"Around the 3 months later of training, i could finally go on my first mission. In those 3 months i changed a lot, i didn't care if people thought i was mean, i started to smoke, i would take some drugs, my brother joined, my parents didn't know anything. Noah and my parents met, we had a dinner at my house, that was the day that Will, found out that i and Noah were in the mafia. I first he panicked, he nearly told our parents but Noah convinced him not too and then one day he came to us and told us he wanted to join. In the Mafia, i was a respected person, everyone feared me and i like it, i still do, i was in charge if Noah wasn't there, i was the boss and my brother had to follow whatever i told him, everything was perfect. At least i thought it was."

"I was different. I went to my first mission and i killed many people without feeling any pain. On Christmas, 6 months later i have been in many mission and killed many people, but on Christmas i had a mission with Noah, it was a family dinner but a few people were going to come to kill Noah and i. After we finished our mission by killing those people Noah told me that i was the only girl he every loved and that he was happy to meet me, i told him the same and one thing turn to another and we ended up having um you know... that. Noah and i got closer then ever, he would come to my house nearly everyday, at first my parents didn't really like him since they could see the bad boy vibe but eventually that fell in love with him, just like i did,"

"On new years eve we had a party in Noah's house, but that night Noah, Noah's little sister Angela and i got kidnapped, i drank something and woke up next to Noah tied up on a chair same with him and Angela but she was facing us, when i saw that i knew something very bad was about to happen. just thinking about that two men came in, one of them was the head of a gang who wanted to kill me and Noah. He came up to me and began to touch me, my legs, my face and he tried to kiss me but Noah screamed and that stoped him."

"He walked towards Angela and began to touch her too but she was still sleeping i guess they put something in her food or drink but luckily she didn't have to feel that but he stopped and she woke up, the man came up to her and raped her. Noah and i couldn't do anything we tried but couldn't stop them, they left and came back later i don't know how long but Angela fainted from all the things they did to her, when they entered...they killed her" A tear rolled down my cheek, they way they killed her.

"They killed her, they took her fingers, ears, took her skin off and lastly cut her neck open. They left her for us to stare Noah wasn't crying but he was mad, i knew when we escape he would torture them, i think a day later they found us and helped us escaped. A week later we found them and tortured them, we killed their family in front of them and then them. Noah's dad was normal and i wish i actually agreed to the thought i was thinking when i thought about then it was that he doesn't care of his family but i believed that he did."

"When we killed people, it was mostly me since Noah was weak from the death of his sister but i was fucking mad, every mission i would remember her and i would just torture the person until they died. The don, Jim noticed and he came up to me when I was alone and told me he wanted me to be the Donna but without a Don, for the first time in forever i was speechless and i guess someone else was. Ben heard out the conversation but at that time I didn't know, around a month later Ben called me to go to his office, I did what he asked. When i entered the office he was sitting down on the couch and told me to do the same. When I sat down, he told me that he overheard the conversation of Jim and me, he was calm until he continued, he said: if you don't leave this place right now, I will kill your parents, brother and yourself and if I have too I will kill your friends back where you live and would do it easily with pleasure since you came here and changed everything I had planned."

" At first, I didn't believe and that's exactly why I told him to fuck off. I left the room and walked out, inside me i felt that something already happened so I called my parents, they didn't answer, I began to panic, I called my brother but he did answer. I told him what Ben said to me, he was in Noah's mansion since everyone who works for them can live or stay over a few times that's why my brother was here. He found me and said to call my parents again, I did and they didn't answer. I knew what I had to do, I told Will to pack out stuff and to wait for me in my car, he nods but said where I'm going I told him, Noah. He knew I was going to break up with him, I went to his room and found him sitting on his bed. When he saw me, he smiled, I knew this was going to be hard. I told Noah that I was going to break up with him and he cried. he cried because I told him I'm breaking up with him but he didn't cry when his sister died?. I left the room before he could say or do anything else."

"I found Will sitting in the car, I told him if he packed our stuff he said yeh, that they are in the back seat. I sit down on the car and drive out of Noah's house, but before we could get any further one of Ben's men shot our wheel causing the car to hit a tree. Will and I get out of the car to look for our guns that are in the back truck. We open it up to find...our parents dead. Before I could respond I felt bullets go through me and I saw black."

"My brother and I were found by Rachel his girlfriend, who helped us escape there and return us here. She bought all of our things, such us my cars, my brothers cars, clothes, everything. Will and I went to the hospital first and saved our lives but we were in a coma, Rachel somehow got them to move us back here. Will woke up 5 days later, Rachel was there and explained everything to him. I was still in a coma, three months later I woke up a bit confused about what happened. Will told me what happen, he told me Rachel and him were going to get information about Ben which was meant to take a few months, I was supposed to go to school, which I did. The first party we had I got mad because Will called me and told me it was my fault that our parents are dead and I do believe him, Will left me I haven't talked to him since." I look at them again and I knew they were mad with me

"the thing I am trying to tell you guys is that I'm someone dangerous, someone who doesn't have a heart anymore, I've killed many people and enjoyed, I was apart of the mafia, I had drugs, smoked and still do., i did last week when you were in class and i left to go the bathroom."

"I'm sorry guys."

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