IM AT 60 CHAPTERS WTF!?

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Bangchan

"Please don't tell the boys Chan, please." Y/n begged one last time before i decided to leave.

"Okay, okay i promise i wont tell anyone." I kissed Minji goodbye and went out the window, heading back home where half of us were at.

As I got home, I saw Minho sitting outside on the bench, head in hands.

When i stepped up the porch, his head picked up and he quickly wiped his face to try and hide the fact that he may have been crying.

"Chan, where did y-"

"Don't talk to me." I snapped, stopping a few feet away from the door, facing Minho.

"Excuse me?" Minho questioned, brows furrowed in confusion.

"Don't excuse me, I know what you said to y/n. That was really low of you." I shouted

"You d-"

"You dont have any room to speak that way to her! You know what its like to be thrown in and out of the system, feeling unwanted and having no one to go to! Hell, we all do, thankfully no one is as stupid as you to say such things to y/n or anyone else for that matter.

"Y/n is just as much as our family as you are, this is her home and you can't just get rid of her, its like us saying we want to get rid of you. How would you feel if the people who took you in and became your family wished for you to be thrown away? Hmm?" I was angry, fuming with so much anger that i didn't even realise i was inches away from Minho now.

"I'm sorry.." He apologized.

"Im sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry.." He began to sob while repeating those words. He ended up losing his strength and fell into my arms, shaking and crying.

"I was just scared.." He cried out, gripping my shirt tighter and tighter.

"Minho what's wrong with you? Why are you so on edge?" Minho backed away and sat on the bench wiping at his eyes.

"Those men, when they showed up here ... I was scared, I was frightened and its my fault they found you guys, its my fault that boy Wooyoung died, Felix and y/n were shot because of me. It's my fault that Felix is laying in that hospital bed constantly asking for y/n not know that shes gone because of me.." I sat next to him, placing my hand on his should.

"Look, there wasn't much you could have done when those men showed up, you acted on instinct. Though Wooyoung died, and Felix and y/n were shot, they lived." I pulled him into a side hug to show him some comfort.

"Things aren't always bright, there will be dull dark moments and lucky for this family, that moment has passed and we can finally look forward for our next bright one." Minho pulled back and nodded thanking me in the process.

"I really am sorry about y/n though, I knew when i said those awful things that it was wrong.. I was just so angry and scared that it was easier to blame her than to cope and understand the situation better.." He admitted.

"Wait, you said you knew what i said, how? Jisung is the only one who knows but you didn't come straight home with me and Binnie. Do you know where y/n is?" He asked and i immediately panicked.

"Ha, uh what? Oh shoot, you know I uh... I left the shower running!" I quickly stood up running to the door.

"Shower? You just got here though!?" Minho shouted watching as I ran off.

I'm so bad at keeping secrets...

I quickly walked up the stairs and its like the universe hates me.

Jisung and Hyunjin both walk out of Jisungs room, both talking about y/n.

"Hey, did you go see Minji?" Jisung asked.

"What no? I mean yes, y/ns not there!" And I ran, ran fast into my room slamming the door.

And almost on instinct i jumped away from the door as it busted open.

"Y/ns at Minjis?" Hyunjin asked with Jisung by his side. I quickly threw myself on the bed and sighed.

"God I'm seriously the worst with keeping secrets.." I mumbled.

"So she is?!" Jisung shouted and just as they were about to run off, i had to stop them.

"Wait! You can't go to her!" They both turned and gave me a questioning look.

"I told her i wasn't going to say anything... she knows that if she wants to come back she can, but honestly i think she genuinely needs space okay? I think she will come back, shes just been through a lot and needs to figure things out." They sighed both looking at each other weirdly when they sighed at the exact same time.

"In the meantime, act as if you don't know where she's at. Shes only staying with Minji for a week, you can last that long, right?" Hyunjin nodded, looking sad but Jisung on the other hand looked quite upset and stormed off into his room slamming his door.

After a few moments, Hyunjin came to sit next to me.

"Did she look okay? Was she sad?" He asked, staring down at his hands.

"Yes Jinnie, she looked fine. She wasn't so much sad, more just tired." He nodded, deep in thought.

"Jinnie, i promise she'll come back. Remember she loves you, why wouldn't she want to come back to you?" He scoffed lightly and threw himself back onto my bed.

"I'm not the only one she loves.."

"Wait, she's still into Jisung?" I asked and he just layed there staring at the ceiling.

"Damn, where have I been?" I layed next to Jinnie and stared up at the ceiling with him.

"She's going to pick Jisung.." I turned over and saw a tear escape Jinnies eye.

"I see the way they are together, i hear how they are together... it's no secret that she loves him. Though, she sticks around me longer and longer, having me worry every second that this moment could be the moment she ends it and its heartbreaking feeling this while being with her... but i stick through it because i love her so much." He began crying into his hands and of course i pulled him closer to me so he cried onto my chest.

Man, i really need to change my shirt.

"I know i have no room to talk and tell you what to do, but maybe you should be the one to end it? Love shouldn't feel this way for you, not if your crying and anticipating for the worse to happen.." He nodded while crying into my shirt.

"I just love her so much Channie..." And with that he eventually fell asleep cuddling with me.

I feel so bad, he's really hurting and all he does is cover it up.

I wish i could help him, make him happy...

I managed to get up from under him and cover him with my blanket and just as i was about to walk to Felixs bed, he gripped my arm.

"Channie please stay.." He spoke softly as he tugged on my wrist.

I nodded and turned the light off, laying next to him while he fell straight to sleep, as did I minutes later.

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OKAY WTF DUDE, BIAS AND BIAS WRECK FYCKING IT UP OMG 😻

HYUNJIN THE THINGS ID LET YOU DO TO ME-

huh? I didn't say anything, im innocent..

;))

but fr, can i please have him though like damn.

hyunjin, he makes me feel so many different emotions. most of the time i just wanna cry bc i love him way to damn much.

like it hurts to write him in this book bc hes always fycking hurting. >:(

like pls explain to me how you can't love this boy?

like we're gonna have some issues if you don't love him, i will spam you with photos/gifs/videos of him until you love and dream of him.

god, if i woke up and saw this ^ next to me, id flip and cry, holding him so tight and close making sure he doesnt go anywhere.

well, its time for me to sleep. its about to be 5am. hyunjin and i need our beauty sleep. :) hehe.

also, sorry for the crappy chapter :€