"Will...iam."

I found myself staring up at the ceiling, my eyes burning from the lack of blinking. Staying like this almost stopped time for me...it helped me imagine other things.

Like...the future or even my past. I like to make up a different past with different actions sometimes. It honestly helps me feel better.

"William..."

I shaved my hair. I just felt like...having a buzz cut. I did it myself, but I went in a motel to do it. That happened yesterday...I've just been lying on the bed since I've done such a thing.

I've never been in a motel; so to be in one now is interesting. It's honestly disgusting, but I deserve to be in these disgusting conditions. I amount to a dirty, disgusting motel.

My hand rests on my stomach, knowing there was a baby there. I only eat for them - not myself. Every craving that's thrown my way I'll eat for the baby, but besides that I don't eat for myself.

"William!"

I flinch, looking as I saw my parents rushing into the motel room. My mom looked disgusted by the sight of the place. Though my dad just walked right in and sat me up.

"William you need to stop. We have all been looking for you! Have you lost your mind-!"

"Hey... Can you lower your voice? Please be a little quieter so that I can concentrate..." I interrupt my yelling dad, trying to lean back again only for him to sit me up.

"What did you do to your hair!?" My mom cries as I see her remove her jacket. She wrapped it around my naked shoulders because all I had on were pants.

The shirt I was wearing has throw up on it.

"I am trying something new. I feel like you don't like it." I murmur as I grin, my hands running over my hair. "Maybe Arthur would have objected...no. He would let me do whatever makes me happy-."

"Arthur would be furious that you're doing this to yourself! He's in a coma, but we all know what he wants for you and your baby! Think about the baby too!" My dad yells at me.

"I - I am... I eat when they crave food. St-stop yelling at me." I whimper, and I felt my eyes begin to water.

I felt pained. My mom and dad looked at me as if I was a stranger. They looked very fearful for me.

"William what have you done to yourself?" My dad cries for me. He saw my weight loss and loss of some of my muscle.

"I...I can't survive without Arthur dad. If Arthur doesn't wake up I won't survive - I know what will happen. I'm losing it over here and no one even cares-!"

"We all care! That's why we are here. If we didn't care about you we wouldn't have been searching for you! William you have been like this for too long - you are harboring a child you created with Arthur. He would be heartbroken to see you like this." My mom tells me in a heartbroken manner.

I felt tears start to stream down my cheeks. I already knew the truth, but I avoided it. It was easier to not think about it...to distract myself.

"But I need him... This isn't helping - at all! I have done so much to him and done him wrong so many times; yet he's always getting hurt! Why can't it be me!" I cry, starting to chew my lip.

I chewed my lip when I was frustrated or anxious...so it's basically all the time. Even when I felt my lip start to bleed I kept chewing.

"William stop that." My dad snaps at me, and I couldn't help myself.

"Listen, son, sometimes the best thing you can do is forgive yourself. Stop punishing yourself for your past actions. Arthur forgives you and loves you - why do you continue to bash yourself?" My mom asks me as she grabbed my hand.

Pulling me off of the bed, we walked out of the motel room. Could see their car was surrounded by others. I saw the twins, Dylan, Raphael, Bella, Talia...Nathan?

Before I could walk up my mom held me back, knowing her I had to answer the question she asked me.

"It's just easier to do that. People like me shouldn't get happy endings-."

"Stop thinking like that! You need to think about it differently. You have changed for the better and Arthur has helped you become a better person. You also changed for yourself so that you two could be together again. Now you two have come too far...for you to do this to yourself. What made you even start thinking about these things again?" My mom questions me, and I don't bother looking at Raphael.

It's also me too.

"No one... I'm about to become a parent and a lot of stuff I've done is starting to kick in. Especially on how good of a parent I'll be to a little baby-."

"Dad you'll be great!"

I look down to see Ava and Isabella at my legs. Ava looked at my hair because it was probably a lot to take in. I wasn't in the...right state of mind when I cut it.

"Dad don't worry... Daddy will wake up soon. He's strong and amazing - not to mention he is showing signs." Isabella tells me.

That's when I look at my mom for clarification, and she nods.

"Is he...any closer to getting up?"

"Maybe. They didn't say yes or no because they didn't want to get our hopes up; but they did say we could visit him tomorrow for any luck." Ava informs me all of this important information.

I feel a hand rest on my shoulder, and I look to see Raphael. When I face him his eyes were saddened. I was even surprised when I saw his eyes water.

"William I know I haven't been that nice to you, I was wrong for bringing up your past and rubbing it in your face. Especially when you were trying to move on...I feel uttermost shame for my actions... C'est ma faute." ( It is my fault. ) Raphael bows his head to me, and I was genuinely shocked.

Nathan even came towards me and hugged me. My body didn't even go stiff because it was like it wanted a friendly embrace.

"Je regrette." ( I am sorry. ) Raphael apologizes to me very formally. Even I look to see Dylan bow his head to me too as if he's done something wrong.

Talia did the same thing...even Bella.

"Why do you do this for me? I was rude to you all - more than once. What have I done for you all to apologize to me - I should be doing that." I say quietly, and I see Nathan pull away from me.

He looks up at me sadly, resting his hand on my shoulder.

"We all are apologizing because we completely disregarded the fact that you are bettering yourself. Holding your past against you, and reminding you constantly. Still seeing you as that...bitch from high school. We never tried to give you a chance like Arthur has so many times. Even though you were...something else before - we all want to give you another chance, not for Arthur; but for you." Nathan explains to me kindly.

I felt this unexplainable urge to cry again, all these emotions flooding in at once. I felt Ava and Isabella's hand squeeze mine lovingly - only making me want to cry more.

My head hung forward, knowing I was crying.

"I'm...I'm sorry Nathan - for all I've done to you." I whimper to him, feeling his hand rub my shoulder.

"It's okay William, I forgive you. This is the first time you've ever apologized to me...so I'm completely accepting." He chuckles lightly, and I look at him to see him smiling. "What you need is a shower...some new clothes, and not to mention food. Come with us."

I nod, walking back to the car with everyone. Everyone lets me get in the car first and the twins sat on either side of me. Bella, Talia, and Nathan sat before us. With Raphael and Dylan in a different car. While my parents went in the front to drive.

At this moment I genuinely felt like I was forgiven. There weren't any angry faces and they all looked like they genuinely cared for me.

"So dad when we go home you have to take a long bath." Ava makes known to me, and I nod. "We are all serious. You were gone for almost two days! You even shaved your hair...it's really bad."

I snort, my hand running over my head again.

"It's called a buzz cut..." I mutter, and I see Talia sigh at me. "Sorry to you too Talia..."

She ends up not responding, and Bella looked at her in annoyance. I knew she probably had a disdain towards me because we were...going to have a child with her via surrogate. Until I ended up with a child. Now there's no need for surrogates - especially someone like her who had feelings for Arthur.

I wanted to take back my apology, but I refrained from doing so.

"William we'll get you anything you want to eat. Do you want something made at home or to have something delivered?" Bella asks me, and I found myself craving something.

My eyes drifted down onto Isabella, seeing her look at me with excitement. When I look back up I sighed peacefully almost.

"I am craving a food Arthur loves. I'm not one for salads but...I want a lot of salad and chicken." I found myself licking my lips, thinking about the thought of eating that.

"Dad loves Cobb salad with any type of chicken. The homemade kind - he makes the best chicken." Ava pats my arm, and I felt my face heat up.

"I think Arthur was just saying he liked my chicken - I can't really cook." I state shyly only for them to shake their heads.

"Wrong! Dad loved your chicken, he said it tasted incredible... He would tell you if it was gross." Isabella tells me, but I knew that wasn't the case.

Arthur would eat whatever I made him because he knew I was trying my best. Knowing him, he'd eat whatever I made and say it was amazing just to see me smile happily.

"William we'll get you a Cobb salad from Chick-fil-A - avocado ranch dressing?" Bella asks me to make sure and I nod. "Do you want the chicken from there or...?"

"I want the chicken from somewhere else...surprise me." I chuckle, and I look down at my hands. That's when I see my wedding ring.

I have to think of Arthur - I have to. Before I was thinking about him, but in a depressed manner. Lacking thought and so...hurt.

This is going to be different though.

"Tomorrow I must see Arthur." I smile, and they all nod...except Talia.

It was clear she didn't like me even though everyone else was trying to do the right thing. I tried to too, but if she isn't willing - I can't force her.

I did that to Arthur once - forced him to forgive me basically... I'm not forcing someone to forgive me again. Not everyone is like Arthur where they'll go along with all I do. Accept me for me and love me completely.

"You will get that chance. Hopefully there will be a miracle - for not just you, but all of us." Nathan sighs peacefully as if the thought of him waking up was relaxing.

I believed so...

As well as I hoped so...

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Aww, all is forgiven! 🙇🏽‍♀️

Except Talia. 🤦🏽‍♀️

Hmm... 🤨

What does she think she can do? 😂👀

Hah, at least they got to William in time. 💁🏽‍♀️

Hopefully...there will be a miracle in the works. 🙏🏾😌

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