his morning raspy voice. He wrapped his arm around my upper back and pulled me closer to him as he hugged me.

"Are you feeling better?" He asked rubbing my back soothingly.

"Yes Chan, thank you for listening to me last night..." I dragged out.

"Ill always be here to listen Jinnie, okay? You can always come to me." I smiled and nodded, rolling over onto my back, not realising im already close to the edge, and just as im about to fall, Chan caught me.

"Clumsy as always, aish." Chan laughs and hops off the bed.

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Y/n

"My parents just left to work, my mom doesn't get home til seven, and my dad gets home at 8. So you don't have to worry much til that time." Minji explained.

She grabbed her bag and her phone, walking over to her closet, slipping on the shoes that were there.

"I get off at seven today, so you wont be alone with my mom here for very long." I nodded, folding up the blankets that were sprawled out on the floor.

"Do you want me to bring you back anything? Food wise?" She asked before walking out the door.

"Uh, no I'm okay but actually, I was wondering.." She turned fully to face me.

"Are you guys hiring?" She gave a look as she was thinking, then she hummed.

"I don't think so, but my so called friend Jisoo leaves tomorrow, she got this scholarship in California for some arts program and want her to start early."

"Maybe you can take her job spot? I can ask if you'd like?" I nodded jumping up and down happily.

"That would be amazing, thank you!" She vaguely smiled and said she'd see me later and took off to work.

I sat on her bed, and pulled out my phone scrolling through my messages.

I had messages from Jisung, Hyunjin, Minho, Woojin, and Felix.

All of them asking where I was. Though both Hyunjin and Jisung texted never mind or forget i asked.

Why would they text that? Do they both really not care anymore?

I mean, I was the one that left knowing how they both felt, so of course i hurt them.

For crying out loud, Jisung didn't even follow me out.

I went into Felix messages and i couldn't help but smile.

Lixie:

   y/n, where are you?

   why did you have to leave? please come back...

   at least come and see me please...

   okay, this is ridiculous, please answer me

   y/n, please come... i really miss you and i really need my bestfriend...

   i mean sister.... whoops :\

   actually i meant both, ugh! just come!!!

I felt bad for just leaving the way I did, it wasn't fair to Felix.

I sat and thought for a while, while scrolling through netflix trying to find a good kdrama to watch.

Not being able to find one i felt interested, i decided to go see Felix.

I changed into some light grey sweatpants and a faux fur half zip jumper in white. I threw my hair up into a messy ponytail and headed out the house.

When i arrived there, the nurse led me to the room Felix was in. In all honestly, and in reality, i haven't seen Felix since the last day at the lake house and might i say, i quite excited to see my bestfriend.

When we arrived to the door, the nurse gave me heads up that some one else was in there.

I thought it was one of the boys so i kindly asked the nurse if knew the name of the person with him.

"I believe she said her name was Aly." I quirk an eyebrow in confusion as to never hearing about an Aly up until today.

I thanked the nurse and walked in, scared of how Felix may react, yet i was filled with so much excitement to see him.

When i entered, a girl, maybe like five years or so older than us with dark brown hair that was cut to her shoulders was standing on the side of the hospital bed, hiding any fact that i was present in the room.

I stepped forward, coming into sight of Felix who was smiling sweetly at the Aly.

In the corner of his eye, he saw me and looked directly at me and i swear this boys eyes went so wide and i couldnt help laugh at the amount of happiness this boy showed.

"Y/n! Your here!" He threw his hands out wide, opening them up for me to hug him which i did. I was careful to hug him considering he still may be sore from his wound.

We were both interrupted by the said girl Aly, clearing her throat.

We broke apart from the hug, and looked up her.

"Oh sorry! I forgot to introduce you guys." Felix spoke rather excitedly.

He gestured his hands to me with a smile. "This is my adopted sister y/n." Then gestured his hands towards Aly. "And this is my biological sister Aly."

Wait, what the hell? Biological?

"Hi, nice to meet you. Ive heard a lot about you from Felix.. You know, since ive been here he wouldnt stop talking about how much he just wanted to see you.. even though we havent seen each other in almost seven years." She mumbled the last part, quietly so Felix and I wouldn't hear but we did.

"Aly, you know seeing you is amazing, i really have missed you and wondered about you thus entire time. I wasn't sure if something good or bad happened to you, considering I was forbidden to search for you." Forbiddened?

"That was probably because I asked them to make sure you couldnt find or hear from me."

"Why would you do that?" Felix asked.

"Because i couldn't help face you after what i did." She said this with much sadness and guilt.

"What did you do?" Felix asked.

For a moment she was quiet, not sure if she should say anything.

"Because I killed our father."

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Guys, Im very sorry for the awful late update.

The passed 2 weeks have been brutal. Much fighting in the beginning and it was awful, but now my entire family has to get tested for covid since my brother was tested positive a couple days ago & since everyone related in my family were just at a birthday gathering this passed Saturday, it doesnt help the stress that my brother isn't the only one getting sick.

For the passed week i haven't been home, since i show no symptoms of this virus, so its kinda sad and stressful when you cant see your mom or brother & when i could, its through the door.

But luckily, today is my first day back at home before i go back to my grandma's, so i took time to write something here because being away doesn't really give me much of a headspace to write as much.

I just got tested today, along with my aunt, cousin & mom. Lets hope & pray our results come back negative.

I love you my lovely readers !

Ill try & update as soon as possible <3