jupiter aria beauliu

my head pounded as i woke up. groaning i brought my hand to my forehead and look over at colin, still fast asleep next to me.

"piece of shit." i mumble, before getting out of bed and walking to the bathroom.

the bathroom mirror presented the reflection of a messy woman. my hair oily and my skin devoid of color. the smell of the coffee beans sitting in the jar on the toilet brings a wave of nausea over my body. i quickly kneel in front of toilet, emptying the contents of my stomach into the bowl. i groan, leaning my head on the edge and closing my eyes. i hear a soft knocking at the door and i look up, a worried colin standing tiredly in the doorway.

"you alright, doll?"

"yeah. yeah i'm okay. i just woke up really nauseous. must be the concussion."

he pauses for a moment, then nods his head.

"okay. i'll go make you some coffee."

"no!"

he stops, furrowing his eyebrows.

"no coffee?"

"no i'm feeling like tea right now. the caffeine might make my head hurt."

"oh. yeah, makes sense. yell if you need me." he smiles, running his fingers through my hair and kissing my head, making me nauseous again.

"okay." i smile, and he walks off.

i roll my eyes before leaning back on the toilet seat.

"you just need to wait until tonight, jupiter. just wait."

after a few minutes, i sigh, opening the drawer next to me, looking for one of the hand towels that i remembered seeing yesterday. sliding open the bottom drawer, i came across a box of tampons and pads. both unopened. my heart stops and i think back, trying to go over my mental clock.

"shit."

"what's wrong?"

my head shoots up and colin sets the tea onto the counter, sitting on the ground next to me.

"this is going to be a weird question, but umm...when was the last time we...you know." i say, struggling to get the words out.

"what do you- oh...oh." his eyes widen slightly as he notices the unopened box of sanitary items.

"i just...i wasn't sure if i was on birth control or if it doesn't fit our timeline or-"

"no no. um...i'll get you a test. on my way back from work. and if you are, then we'll figure it out. okay? we've always wanted a family and we'll work it out. alright?" he smiles, his eyes glossy with tears.

why the fuck are you crying? you're not the father. also, there's most likely a giant ass billboard with your face on it. where the fuck could you possibly work? i nod my head and place my hands over my uterus...i needed that test.

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i sat anxiously on the couch, not paying attention to the movie on the screen and my hands still over my abdomen. my thoughts running a thousand miles a minute. what if i was? if they don't find me soon, will he believe me? will he think it's colin's? will he hate me? does he even want a child this early? i mean we're getting married in a month, and i'd have to be just two months along right now.....i just want to go home. a tear runs down my cheek and i glance at the clock. colin should be home any minute now. i wipe the tear for my cheek and walk into the kitchen, grabbing myself a glass of water. i hear the keys in door and i set the empty glass down. colin walks in, a smile on his face and a bag in his hand. he hands the bag over to me and i timidly take it from his hands. he must've sense my nerves because he walks over, grabbing my hands.

"hey. i know things are difficult between us right now, but we're going to be okay. and we'll figure it out. now you go take that, and i'll be down here setting up for our date. okay?" he reassures me, tucking a piece of my curled hair behind my ear.

i nod, clutching the bag in my hands and walking into the bathroom. nervously pacing before sitting down and peeing on the two small sticks. i set the on the counter, wash my hands, and begin to pace again in the small bathroom. my breathing speeds up and i feel a tightness in my chest. i close my eyes and take a seat on the toilet, bringing my head into my hands, bouncing my leg up and down and letting my mind run wild. i stay like that for a few minutes before deciding i had waited long enough. i take a deep breathe and stand up, my eyes still closed. slowly, i peek them open and stare down at the two sticks on the counter. my hand flies to my mouth and tears cascade down my cheeks as my eyes fall onto the two pink lines. a sob escapes my mouth and it's followed by a soft knock at the door.

"everything okay, precious?"

i take a deep breath and look at myself in the mirror. he thinks you think it's his. play into that. not much longer, jupiter. not much longer. i wipe my sweaty hands on my pants  and let a smile cement itself onto my face. i throw open the door.

"i'm pregnant." i breathe out, the tears free flowing.

a smile breaks out onto his face and he wraps his arms around my waist, spinning me around. and for a moment, i let myself enjoy it. imagining that i was in spencer and i's apartment. that this wasn't colin, but adrian. or derek, maybe even hotch. and i imagined that this was any other situation. he pulls away, wiping the tears from his face, almost making me want to roll my eyes.

"i'm gonna be a father." he smiles, pulling at his hair.

okay, calm down. as my good friend maury would say, you are not the father.

"how are you feeling? are you okay?" he asks frantically, moving my hair from my wet cheeks.

"yeah. yeah i'm okay. um...i really would like that date still."

"of course of course. do you want anything in particular?"

before i can even think, the words leave my mouth.

"pizza."

"pizza?" he chuckles, his hands placing themselves on my hips.

"yeah. um. have you set up the projector?"

"not yet no."

"okay. you set it up, and i'll call for the pizza?"

he stops for a moment before melting into my wide excited eyes.

"yeah. you got it, baby momma."

he hands over his cell phone and my insides begin to shake with excitement. i smile widely, grabbing the phone from him.

"thank you, baby daddy. oh and um...i know where the phone book is, i saw it. but what's the address? i can't remember it." i chuckle.

"oh yeah. it's 7381 n. hockstetter drive."

i nod, walking off but i stop. turning to him with a smile on my face.

"i umm...i love you." gross disgusting revolting my embryo is folding into itself out of embarrassment.

a short breath leaves his mouth and another tear leaves his eye.

"i love you too."

i bite my lip, nodding my head and walking into the kitchen. i flip open the phone book and pretending to skim through the phone book for the pizza number. when i hear him in the living room, cursing lightly following a small crash of plastic, i dial spencer's number. i tap my foot impatiently, waiting for him to pick up.

"dr. spencer reid."

my voice gets caught in my throat and i clear my throat.

"hi! yes, i'm calling to order two large pizzas. one cheese, the other a combination."

"sorry? i think you have the wrong-"

"the name for the order is going to be jupiter."

"...j-jupiter? is that you?"

"yes. that's right." i smile, my heart thumping in keeping my customer service voice in action.

"jupiter, oh my god. okay where are you, baby?"

"32.50? that's fine. and please send a quiet driver, last time i heard that kids music from all the way down the street. nearly woke up everyone within a 20 mile radius."

"no sirens. got it. address, jup."

"oh! sorry. and the address is going to be 7381 n. hockstetter drive."

"okay. just hang on we'll be there in 20 minutes. i love you so much."

"thank you so much! we'll be seeing you soon. good night to you too."

i let out a breath of relief, clutching the phone in my chest and letting the tears free fall.

"hey the projector is se- woah. you okay?"

colin walks over, worry etched into his face.

"yeah. i'm fine. just heartburn. i had some spicy ramen earlier and i guess the baby is just disagreeing with it." i chuckle, the lie falling seamlessly from my lips.

"well if they're anything like you, they'll disagree with everything." he chuckles, making the anger bubble in my chest.

"is it okay if i finish getting ready really quickly? and just call me when the food gets here?"

"yeah of course. take your time." he smiles, leaning down and kissing my forehead.

disgusted. i'm gagging on the inside. i smile up at him, walking up the stairs and into the room. i close the door behind me and smile, excited to see the love of my life. i walk into the bathroom and re-brush my slightly damp hair and apply a light layer of makeup in attempt to hide the bags under my eyes and dulled skin tone. i change into white short sleeve t shirt and black paper bag shorts. i spray my neck with perfume and i hear the doorbell. my eyes widen and i quickly make my way down the stairs.

"i got it! go start the movie?"

he nods, walking back into the living room and i take a deep breath, walking to the door and throwing it open. there stood spencer, hotch, and morgan. all with relieved smiles on their faces.

"pizza delivery." morgan smiles.

my breath catches in my throat and my lips quiver as i look over my teammates stood in front of me. a loud sob escapes my lips before i leap forward to throw my arms around spencer and he places his hands under my thighs, holding me up as i bury my face into his neck. that's when i hear colin's heavy footsteps coming down the hallways.

"you're taking a while. is everything o-"

julien shoves his way through, snapping the cuffs against colin's wrists.

"colin hugh, you're under arrest for murder, kidnapping, and assault against a federal agent."

"what? this is crazy. i didn't murder, kidnap, or assault anyone. baby...what-"

spencer places me back onto the ground and wraps his arm around my waist. i scoff, wiping the tears from my cheeks.

"shut up colin. seriously. i've had to listen to you talk for like six days now and i'm sick of it."

"but our-"

"there is no our. there is no us."

i could see his heart visibly break and julien continues reading off his rights. i turn around, tucking myself into spencer's hold and his grip tightens around my waist. justin shoves him into the patrol car. as soon as the car drives off, i pull myself away from spencer, pulling the closest person into my hold, which happened to be hotch.

"i never thought i'd miss the smell of paper and cologne."

"i smell like paper and cologne?" he chuckles as he pats my back.

i nod my head, pulling away and morgan then attacks me, tightly wrapping his arms around my stomach making me gasp.

"careful, jeez, you're gonna squish the baby."

everyone stops and spencer's eyes go wide. jj and emily have wide smiles on their faces and justin and julien completely stop moving. pretty sure they stopped breathing too. morgan places his hands on my shoulder, looking me in the eye.

"a-are you...?"

i nod my head as a tear falls down my cheek.

"i'm pregnant" i chuckle.

smiles and cheers file through everyone around me and spencer just stares at me for a moment.

"the test is still inside. and before anyone asks, colin didn't do...that. he sedated me...a lot. tried to erase my memory. speaking of i should probably go to a hospital and make sure he didn't poison my baby with all those sedatives and i-"

i'm quickly interrupted when spencer grabs my face in his hands and place his lips on mine. i smile into the kiss letting our lips move together and as i pull away, i smile up at him.

"you're serious?" he smiles, tears falling down his cheeks.

"yeah. i'm pregnant." i sob happily.

"i'm gonna be a dad?"

"that's what happens when you get your fiancée pregnant." i laugh, making everyone chuckle.

he brings me in for a tight hug and soon emily and jj walk up to us, joining in for a group hug before pulling morgan and hotch into it.

"this feels wrong without garcia."

"don't ruin the moment, jup."

i laugh and we all pull away and i catch a quick whiff of coffee from someone, making another wave of nausea fall over me.

"oh i know that look." jj says, before i run into the bathroom regurgitating any food i had left in my stomach.

i whine as i see the food floating grossly in the toilet bowl, making a feeling of sadness creep up. i walk out, tears rolling down my cheeks.

"hey what's the matter, mama?" derek asks as spencer steps forward, wiping my wet cheeks.

"i'm hungry now. why am i crying? this is so stupid. jj how did you do it?" i pout, a small whimper escaping my lips as the hunger crept up again.

jj laughs and julien pushes his way through the agents.

"i'll buy you whatever you want. what do you want to eat? i'll buy it all. peach cobbler from penny's? i'll order a whole pan tomorrow." julien says, quickly grabbing me and wrapping his arm around my shoulders.

"are you cold? you look cold. thirsty? i have tea in the car. lemon honey. or i also brought that peach tea you like. you look tired. nap time maybe?" justin begins, placing his jacket over my shoulders as they usher me towards the paramedic.

"i want spencer." i hiccup, wiping the tears from my cheek and julien and justin snap their fingers.

"you got it. and uh...i'm glad you're okay, jube. we love you. never forget it." justin smiles, and they both lean down, kissing my head.

"husband, you're requested." julien says pointing over at me as the paramedic wraps the blood pressure sleeve around my arm.

"i'm going to start an iv to help any leftover medication run it's course through your body. is that okay?"

"yeah but um...i'm kinda with fetus."

"i'm just going to help flush the sedative out. we can take you to the hospital to get a thorough examination." she smiles, placing her hand on my shoulder.

"please. and i wanna ride in the ambulance. i have great insurance."

i look back over at spencer as he turns to hotch, most likely asking permission to leave and he waves him off, letting him know it was okay to go. but before he makes it to me, rossi steps up.

"just so you know. i think you're phenomenal. you're great at your job. and i do in fact enjoy your presence. i'm sorry i made you think otherwise. and i'm really glad you're okay."

"well well well how the turn tables." i smirk, making him chuckle.

"don't push it."

i smile, nodding my head and spencer switches places with rossi and they nod their heads at each other. he seats himself next to me, grabbing my hands. he smiles at me, running his finger gently over the healing cut on my forehead. then i wince at the sudden pinch in my arm as the medic begins the iv and spencer's posture immediately straightens as he looks over at the medic.

"be careful, she's pregnant. as in my embryo is growing in her womb. or embryos. could be two babies in there right now we have no clue!" he chuckles excitedly, making my heart skip a beat.

i look over at the woman and she raises her eyebrow at me.

"i just told him"

"makes sense."

i chuckle, turning back to spencer. i reach out my right arm, placing my hand on his cheek and bringing him in for a soft kiss.

"i love you spencer. thank you for saving me."

"i love you jupiter. i'll save you whenever you need it. but please never need it again i almost lost my job over it."

i pause, staring up at him with a blank look over my face.

"we can talk about that later."