Staying with Blu when she's this upset is a real test. It's been three days and she won't leave her mom's bed. She sleeps in it every night and I find her smelling her pillows trying to remember her smell.

Seeing someone you love upset does something to you inside. I can't leave her, but I want to so bad. She won't talk, eat or move. I'm surprised she has the will to keep breathing. Her solemn face makes me miss her awful jokes or her cool lingo that only she finds funny. I think about her smile and I just wish she'd put it on for me.

Rickey's trying to stay strong. The poor guy has been planning his mothers funeral that's tomorrow alone with minor details Blu writes down for him. There father hasn't called or came by. Pepper told me everything. He'd been cheating on her for months maybe even years. Ms. Waters refused to believe it until she kicked him out for Blu and he never came back. The doorbell interrupted my thoughts.

Pepper brings us dinner every night and I'm just sick of the feeling of depression wafting off Blu. She doesn't deserve to feel this way. I wish I could do more for her.

"Blu, are you hungry?" I asked and knowing her answer I walked off after a minute of her staring. "Wait." I heard softly fall from her lips. I walked to her bedside. "I'm a little hungry. Will you get the food and come eat with me?" She said and I smiled which I never really do.

"Alright," I said as I trekked down the stairs. Pepper hugged me which is weird, but I mean everyone's depressed and I don't want to be a asshole, so I just softly pat for a second and pull away. "Is Blu up for dinner tonight?" She asked and I shook my head. "Yes actually, she spoke to me." I said grabbing her salmon.

"That's good. I'll go get Rickey and eat with him. You two should talk." She said and I walked back upstairs and Blu wasn't in her mothers room. She was in her own.

"Babe?" I questioned and she shook her head. I handed her the food and watched her drool with her eyes over the plate. She must be starving.

"Im sorry for worrying you. I'm okay." She said after a good swallow of salmon. "Blu, you don't have to be okay. It's normal to grieve. Don't apologize. I can't imagine your pain right now. You were there for me when I suffered a loss and I'm going to be here for you." I said watching her closely. The way she moved her jaw while chewing. Her face as she got a taste of food after days. Her hair up in a messy bun and her fresh face just as beautiful as it would be covered in products.

"I know, but it's been three days and my mom said to be happy and all I can do is honor her request and sitting shacked up isn't being happy. Touring starts in four days and I can't back out. I'm depriving you of a life as well." She said and hearing her voice melt to form words made me smile.

"You're not depriving me. I can't say I haven't wanted to leave this house, but it's not because I want to have a life. You know how I get when you're sad. I don't like it one bit." I replied and she looked at me.

"Everything's going to be alright. I honestly feel fine right now. I miss her, but she's not coming back and I've read her letter a million times these past few days and I understand." She said looking deep in my eyes. "Blu, I'm glad you feel that way, but you don't feel it's to soon." I said back and she sighed.

"Come with me." I looked up this time. "Where? I asked. "On tour. I want you to come and it'd mean the world having you by my side." She said and I smiled. "Blu, that's a really big decision for you to make right now and I don't think you're in a state to understand what you're asking me."

"I know that I love you and you're the only person I could imagine to be by my side." She said back. I got on her bed and grabbed her hand.

"Blu, I can look in your eyes and tell that you aren't fully you. Let's just give it a few days." I suggested. "You're just afraid of the commitment of coming. I knew the day of graduation I truly am going to lose you." She said to me.

"I don't want to fight with you right now. I'm going to go home as long as you're okay." I said getting up. "No, sit down. I want to talk not fight." She said and I followed her orders. She placed both her hands on my cheeks and pulled me close staring deeply into my eyes. "Why are you so stubborn?" She asked with a slight smile.

"I didn't want to fight either, but anytime you make comments I want to be mean. Fighting is inevitable between us with you're smart mouth and my bad temper. You don't need that right now. It's a three month long tour, Blu. You're right. We fight way to much and for three months I'm going to be stuck with you." I said and she smiled knowing I was joking.

"No. It won't be like that. I want you to come because I need you. I need to protect you and keep you safe. I'm not losing another person I love. You're one person I truly can't live without. You make me happy and that's what my mom wanted for me. To be happy and that's you. You're a part of my happiness." She said as I pulled her close lying her body on top of my own.

"I love you and if you really want me to come I'll go. Just know I'm protecting you though." I said as she kissed me.

"Matthew Summers, you're the love of my life and I'm more than thrilled to know you love me just as much." She said clinging to me. "More. I love you more, Blu. More than you could imagine." I replied softly.
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Blu

Pepper came over early to dress me. I was awake already. She did my hair and she'd bought me a nice knee length black lace dress. It was very much my mothers sense of style.

"You okay, girl?" She asked as I looked solemnly at myself in the mirror. "Yes, I'm just not ready to handle the crowd. We should've done a invitation only funeral. That's much more my mother's style." I said smiling thinking about her.

"Very true. Alright, you're all done." She spoke extra cheery. "You seem happy." I said standing to have my shoes put on.

"I have major tea, but I can't disclose names." She said and her face turned beet red. "Pepper, spill now!" I said smiling.

"I kissed another guy. It wasn't my boyfriend and I liked it." She said covering her face. "Pepper, you little ho ho." I replied and she laughed.

"I feel terrible, but the kiss was perfect. We've grown apart with our busy schedules. It took everything to get his schedule to match up to be here for your graduation." She added. "I liked him, Pep. I thought he was your guy." I said.

"Oh, Ms. Sky! Don't make me feel guilty. I thought so to until I kissed Mystery Guy. We really clicked."

"As long as he makes you happy and I of course approve him. I guess it's okay, but you have to tell Mitch." I said.

She shook her head. "Of course. He's like a best friend to me. I hope he understands." She said. "If you two are really growing apart, he will." I said kissing her cheek.

"Your car is ready, Sky." We walked down the stairs and hopped in the back. The car ride was silent like most rides to funerals are. Rickey sat very still. Pepper fidgeted with her hands and with all of the tea Pepper spilled. The mystery guy had to be my brother.

We pulled up and Matthew was waiting on me outside of the church. I hugged him tight. "This is a bad time, but you look gorgeous." He whispered.

"Thanks." I said leading us in. Her casket was elegant and sleek. The church was slam packed and the front row was reserved for us. Walking closer and closer made me cling to Matthew tighter. Passing by taking one last look at my beautiful mother made me shed multiple tears. Matthew passed me a handkerchief as we sat down.

The funeral preceded and everyone had such kind words about her. She really was wonderful, even though being my mother. We fought and she said lots of the wrong things and I was a brat. I loved her with all my might as she did me.

The music started back up and the paul barriers carried the casket out and we followed behind them to put my mother in the ground.

I cried harder thinking about that fact. Matthew held my hand as we walked to the graveyard. Everyone I passed said "sorry for your loss" making me feel worse. The funeral was now officially over and everyone was heading out.

I caught sight of my father headed in Rickey and I's direction. I groaned softly. He stopped a few inches in front of us.

"I see you're still around." He said snakily at Matthew. "Yeah unlike you." He shot back trying to pull me from the disaster waiting to happen.

"No, I'd like to talk to my daughter and son." He said and Matthew moved slightly in front of me.

"What do you want? Don't you think you've caused enough issues for our family. Your wife's funeral was today. The one you walked all over and cheated on." Rickey spat standing up for us.

"Don't get defensive. I came to see her one last time." He said like a inconsiderate bastard. "You son of a bitch. She was your wife. You unfaithful piece of trash. You haven't called. You never went to see her in the hospital. I hate you. You killed her!" I yelled at him.

"Sky-Blu there's no need to be that way. I'm sorry, but I didn't give her cancer." He said to me. I looked at him disgusted as Matthew ripped his hand from mine. I looked in the same direction as him.

Matthew's mother was walking toward us. My dad turned and reached for her.

"Matthew." She said nodding at him as she grabbed my father's hand. Matthew was fuming. He didn't speak. I looked at my dad and all my anger was released.

I smacked him as hard as I possibly could. I jumped on him and beat his face and head.

"You sick, disgusting man whore. Who brings their whore to their wife's funeral? You sick twisted bastard." I yelled receiving looks from people in the graveyard. Matthew pulled me off as my dad stood up.

"You little bitch. I'm your father." He said and Matthew decked him across his cheek knocking him out for a second. His mother looked stunned, but almost used to it.

"Don't ever call her a bitch." He looked at me, shaking his hand out from the pain he probably had.

"I'm calling the police." His mother said. He looked at her and back to me. He started to run. His long legs taking him as far away as possible and his tramp mother steady dialing.

Rickey looked embarrassed. Pepper was just awkwardly there and my fathe....the man I despise laid grasping his busted lip.

"Let's go." I called to Rickey and Pepper. We hopped in our car and told the driver to go home.

"Matthew has a nice hand on him." Rickey said and Pepper laughed.

"That was literally insane. Sky-Blu, I'm sorry about your dad." She said.

"He's not my dad. He's nothing like the man I once knew." I spoke shedding tears. "Do you have any idea where Matthew is?" She asked.

"I'm not okay." I said softly and no other words were spoken.

When we reached the house, I ran upstairs to the shower. I cut it on and fell to the floor fully dressed letting the water wash over me. I cried and the louder I got the higher I cut up the shower. My makeup smeared down my cheeks and my mascara running. My dress was soaked.

I changed into a pair of shorts and a nice tee. I plugged up my phone and opened my computer and answered all my emails. Like life was the same. My father was downstairs not calling me a bitch and associating with drug addicts. My mom across the hall reading or downstairs baking cookies.

I shut the computer and dialed Matthew. No answer. I grabbed my keys and headed for my car. I caught sight of Pepper and Rickey smiling and conversating. I shut the front door softly and I was headed for the only place possible that he could be.

His footprints still in the ground. I followed the trail and to find him in the Hiding Place on the ground staring at the stars.

"Matthew?" I asked. He looked my way and held out his hand. I fell on the ground beside him, resting my head on his chest as he drew circles on my back.

"How'd you find me?" He asked and I laughed shaking our bodies. "You didn't answer your phone and I just had a feeling." I said.

"I'm sorry for punching him. I just didn't like hearing him degrade you like that. You are not a bitch." He said staring straight up. "He deserved it and I know it was hard seeing your mothe...Theresa today. He probably did it to mess with you. He's such a sick person. I honestly don't know what changed." I said.

"I did." He spoke and I looked at him confused. "Was your dad ever a dick to you before he found out we were going to hang together the night I ditched you?" He asked and I realized he was right.

"No, but you can't blame yourself for my family falling apart." I said. "Yes, I can. I did it to my own. I just mess things up. I should honestly move out of here and make my hiding place permanent." I sighed.

"I don't care. I'm glad you came in my life. I wouldn't change a thing. Trust me. I don't want to lose you." I said.

"We really are fucked up." He replied and I laughed. "Yes, but we're just developing into being ourselves and having a relationship. Nobody said it was easy."

"True."

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awww they're both so comforting to each other. it's adorable

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-L xo