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Flipping through the channels you sigh out loudly, you were finding it hard to pick something that interest you enough to get your mind off the loneliness you are already feeling.  It's only been few hours since Jungkook left for Seoul and you are already missing him. 


It's the first time that you will be all alone in this big house for a while and the loneliness was much greater with him gone. Your eyes darted up at the clock and it was almost 10pm. Doing the calculation in your head, you picked up the phone and waited for Jungkook to call you as he had already landed.


You waited for another half an hour and your face finally lit up when your phone beeped. You quickly unlocked the screen and viewed the message.



My Kookie - Hey Precious.. I just landed. Are u still up?


You - Yes.. I was waiting for you. Are you on your way to the hotel?


My Kookie - Awe. No babe. The team and I will be having dinner together and then head to the stay. Go ahead and sleep now. I'll talk to you tomorrow. ❤


You - Ok. Good night ❤



You pouted feeling slightly disappointed that he didn't even call you. But you were relieved that he got there safe. Lazily you switched off the TV and then dragged yourself to the bed. While scrolling through the phone another message popped.


June - U are coming to work tomorrow right?


You - Yes.. This is the 3rd time u are asking me this.🙄


June - Just checking cuz someone is impatient. 🐥


You - 🤨


June - Nothing. Just missing u. We have a lot to talk as well.


You - That we do. What are u doing this late?


June- Practicing my skills.. there is a competition coming up. Did Jimmy contact u?


At the mention of his name you straightened up a little. You definitely felt a tug in your heart as well. You haven't talk to Jimin since that night. You really need to thank him for being there for you. The comfort he gave you was so warm that you felt your pain fading away.


You - No.. why?


June - Oh ok. He was just talking about u. I guess he missed u too.


He was talking about me? He missed me? Your cheeks flushed with light shade of pink, wondering what he was talking about you.


You - Really? What did he say?


June - Bunch of stuff.. I can't remember. Anyways see u tomorrow! Gn 🌹


You - Gn ❣



Tossing the phone away, you covered yourself up to feel the cozy warmness and closed your eyes. You tossed and turned but you couldn't sleep. Sighing, you faced the ceiling and took deep breaths to relax yourself. As your mind was calming down, moments from Friday night flashed.


 You remembered how you stared at his beautiful eyes as he brushed down your head with his hand and slowly wiped away a tear with his thumb while shaking his head asking you not to cry. You didn't fail to notice how his eyes were glazed as well. In that moment you felt like that he was also in pain with you. But still he was caring for you and forced a soft smile before pulling you into another hug. 

Your heart fluttered now thinking of that moment. Feeling the warmth you felt that day, slowly you drifted off to sleep.





"I'm all yours Princess." His soft whisper to your ear fluttered your heart. You leaned against his chest with his arms around you as you watched the waves crash the shore under the beautiful night sky. 


A gentle kiss on your shoulder made you tilt your head to the side ways to look at him. A smile of  bliss touched the corners of your lips as you meet his dark night sky like eyes. His plum lips stretched gazing at your face. 


"I'm all yours too Jim-."


You jolted awake for the sudden ringing of the alarm. Not minding it you sat straight with your hands buried in your hair. You had another dream but it was not the usual dreams you have. This was different because you were with a guy that you were able to see and that was..


"Jimmy." You breathed in a low whisper feeling confused.


Why did I see you in my dreams? Are you... no no that can't be. He can't be him. Maybe it's because I was thinking of him before bed. You sat on the bed for few minutes calming your beating heart as you convinced yourself that it meant nothing and it's just a random.. weird.. nonsense dream.


You grabbed your phone to turn off the alarm as it rang for the second time. Groaning, you rolled out of the bed and went to get ready for the day.




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Jimin slumped against the small couch in the resting room of the café. He checked the time again and again as he waited for you. He was kind of going crazy without seeing you for three days after that night. He even kept bothering June to ask you if you were ok and if you are coming to work and all.


He was worried to why you took days off all of a sudden after that panic attack, Even though June said you were fine his heart is not in peace till he sees you with his own eyes. Few more minutes passed and finally you entered the room. Jimin's eyes lit up and his heart tugged seeing you.


"Hey.. good morning." He greeted you and stood up to walk towards you.


"Good morning to you too." You smile but Jimin could see a little bit of sadness in your eyes.


"Is everything ok? Did you get sick or something." Jimin asked in a concerned tone. You put your things in the locker and turn to him hurriedly tying your hair. You look at him and gave him a sincere smile since you wanted to thank him.


"Yes Jimmy I'm ok. Thank you for asking and also thank you for that day. When I came out you were gone."


"Oh yeah.. I had to go urgently. Sorry about that. But listen, you can always talk to me. I'm here for you. I was worried when you didn't come to work." Jimin stated honestly. You felt a twist in your pit when he said he was worried for you. His words are enough for you to get soft and now you felt bad all of a sudden. You should've known that he would worry after the break down. 


"I'm sorry I couldn't contact you earlier. I'm perfectly fine Jimmy. It's just Jungkook had to go to Seoul for couple of weeks, So I wanted to spend some time with him."


"Oh ok." Jimin didn't know if he should do a happy dance that Jungkook is out of the picture for a while or feel jealous that you had been spending time with him. He didn't know how deep your relationship is with Jungkook but he tries not to let that get to him. 


"Yeah.. so shall we go get started with work now?" You ask and Jimin nods giving you a smile. 


First batch of the morning preparations were done easily with Jimin's help. Now what's left is the messy batch which requires a lot of work. You looked up at Jimin who is quietly stacking up the bottles in the case neatly. 


You could feel that something had changed, specially after that dream. Now when you look at him, something twitches inside of you. You don't even know what to feel about it. When Jimin looked up at you, you quickly looked away accidently squeezing the tube hard covering your hand with chocolate again. Your heart suddenly started thumping hard as it reminded you of how Jimin was so close to you and how his lips looked so addictive in that moment when he was wiping your hands.


 Y/N!!! WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU THINKING!!!! SNAP OUT OF IT!  


Your brain screamed at you making you shake your head a little too hard which loosened up your hurriedly tied hair. You pretended as if you didn't care about the mess and continued what you were doing. Little by little your hair started falling to your face annoying you. With chocolate covered hands you were finding it hard to push back the hair strands. Soon half of your hair came undone as you groaned and cursed under your breath. 


You heard soft chuckles near your ear and your breath hitched when Jimin stood so closely behind you. 


"Here.. Let me fix this for you." He says in a smooth voice as he pull the hair tie out completely. 


Your heart jumped and you slowly gulped remaining still unable to say anything as he was already gathering your hair in his hand. Those weird feelings started twirling inside of you again making it hard for you to focus. So you just had your eyes fixed on the ingredients laying on top of the table as you felt Jimin leaning in. Your heart started pounding louder and louder feeling his hot breath fanning against the nape of your neck as he reached out to gather the remaining strand of your hair from the front. 


Barely audible gasp left your lips due to the sudden tingling sensation when Jimin's fingers grazed your skin. You shifted your weight from one leg to another lowering your head a little as you felt him finally using the hair tie to keep everything in place. 


"All done." Jimin's low soft voice sent a strange wave through your body.


"T-thanks." Your voice was low as his.


Jimin didn't want to move from his spot as he was unintentionally this close to you. He couldn't help but tease you a bit out of habit he had with you. And just like before it didn't go unaffected. He could see that you felt everything that he felt when he is this close to you. 


"Uh Jimmy.. can you help me with the coffee bags?" Jimin looked up to see Hana standing there in the doorway with a look of slight irritation. He wanted to groan in annoyance as she showed up this time but he should have expected it. Past few days Jimin had notice how she had been trying to get his attention and tend to go around looking for him. 


"I have orders to pack." Jimin flat out refused turning towards her. But before she could say anything, you interrupted placing the tube back down.


"It's ok Jimmy, Go ahead and help Hana.. I'll pack the remaining orders." You didn't turn as you stood your ground. There was silence for a minute and then you heard him mumble a ok and leave. 


Once you were alone, you let out a big sigh and slumped your shoulders. What happened just now? Why was I liking this feeling even though it was too much to accept? What is going on with me.. hope this doesn't make things weird. 



You thought the the rest of the day would be awkward but strangely it wasn't, it was the opposite. There were less people coming in due to the heavy rain so you all were playing around and joking around as you all were bored. Jimin and Jay was annoying you in a fun way and then you were annoying them back. You and Jimin bickered a lot while nudging each other. 


"Yah! stop that.. You are going to make me forget the order." You scolded Jimin while trying to tally the receipts. But he didn't go away, instead he moved in closer to look over your shoulder.


"Why are you wasting your time doing that one by one. It's all in this new system. You can just auto balance it out in this." Jimin informs.


"Yeah I know. But I'm just doing this to occupy myself since we have no work." You clear it for him.


"Oh I see. Well speaking of the new machine. You still owe me my wish." He reminds you to which you rolled your eyes holding back a smile.


"Yeah but you didn't wish for anything. I gave you two days to come up with one but you didn't."


"Heyy!! No fair... it's not my fault that you didn't come to work after that." he pouts making you chuckle.


"Oh yeah. You are right about that.  Well then.. I'll give you five minutes now. Hurry up and tell me what you want." You give him an evil smirk.


"What!! It's not fair." Jimin protested.


"You literally had six days to come up with one. So take it or leave it." You say being cocky. Jimin narrowed his eyes at you while nibbling on his plum lip.


"Hurry up before the time runs out." You say showing the time on the machine with your eyes. Not wanting to miss this chance Jimin thought of something simple and something that could bring him and you closer.


"Fine. Then spend this coming Saturday with me."


"W-what?" Your eyes slightly grew not knowing what he meant. Jimin chuckled at your reaction but still made it clear so you won't back out.



"Since I'm new here.. show me around. Lets go somewhere fun."



"But.. I have not been around much. Just few places here and there." You say honestly because you really didn't have time with therapy and healing. Jungkook only took you to near by places, mostly to malls. 



"That's even more better. We can experience new places together. I'll leave you in charge. Take me to places you like to go." Jimin says knowing very well you like to see new things and visit new places. He remembered how observant and excited you were while looking around back in Tokyo. 



You pressed your lips together and thought about it. Since Saturday is your off day you thought this might be better rather than sulking at home all alone. Besides , you always wanted to go to some places for a while now. 



"Ok. Deal."  You say making Jimin smile widely as he felt happy and excited.





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 June had her big eyes scanning your face for the past ten minutes and now it has started to creep you out a little. She's been silent ever since you walked into her store and sat down for lunch.


"What?" You ask getting impatient.


"Ok tell me what happened that night because I clearly saw that you were not ok.. and also tell me why you didn't come all of a sudden. Did anyone do anything to you?" June asked being straightforward. 


"What? No. No one did anything to me. I didn't come because that night Jungkook told me that he will be going to Seoul for few weeks. He was feeling bad to leave me behind so we decided to spend some time together." You say.


"Oh some alone time together huh!" June say in a teased just to act normal around you even though she was feeling bad for Jimin.


"You know it's not like that. You know I'm not ready for it and you know why mostly." You say looking a bit uncomfortable. There are no secrets between you and June. And she knows the main reason you are not ready is because with your memory gone it's like the first time for you. You know for a fact that you are not a virgin and you definitely had sex before because of the wet dreams you had once or twice. But in real you don't remember any of that. As dumb as it sounds, everything is just new for you and you feel inexperienced and not ready.


"Yeah I know. I was just teasing you. But tell me why were you crying?" She asks seriously changing the subject. You anyways wanted to talk to her about this since she is the only one who can understand you at the moment.


"Well.. that day something strange happened. I was getting continuous flashbacks of my past. And that evening Jimmy started humming a song and I felt it. I felt like I have a connection with it and like I know that song. So I asked him about it." You paused to look at June.


"June.. when Jimmy played it, a memory of me dancing with that guy to the same song flashed. I felt every moment like it was real. I was hurt but also loved. I was happy and comforted. He was so caring and he even sang for me. He feels so familiar June... I know him from somewhere. I feel like he is close. I just couldn't bare it.. so I started getting panic attacks and then I broke down in front of Jimmy." 


"Oh my god! I'm so sorry.. I didn't even know. Are you ok now?" June's worry was genuine and she regretted for not checking on you earlier.


"It's ok.. to be honest, I'm fine. Normally I won't calm down so easily when I have attacks, not even Jungkook can help me but strangely I felt my storms calming down in minutes when Jimmy came to me. I found comfort in him June. That has never happened before."


A small smile tugged June's lips, she knew exactly why you found comfort in Jimin. He was right after all, you really do need him and probably still love him. 


"Y/n.. can I ask you something?" She asks getting your attention to the curious tone she used.


"You know you can ask me anything." You say patting her hand which was resting on yours.


"It's about the guy in your dreams.. umm.. well.. by any chance are you in love with him more than Jungkook?" her question did surprise you but still you answered honestly.


"I know I thought it was Jungkook who was in my dreams but lately I feel like he is not. I don't know why I feel that way. I don't know if that guy really is Jungkook or not but all I can say is that in those memories, I was madly in love with him. Now that I'm with Jungkook for real, it doesn't feel the same. I don't know how to differentiate the love I felt in those memories and the love I have with Jungkook. Jungkook  really  is my all but I'm finding it hard to love him that way. I really don't understand and it drives me crazy at times." You say sighing not knowing what to do even if this is the hundredth time saying it out loud. 


June was silent for a while she looked around the shop. She could see that you are confused with the kind of love you have for Jungkook and trying to force yourself to turn it into something that is not there in you. As her eyes fell on her flowers, she realized something. Everything has meaning in life, so does flowers. Love can be seen in many ways and that's why there are different kind of flowers to represent love. Smiling softly she looked back at you. 


"Y/n.. Just remember that Love doesn't need to be romantic. Love can be given in many ways. There are different kinds of relationships.. different kinds of bonds that love exists within. Like mother and child love, owner and pet, BFF love... and that doesn't mean these kind of love are any less than a romantic ones. I'm sure what ever love you have for Jungkook, even if it is not a romantic one.. it definitely is something special because the bond you share with him is

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