[November 26, 2018]

You stand there beside the red headed boy. Your body tensed and your hand shaking, you can feel tears slowly building up in your eyes.

"Where are we, Taehyung?" You asked him, your voice cracking. You wanted to make sure if you heard him right.

"We're here at your mom's grave." He said and you felt his hand went to your back, caressing it to make you calm.

You were crying and Taehyung looked at you with soft eyes.

"Why are we here?" You sob, shoulders shaking.

The red headed boy put his arms around your shoulders. "Shh. Don't cry." He said, lips on your hair.

"Why... How?" You can't even finish your sentence as you try to hold your sobs and confusion.

"You told me about your mother when we first went out, remember that? I asked your father about it and he said its been years since you visited your mom." He explained. "So I thought I'd bring you here."

"How did you even know where her graveyard is?" You said as you both sat down on the grass.

"I had Jungkook to tell me the location." He said.

There was silence. You could only hear your breath and the blowing of air and the leaves of the tree being swayed by it. It all came back. Like you were in a flashback, you found the young you sitting on the shot gun seat as your mom drives.

"I didn't want to visit her." You whispered and Taehyung looked at you.

Eyes still filled with tears, you feel your insides calm down. "I was guilty of everything. If I didn't ask her to go to my Dad that day. If I didn't insist. If I just listened to her that Dad will come home soon. If I was just a good daughter..." You couldn't hold it anymore.

Sobs were heard, slipping from your lips that was now wet from your tears. You were hurting. "She wouldn't be dead by now. And I wouldn't be blind. It was my fault. I lost her. I couldn't... I couldn't even see her on her wake."

You were hurting. You felt your chest getting heavy, your heart aching. Your shoulders started to shake and Taehyung was there to hug you. "If only I chose the right choice then she wouldn't be dead. Then maybe right now I could see you." You whispered as you cried on his shoulder.

He sighed as he caressed your hair. He was hurting for you and he doesn't know what to do. He could only look at your Mom gravestone.

Ma'am I don't know what to do with your daughter but I don't want her to hurt, he thought.

"Dont blame yourself. You shouldn't blame yourself. It was fate, either you choose a different path, it would always lead to this." Taehyung said and your sobs grew louder.

You grip Taehyung's shirt as you remember your mother. She was everything. For your father and for you. How could you be the cause of her death? How could you take away your father's happiness?

"Your father didn't blame you for anything. And I'm sure your mother too. If anything, she is disappointed at you for not visiting her." Taehyung said once your sobs subsided.

"This is your chance to tell her everything, hmm?" He said, voice soft and his arms wrapped around you.

You didn't utter a single word, instead your sniffing was the only thing he heard. You felt him slowly rock the both of you back and forth with his body swaying.

Your lids felt heavy from the crying and tears were still visible on the edges of your eyes. Taehyung slowly pulled you away from him, hands cupping your cheek. His thumb wiping away the residue of your cries.

"If you want to talk to her privately, I can go back to the car." He said but you shook your head.

"I want you here beside me." You gulp.

"Okay." He said as he held your hand.

You wait for a minute as you gather your thoughts. Every piece of you, you try to hold it as you face your mother's grave stone. Your grip fron Taehyung's hand tightens.

"Mom." You said and you gasp for air. "Mom.... I'm sorry." Then more tears came from you.

"I'm sorry for what I did. I'm sorry I couldn't visit you on your wake. I'm sorry I didn't visit you even though I recovered from my breakdowns. I'm sorry, Mom." You sniff.

"Please forgive me." You said then incoherent words followed.

The whole time you were crying, Taehyung was there just beside you, caressing your arms and back.

"I'm sorry I haven't introduce you my friends like you told me before, when you were still with me, with us. I'm sorry I couldn't take care of Dad. Don't worry, Mom. Dad still loves you very much and I don't think he will find another wife anytime soon." You said, you felt the cold breeze blow onto your skin.

"And if you're worrying about me, don't worry because I got Jungkook and Taehyung to take care of me. Especially, Taehyung." You said and Taehyung could only look at your face.

"The man beside me. That's him, Mom. That's Kim Taehyung." You said and finally, your face brighten up. "He's made up of every nice thing in this world."

"They said that he was trouble. But how come trouble brings me safety?" You chuckle and Taehyung could only smile at you, moved by your words.

"I don't want to lose him, Mom. I can't lose him. I can lose my sight forever but not him." You mutter and Taehyung squeeze you hand.

It was true. Now that you've grown with Taehyung by your side, you think you will not be able to live without him. Its like he's your oxygen.

"You will never lose me." You heard him. "And don't worry, ma'am. Your daughter will see again. I will make sure of that."

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