Next morning you got out of the house early as possible. You needed to fix things immediately. What you did was wrong, you didn't want things between you and Jungkook to fall through after so much. What you did to him was terrible. You felt cheap and wrong. The whole night you were miserable trying to think what your heart wants and what is right. 

But earlier when you were heading to your room and saw Jungkook sleeping on the couch in the cold, your heart shattered. There were so many empty beer cans on the coffee table and on the floor. The living room looked like a mess and he was sleeping with a pained expression on his face. Just the sight of him made you want to cry all over again. In that moment you knew what was need to be done.

You grabbed your phone which was lying there on the floor and asked Jimin to meet you. You didn't want to meet him in the café so he asked you to come over to June's shop since she opens it up early. You thought it was the best and you didn't mind June being there because she is your friend. 

Your heart was beating erratically and your palms were moist with sweat. Unexplainable feelings took over you as you finally stood in front of June's shop. Your heart was stinging and you still felt like crying. You didn't know how to face Jimin anymore and it hurts. But you knew this should be done for the better. You couldn't watch everything fall apart. You owe everything to Jungkook. Including your life because it was him who took care of you ever since you were kids. 

Taking a deep breath you entered the shop. June was sitting in the corner arranging fresh flowers in baskets. She looked tired and she gave you a small smile . But luckily she didn't ask anything. You were a bit nervous as you took a glance around.

"Is he here?" You ask in a low hushed voice.

"Go.. he is in there." June says softly pointing to her store room at the other end of the shop. You give June a desperate look as your insides felt like it was caught in a destructive vortex. Why is this hard? Why is my heart refusing to go ahead with my plan? You questioned yourself. June noticed your discomfort and walked towards you.

"It's going to be ok. I'll step out for few minutes and put up the closed sign. Just take your time." June says in an assuring manner and her words gave a bit of comfort. Once you give a nod June walks out and did what she said. You let out a deep sigh and head towards the store room. 

You bit your bottom lip hard to control your emotions as you saw Jimin seated on a stool with his body sloped forward, hands clasped together between his legs and head hung low. Noticing your presence he looked up at you making your heart stop for a second as your eyes met. 

"Y/n.." Your name left his lips in a whisper and he stood up to come to you. But you quickly stopped him. You didn't even know if you could do what you came to do because after seeing him, a burning sensation wrapped around your heart. It felt like your soul was preventing you from something. And everything that you wanted to say left your mind and was forgotten in seconds. 

Jimin looked at you with a worry filled sad face as he stood still few feet away from you. "Are you ok?" Is the first thing he asked in a very caring manner after seeing your red puffed eyes and swollen face. 

"Do I look ok to you?" You ask in a low cold tone as you swallowed the lump forming in your throat. Oh God! Please help me! 

"No you don't." Was all he could mumble. You wanted to shout at him and ask why he did that? why he came into your life? why is he in your heart and in your mind always?  And why is it hurting so much? But you really didn't have the strength to do it.

"Never mind. I just came to tell you that last night was a mistake and it's my fault for leading things on.. so I'm really sorry for it." You say looking away as you were unable to look at him.

Jimin started panicking on the inside as fear and pain crept over him. Your cold tone and your guilty looking eyes were saying that you were going to leave him again. "Don't say that. It was not a mistake. I meant everything I said to you last night."

The moment he said those words, last night feelings and his confession grazed over your scarred heart. You wanted to reason with him and ask more about it but you needed to get away from here before your mind changes. 

"In that case.. I'm sorry for giving you false hope and hurting your feelings like this. I need to stop this from going any further. I hope you brush off whatever happened between us. It's a mistake." You say firmly but accidently you looked up and met his heart wrenching gaze. Leave Y/n! Get out right now!

"I-I gotta go now." You say abruptly and turn to go quickly. Suddenly Jimin's strong arms engulfed you into a warm heart melting embrace from behind. His hard chest was pressed against your back and his arms were tightly wrapped around your waist as if he was holding onto his dear life. "Please.. don't go. Stay with me." He pleaded in a low sad voice.

You instantly closed your eyes as tears stung them. You didn't expect this and you froze in that second as your heart burned over again. God! Why am I like this? Why is he making things hard? Please.. don't do this. 

"Jimmy.. Please let go. I-I need to go back." you say pleading back.

"Please, Princess.. I need you."

His nickname for you was your biggest weakness. Whenever he calls you Princess you feel so special and over the moon. But today it was hurting probably because it was the last time you are ever going to hear him say it.

"I.. I'm sorry. I need to go back to Jungkook." Your voice cracked.

Jimin loosened his grip and turned you around to face him. His eyes were glassy and he looked emotionally unstable just like you. It confused you to why he was acting like this. You never thought a guy like him would show any interest on a damaged girl like you. 

"Why are you doing this? Why me?" You ask seriously.

"Because I need you. I'm a better person with you. And you are My Princess." he says caressing your cheek. Your body betrayed you and reacted to his touch with a shiver. 

"This.. is not right. We can't do this. I can't do this.. You have to let me go." You step back harshly away from him. 

"Y/n, I don't care what you do. Go ahead and do whatever it is that you got to do. Do you want to accept me? Do you want to hate me? Just Do it.. But remember no matter what you do, I will never let you go." Jimin raised his tone as he was getting frustrated. But he was serious just now when he said them.

"Don't be stubborn Jimmy.. We don't even have anything going on between us. It was just yesterday and it was a mistake." You shout back and walk pass him to the middle of the room, away from him because deep down you know it was not only yesterday, but that day at the farm and even at June's rooftop. You both have crossed the line more than once and it's not just kissing but emotionally as well. 

"Are you being true to your heart right now? Are you sure we are nothing? Does your heart say that I mean nothing to you?" He asks looking dead straight at you.

No! My heart doesn't say that. My heart... wants you! But I can't have you.

"Y-Yes. My heart says i-it's nothing." You stutter.

"STOP.. LYING.. Y/N.." Jimin said through a controlled raised voice.

"I'm not a liar!" You shot back with wide eyes.

"You are a liar!" Jimin roared in a deep cracked voice making you flinch a little. " I know you can feel all these things between us But You are lying to me, lying to him and most of all you are lying to yourself."

You remained silent as the words he just said hit you hard. He just called you out and you didn't know how to response. You are indeed a liar. But it's for the better. But what Jimin did next made it hard for you to deny. Suddenly he gets way too closer to you and grab both your arms gently. 

"Tell me that you don't feel anything when I'm this close to you." He presses his forehead to yours making your heart throb.

"Tell me that the time we spent together was meaningless." His voice gets softer and his nose brushes against yours. You bite your bottom lip as tears formed in your eyes. The moments you spent with him flashed like moments in a film role. 

"Tell me.. you don't feel this.." He takes one of your hands and places it on his chest. You feel his pounding heart under your palm and it made you want to cry louder because tears were already dripping down your cheeks in silence. 

"Tell me.. that I really don't mean anything to you." He whispers and then slowly lifts his face to place a warm gentle kiss onto your forehead. You stayed frozen on the outside but inside it was destruction. Your brain was fighting against your own heart and soul. This man! He really is something. You didn't know how you got deeply attached to him in such short period of time, but you sure do know that it's not going to be easy to walk away.

You knew you had to admit to everything he said because it's the truth. But with all of that.. there is another truth. another man in your life and that's Jeon Jungkook. You slightly push Jimin away from you and take a step back to look at him. 

"Yes you are right." You say wiping your cheek with the back of your hand. 

"You are special to me. You make me laugh.. you make me happy and you make me forget all my worries. I love spending time with you.. and yes.. I do feel everything. But Jimmy at the end of the day I.. have a boyfriend who is waiting for me. With him is where I belong. Please understand. And please don't make things hard for me than it already is.. Please!"

"So it's gonna be him then?" He asks lowering his gaze to control his tears.

"Jimmy.. Jungkook is more than my boyfriend. He is my best friend.. my family.. basically my everything. At the end of the day. it's always going to be him. I owe it to him." You say, your voice breaking.

"What if he is hiding things from you. What if he is lying to you.. and your past is completely different from what you know?" He questions.

"Jungkook will never lie to me. I trust him more than I trust myself or anyone else in this world. Besides I'm letting go of my past. I don't care what I know and don't know anymore. This is my choice. Please respect it." You say pushing your hair back.

You noticed Jimin's eyes widened in horror as he took a glance at your neck. The next second his face crumbled into a painful expression. "You went to him." he whispered more to himself as if he came to terms with something in his head. 

A choked whimper escaped his throat but he quickly turned away showing his back to you. You stood there with so many emotions, but confusion ruling them all.

"I understand." Jimin says in a defeated tone.

"Jim-"

"You are free to go." 

"I-I'm sorry." you say through tears.

"Don't be.. it will make me more pitiful." He says holding his posture like a frozen statue. He didn't want to breakdown in front of you. That's why he turned his back to you to hide his falling tears. The pain was excruciating and as soon as he realized that you left, he dropped to the ground unable to hold himself any longer.

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Jungkook got up late with a heavy headache. He felt like his skull was about to blow up when he woke up to the discomfort he was feeling. He winced when his hand grazed the material of his pants. He looked down to see his knuckles bruised with little cuts and dried blood on it. Images of last night played in his head and it pained him all over again. After walking out of Jimin's place Jungkook trashed some empty bottles that was lying around and punched the wall over and over again to get the uneasy angry feeling out of him as he felt lost. To lessen the pain he came back home and drank himself till he fell asleep. 

Jungkook was hesitant to go see you but he knew that he had to. He needed to talk to you and check on you after leaving you like that last night. He felt guilty but he was helpless as well. He really didn't know how well you knew Jimin. From what he saw and what Jimin told, all he knows that Jimin hasn't revealed himself to you and you are still unaware of the truth.

Still contemplating with what to do, Jungkook got up and grabbed a glass to drink some water first to quench his thirst. Then he slowly went to his room but you were not there. He don't know why but a sudden panic feeling took over him. He quickly went to your room to check but you weren't there either. After checking almost everywhere in the house Jungkook went to the living room to grab his phone to call you. Your phone rang and rang but you didn't answer.

It's already been two hours since Jungkook found you gone. He kept calling you but you never picked up. Jungkook couldn't take it anymore. He grabbed his keys and got up to go. He thought he would just drive around to find you. But as he was about to step out, you opened the door and walked in.

"Where the hell did you go?" Jungkook snapped without thinking. You flinched and stood still to the sudden outburst. You didn't say anything nor did you look up at him. 

"I asked.. where did you go?" 

"O-Out." You stuttered. Jungkook wanted to question more and ask you where you went this early. The possible thought of you sneaking out to meet Jimin had him worked up.

"Why didn't you answer your damn phone?"

"I didn't hear it ringing.." You lie. You did see his calls but you didn't answer because you were a mess. You walked around a bit to calm yourself down before coming back. 

"You should have just told me. I got worried when I couldn't find you." Jungkook was clearly unhappy, but right now you were really not in the mood to talk about anything. When you left the house in the morning you knew what you wanted and you were determined to set things right. But after walking out on Jimin, you didn't know anymore. You couldn't think of anything else but Jimin's heartbreaking gaze and his pained voice asking you to leave.

You thought that's what you wanted but now you are conflicted again. And now Jungkook jumping at you was not helping at all. You knew you have some explaining to do and you have to apologize. But right now all you want is some time alone. 

"Look Y/n.. I already have so many problems to deal with right now. Can you please not make it anymore harder." You were already deeply hurt but what Jungkook said just drilled the pain deeper into you. You finally look up at him. You noticed that he was miserable as you but you just couldn't help it.

"I'm sorry that I'm no longer a person.. but a problem to you."

"Y/n.. that's not what I meant." He sighed. Seeing your puffy face and tears filled eyes, Jungkook became soft. As he ran his hand down his face, he saw you flinch seeing his hand but yet you didn't say anything. You just clenched your jaw and walked passed him.

"Y/n wait.." Jungkook called but you ignored him and closed the door with a loud bang after getting into your room. 

You flopped to the bed and started crying all over again. You hurt not one but two people who are special to you. Even though you knew Jimin for a short period of time, what you had with Jimin was real. He was special. All he did was make you happy and complete, yet you rejected him and hurt him a lot. You saw it in his eyes. And now seeing how hurt Jungkook is, you feel like dying. 

You were angry at yourself. You wanted to scream and trash everything around you. You wanted to yell at everything and question everything that's happening in your life but you knew that you will get no answer. You hated yourself more than anything but you couldn't just stay inside and keep crying because you saw Jungkook's hand earlier. You knew he hurt himself because of you. No matter how much you wanted to yell at him for doing that, you felt like you had no right to do so as you were guilty. But you couldn't just let him sit out there with a wound on his hand. It hurt to see that and no matter what you still deeply care for Jungkook.

Wiping off your tears, you got up and grabbed the mini first aid box you had in your room and stepped out looking for Jungkook. He was not there in his room so you went back to the living room. You sighed mentally when you saw him seated on the couch with his face buried into his hands.

Jungkook moved his hands away to look when you placed the box on top of the coffee table and sat on the floor in front of him. Jungkook's gaze was on you as he didn't expect to see you anytime soon. He thought you were mad at him but he was wrong. His heart twitched when you just took his hand in yours carefully and inspected his bruises without a word.

He could see your face changing seeing his hand. Sighing, you opened the box and started cleaning the wound while blowing onto it so that it wouldn't sting. Jungkook's heart wrenched and he felt like crying seeing how much you still care for him.

Like Jimin said, he knew for a fact that you would do anything for him. In fact, you are like this because of him. You didn't think twice before throwing yourself out there to protect him when the incident happened. You did that because Jungkook mattered and he knew that. 

Precious.. Because of my selfishness that couldn't let you go.. turned into an obsession that imprisoned you today. Are you really hurting because of me? Is what everyone around me saying is true? Can we never be happy again? I just want to see you smile at me whole heartedly. Can we go back to being that again? You sit there silently bandaging his hand as he questioned you in his head while looking at you with guilty and pained eyes. He is finally able to realize what others have been telling him. There is only one thing left to do.. but before that he needed to confirm something.

"Precious.." Your named left his lips in a painful whisper. Your hands stopped moving for a second but you quickly resumed what you were doing and fastened the bandage carefully. Your heart twitched when he called you by your nick name as usual and the guilt ate you more. You wished you could change things and go back to