[December 7, 2018]

"I want to go stargazing with you someday." The red headed whispered as he rested his head on your shoulder.

Your light blue comforter hovering the both of you, the pillows serves as your comfort as you play with the red headed boy's hair.

It was past midnight when someone knocked on your window. At first, you thought it was just the tree branch that was being blown by the wind, but it doesn't stop. After a while, it makes a beat and you thought, maybe it was a human.

But you were scared to open your window, you don't know what awaits you on the other side of it. Then it stopped, then continues but this time it was how Jungkook knocks on your door.

So you decided to open it. Lurking in your room without anything to guide you, you were blessed with a great memory, making you remember how your room was.

You opened it with at ease and the first thing you heard was a deep voice that only belonged to one man.

"Taehyung." You whispered.

"Hi." The red headed boy said as he shivered from the cold air. "May I come in? Its freezing here."

You step out of the way as the red headed boy slip in your room. You close the window quickly, "What are you doing here? And why did you climb up the window?" You asked him.

"I didn't want to wake up your father and I figured he wouldn't let me stay the night either so I decided to sneak in." He said as you made your way back to your bed.

"You didn't answer my other question. Why are you here, Taehyung?" You asked him again.

And he sighed. Making his way next to you, he sat. "I couldn't sleep. Endless thoughts just can't get out of my head and I wanted to sleep because its been days since I had a proper nap. And I figured maybe I could sleep if you're beside me." He explained and you softened.

"My bed seemed like it already reserved a space for you, must be your luck." You try to say as casual as possible while you feel your cheeks getting hot again.

He slip in your bed, getting comfortable with your sheets. "Can I hug you?" He asked.

You were flustered. It was the first time Kim Taehyung asked for your permission to hug you. And you don't know how to react because you were used to his unpredictable moves.

"Do you really have to ask for it?" Your small voice made him want to hug you more.

So he does. He rests his head on your shoulder as he let his arm snake at your waist. And you sighed, he was like a baby that wanted his mother's warmth.

"What's keeping you awake?" You asked him.

"You. And everything that is happening right now." He whimpered.

"What is happening right now, Kim Taehyung?" You whispered.

"Its falling apart." He whispered back, eyes staring at your face even though it was too dark.

"What is?"

"My everything." He replied as he buried his head on your shoulder.

You caress his head. The red headed boy didn't want to tell you. There was something that is keeping him from telling you. Maybe because you might get hurt if he told you so. Or maybe because simply he didn't want to tell.

And you understand him. You know its hard for him to open up but you felt him and his shattering world and you couldn't help yourself but to feel the same. Like it was a connection of your soul that's why you feel it too.

"You told me you haven't had a proper sleep for days." You whispered.

"Oh."

"Kim Taehyung, I wish I could see right now so I could see how badly you look. How bad are the bags under your eyes are." You said and that made him stare at you.

He may not clearly see your face in the darkness but the things he can see right now. Its like a fire that he made bigger by time and now, its melting him but this time, it doesn't burn nor sting, if anything it helps him get by.

"I might be blind but I can still feel you. You're getting thinner." You said that made him flustered.

He didn't know that you noticed.

"Everything might fall apart but do not let this destroy you." You told him. "Cause if you do, then you're also destroying me."

"Why... why do you make me feel these things that nobody could?" The red headed boy muttered.

And you stiffen. "I don't know." You told him.

The red headed boy didn't seek for any more answer as he listen to your heartbeat. And the both of you talked about the things you'd do when your not blind anymore.

"Let's star gaze in our sleep, Taehyung. Because it might take a long time before it comes true." You yawn as both of your lids fall.

"That time might come a little sooner, Y/n." He whispered as he finally felt the peace he needed for him to fall asleep.

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