7:43pm.

"Wow, I can't believe they are dating." I tell myself. "Who?" A voice behind me ghosted. Why does he always need to play the creep? Is this how the four will be? They come behind you and just talk like if they are here the whole time? Since the two lovebirds are gone, I come out of the closet and run straight to my room. I strip out of my short and oversize shirt into more showable clothes. I am going to stalk their date. I wear a tight white long sleeve shirt and a pink button up skirt on top of it. I decided to wear my low ankle white adidas shoes in case I'll have to run and because they are more comfortable. I take a pair of sunglasses with me too, you know, to finish my look. I open the door to leave when I bump into a tall figure. Joon. I know I can't leave the house, but Kaiya has a date and I must be there. I need to get rid of Joon first.

Nilla: Oh... Hi Joon! What's up? (I push pass him and walk away intensively).

Joon: Hey Nilla! You know you can't go out right? (He screams).

He starts to run after me and catch up. Dammit! I should have restarted my running program instead of perishing on my couch eating chips. We both walk toward the entrance door. I open the door and bump into none other than Jay. Holy shit. I am doomed. Jay is nice, but he is the devil himself. If we don't listen to him, he will scream until we can't bare with people anymore. He is like a mom who keeps nagging at their children for doing something that they shouldn't be doing in the first place. How am I going to explain the situation now?

Jay: Where are you two going? (He asks suspiciously).

Joon: Just walking around the mountains, going hiking, why?

Oh my god. I can't believe he is helping me after he literally told me few minutes ago that it was forbidden for me to go out. I decide to play along with him.

Nilla: Yeah! I really like walking around the mountains. Plus, my outfit is perfect for this occasion. I need to take new pics for my account. Jay, come on! This place is literally isolated from every civilization and it's so boring being inside all day. I feel like Rapunzel!

I can see in Jay's eyes that he was reconsidering his opinion or maybe asking himself why I am going hiking with a skirt. He knows that if he holds me hostage for a long time and doesn't give me liberty, running away will be better than staying here.

Jay: Alright alright. (He admits defeat). But Joon is going with you.

Nilla: WHAT? NOOO!

Joon feels disappointed with my answers. He thought that he was already in my good side, but clearly, he was wrong because I didn't want to hang out with him.

Joon: I thought we had something going on after that talk, but I guess I was wrong. Bye.

His nature was so cold that he left me speechless. He goes straight to his room.

Jay: Well then Nilla, you just lost your only chance to go out. Now back to your room.

I just agree without putting a fight. Kaiya also can't leave the house so if he knows that, he will throw a tantrum, and nobody wants to witness that.

Jay: By the way, where is Kaiya? And Yoon?

Nilla: Having sex. (I say while going upstairs).

He is disgusted.

Jay: Well, let's not disturb them, I guess. I'm going to cook diner and I want all of you here. Am I clear?

Nilla: Yes mom!

Once I arrive in front of my room, I take a glance at the closet. I think I hurt him. Joon has always been cheerful and is the type to be honest. When he said bye earlier, there was hurt in his eyes. "Why do I know and feel everything like this? It's annoying!" I groan to myself. I sigh. Before I know it, my feet are directing me to him. I open the door and cross this annoying maze. I knock on his door. No answer. "Joon? It's me. Can I come in?" Still no answer. Maybe he was on the rooftop? He said he always go there when he wants peace. I turn his door knob only to find nobody in his room, so I go straight to the other closet and bring down the pair of stairs. "I can't believe he's making me go all the way up there." I exhaled. "Go where?" A voice behind me said. I turn around to find a clueless Joon with a lollipop in his mouth. He is so close to me. I push him slightly and get out of this tiny space. Why are my ears burning suddenly?

Nilla: I came to apologize. I know I was mean back then and I didn't want to hurt you, but like... I was in a hurry, you gotta understand me.

He walks around his room only to sit down on his desk chair.

Joon: I'm not mad. (He giggles)

Nilla: You're not? (I ask confused)

Joon: How can I be mad at my favorite girl? I love you too much for this bullshit.

Nilla: Dude! I ain't your girl. Plus, you haven't seen me for the last years. I can't believe you still hadn't move on and meet other girls.

Joon: That's because my heart is related to yours.

Nilla: Cut that Soulmate!au fanfic, buddy!

Joon: Alright, love! Anyways, apology accepted.

Nilla: Yeah... about that, I also have another favor to ask you.

Joon: What it is?

Nilla: Let's go on a date!

Joon jumps out of his chair, eyes widen and almost choking on his lollipop.

Joon: Can you repeat what you just said so I know I'm not imagining anything.

Nilla: I said, let's go on a date!

Joon: Alright. But let me change first. (He is blushing.)

***************

8:36pm.

I walk toward the entrance before turning around and tell him to dress in black clothes. He asks why and I just say it is because I want him to match outfit with me. Lies. It is because black clothes look so good on him. I wait for him downstairs where Jay is still cooking. Joon arrives later dressed in a black button up shirt and a skinny jean. Wow! Them legs though. We make eye contact and I point my finger to make him realise that Jay is still an obstacle. He gives me sign to follow him, so I did. We are back to his room where he writes a note and stick it on his door. It says that we will be going out, so Jay doesn't need to wait for us for diner nor for Kaiya and Yoon. He brings me to the rooftop and ask me the impossible.

Joon: We're gonna sneak out from there.

Nilla: Dude! I'm going to just plop on the concrete and die!

Joon: No, you're not. Just trust me.

He goes behind the chimney only to bring out a rope. He knots it around the chimney before throwing the rest down the rooftop until it hits the floor.

Joon: I'll go first and if you fall, I'll catch you. (He smiled)

Nilla: Don't disappoint me. I'm trusting you on this one.

Why didn't I argue more on the type of sneaking out? He goes down like a pro and in a second, he reaches the floor. He pulls the rope to tell me that it is my turn. "May God be with me." I prayed before crossing the border of the rooftop. "You can do it Nilla. You just have to grab that rope and go down." I inhale and exhale. I grab the rope and my legs are in the air. Gosh, I forgot that my arms are weak, so I literally slide down the rope. I slide down that three levels house! My freaking hands were on fire! It was so fast that I didn't even have time to scream. I close my eye and when I open them, I am in Joon's arms. Once I realise it, I immediately jump out of it and land on my two feet.

Joon: Told you, you were gonna fall back in love with me.

Nilla: Ha. Ha. You funny. (I mocked)

Joon: By the way, where are we going?

Nilla: Oh... I heard there was a carnival near there so maybe we can...go? (I asked hesitantly).

Joon: Is it because you want to spy on Yoon and Kaiya's date?

Nilla: Is it wrong to do that? (I was embarrassed)

Joon: Of course not! Let's go!

He saved me and likes me. He is nice and handsome too. He's the perfect man. My ideal type. I wish I stayed in Korea. I would have grown up with him and be fond of him. He is always there for me and treats me right. Am I falling in love? God no! I don't want to because I know there is a high chance that I'm going to die sooner or later. I don't want to leave him painfully hurt when I'll be gone.

I admire his features before he stops on his track and turns around to face me. He bends a little, so our eyes are at the same level. He offers his hand for me to hold and I take it without hesitation. I blush. Normally, I would just be disgusted and talk back, but I guess something has changes in me. "You can't love him out of pity, Nilla. This is not love." The thoughts are coming in like a tornado. But do I really love him out of pity? He shakes my hand to inform me that we have arrived. It was only an hour walk since Joon has long legs. He wasn't lying when he said that I'll have to run. I must catch up with him because every time I take four steps, he only needs two. He buys tickets and we are finally in.

9:30pm.

It was easy to spot Kaiya and Yoon. His blond hair betrays him. It is blond platine. They are sitting on a table and feeding each other ice cream. If she wasn't my friend, I would have cringe. But looking at the both, I feel proud. My girl is getting the love she deserves.

Nilla: Awn! They are so cute together. I feel like a proud mom.

Joon: You find this cute?

Nilla: Small actions are better than words, Joon. Yoon is the king of that, and Kaiya is so lucky to have him.

I keep looking at them before they stand up and go somewhere. "Hey Joon, let's go!" I try to smack him but there is only air. I turn around and he is nowhere to be seen. Too bad, I'll follow them myself. It's so funny how every time they look in my direction, I turn around dramatically to take pictures of the sky. They are walking hands in hands along the port. You can see the ocean from there. It is beautiful. "One point to Yoon." I noted. Kaiya is wearing a ripped black skinny jean with a wine-red blouse tucked under her pants, a pair of black sneakers and Yoon is (FINALLY) wearing some casual clothes. He is wearing a comfy stretchable black pant with a black tee and a black jacket with a long black coat on the top of everything. Wow... If he isn't dress like a businessman, he is dresses like the mafia. They are so cute together that I start walking behind them. I try to take some decent pics of the two without being notice. Even though they'll get mad if they found out that I was stalking them, they'll thank me later for those cute pics. At least Kaiya will. Don't know about Yoon. Kaiya and Yoon aren't the type to hang out in a crowded place. They walk to the beach and sit on a place where a blanket was already laying there waiting for its owner. Yoon planned everything. It is a picnic with a beach view, and he cooked everything. "That guy is smooth af." I agreed with myself. "One thousand points to Yoon." Since they didn't go that far, I stay on the bridge perpendicular to them to spy. The ramps of the bridge are made of metal and is at least 1m40. It is as tall as my chest. Yoon gives his coat to Kaiya. He takes out some food and feeds her first. He basically didn't eat a lot because looking at Kaiya is enough for him to be full. Full of love. "Why didn't I ask her on a date sooner?" He thought to himself. He could have been happy for the last two years, but none of them made a move and his job was getting in their way. It is hard to date someone when you constantly need to watch over us so that we don't die. Looking at them, I feel envious. When will I have something like this too? There's Joon, but I don't want to put him in more danger. Look at Yoon, he didn't admit his feeling all those years because he wanted to protect us, to protect her. Their hanging spot is hidden behind some rocks and nobody always come there to walk. I know because I've been standing on the bridge behind them for awhile and just come to realise that it is freezing outside. Why am I dumb enough to choose to wear this outfit? I thought it'll be nice since I'll be taking some aesthetic pictures, but no. I lost my photographer since we have arrived. Kaiya wraps Yoon's big coat around her and then leans on Yoon chest. She is making herself comfortable. Yoon takes out another pair of blankets and wraps it around him and his girl so she doesn't feel cold. And here I am, stalking and freezing my ass off, but that doesn't restraint me to take more pictures of them being lovey-dovey. As I was complaining about Joon and how he needs to step up his game, someone hug me from behind.

Nilla: Talk before I throw you down that bridge.

Joon: That's the Nilla I know.

He frees me from his arms and comes next to me and relax. I look at him from the side to give him hints that I was freezing, but he just continues to sip on his drink. "Minus one million point to Joon." I noted mentally.

Joon: I bought a drink for you, but I drank it while searching for you. (He takes a sip from his). Also, I know you're cold, but it is forbidden to walk around naked.

He tries to make a conversation with me, but I just reply with small answers. He then looks at the beach only to find Yoon's arms wrapping around Kaiya. I see him cringe, but then he lows down his head. His eyes are now staring at me. When I stare back, it wasn't hurt that I see, but only sadness.

Joon: Why don't you love me back?

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12:00am.

Kaiya comes home two hours later. She enters the room with a smile plastered on her face. It is as big as the sun. She is happy and I'm thankful that at least one of us is getting the love we have craved for.

Nilla: What's that smile for?

Kaiya: Nothing! (She said smiling)

Nilla: That's clearly not nothing, woman. Spill the tea!

Kaiya: I wish I can, but I promise not to say anything?

Nilla: Boii I already covered you up, so you don't need to lie to me about you and Yoon dating.

Kaiya: Oh shit! Are we so obvious than that? Please don't tell me that Jay knows. He can never-

Nilla: He asked where you were and then ask about Yoon.

Kaiya: What did you tell him?

Nilla: That you were having sex lol.

Kaiya: YOU WHAT?! Omg that's worse than telling him that we are dating, Nilla!

Nilla: Well technically no 'cause he thinks you don't have feelings for each other. You know that Jay does not want them to date us because we're a threat literally. They'll lose concentration and won't act rationally.

Kaiya: Joon's doing that already with you. Anyways, how do you know that I'm dating Yoon?

Nilla: Saw him give you flowers? Kiss on the cheeks? Holdings hands? Feeding each other ice cream? PUBLIC CUDDLING? (I asked while emphasizing every sentence).

Kaiya: Don't tell me you stalked us? (She glared at me). Give me the pics! I know you have pics. I hope you took a freaking cute one or I swear to god you're the worst stalker ever!

Nilla: Chill woman! I got the pics! I knew you would have wanted them. (We laugh).

Kaiya: OMG! This one is cute! This one too! Oh shit, that too!

She keeps saying that to all the pics even though some of them are blurry as hell. There is a moment of silence before she talks again.

Kaiya: Nilla... Have Yoon ever told you how he was abandoned? I mean, all of them are, but like they don't like to talk about it.

Nilla: Hmmm... I only know Joon's story though. For Yoon... I just know that he was found by my dad on the streets. Why?

Kaiya: Is it really that bad?

Nilla: Joon's story? Well yeah, but I don't feel like talking about it.

She wasn't talking about Joon's story, but Yoon's one. Because of how Yoon acts around me and had been here for me all my life, she thought I knew everything about him. My answer told her that it is not the case. Yoon knows more about me than me about him. Tears start forming in her eyes. Her vision is getting blurry. She turns around, back face to me, and lift her head to keep the tears from falling. What happened after I was gone? She started telling me his tragic backstory.

Yoon wasn't abandoned by his parents. He was left alone. He never knew who his dad was and didn't want to know if he was still alive or not. He told her that his mom was abused for years with the man she had an arranged marriage with. His mom would tell her parents, but she was poor, and they needed money. His grandparents literally sell her to an abuser only for the money. How can they do that? He also confessed that he knew everything because her mom wrote him a letter before dying. If his mom wanted to live and come back home, she should have a child and so she did. She conceived a child with the man she hated the most. And guess what? She almost bleed to death because she couldn't make one. The man seems to like the way she bleeds while hitting her. How many times do you think she tried? A lot. She was infertile that's why her parents told her to do so. They knew she couldn't and so she won't come back home ever again and will just please the man. She couldn't feel her body anymore until one day, a miracle happened. Once she knew that she was pregnant and it was confirmed by the doctor, she used the money she saved and left for her hometown. Only to find what? The house was sold, and no one was living in there for many years now. The house rotted when she arrived. Her family left with the money the man gave them. She decided that it was enough. There was only one person who she could count on and it was her son. She took care of him as hard as she can. She roamed around the streets to find something to eat and to find a job too. She found one in a bar in the scariest neighborhood ever. It was full of smokers, drug dealers, prostitutes and every kind of people you didn't want to mess with. She even brought Yoon to her job knowing the fact that it was a sketchy place and she didn't have money to pay for a babysitter. The landowner was kind enough to land them a room, but she had to work for them for free. Thankfully, they hired her as a janitor, so she didn't need to meet unexpected visitors. Once Yoon was big enough, they left. She ran away hoping to never come back. It was too good to be true. She ran into the man who she was married to. It was night time already. He hit her as much as he can for the four years she left him. He saw her mom's eyes and knew what she wanted to say. Hide. He went behind a large trash bin and covered his ears with his hands. When he knew that there weren't noises anymore, he came out of his hiding only to find his mom lifeless body on the floor. She wasn't dead, just weak. "Yoon," she took his hands in hers, "can you help mommy walk?" She asked. He helped his mom stand up, but she kept falling apart. "Where are we going, mommy?" he asked. "To our happiest place." She smiled at him despite her pain, "You remember where it is right, Yoon?" She silently whispered. "Of course, I do!" It took them all night to arrive at their destination. It was the beach. Their happiest moment was at the beach. A place where there was no one to disturb them and where they can be free and happy together. They sat next to the rocks where it is hidden from viewers. "You did a great job, Yoon! Mommy is tired. Very very tired." she said in her weakest voice. "Can you help me meet the ocean?" she asked Yoon. If this is her final wish, he will grant it for her. He walked into the ocean with his mom until he couldn't touch the bottom anymore. "Now let me go, Yoon. It's time to let mommy go." Her eyes were half closed. He released his mom's arms around him, and she fell in the water.

The cold waves of the ocean took her away from him.