two hours
two orgasms
and a sandwich later                                                                                                     may 7, 2020

"what does this mean?" billie asks me, her fingers tracing over the tattoo just below my ribcage.

amelie loren, la luz que nunca fue.

"amelie loren," i say softly, my eyes looking down at the black ink scarred into my skin. "the light that never was - its for my sister."

"do you want to talk about it?" she asks softly, pulling my body closer to hers as we lay in the dimly lit bedroom.

i look into her blue eyes and hum lowly, my hand reading up tp caress her cheek. "only if you want to hear it."

"i want to hear everything about you," billie murmurs, her hands squeezing my hips gently, her face leaning in to the gentle touch of my hand. "if you want to tell me, i'm all ears."

"my mom got pregnant when i was sixteen," i start with a sigh, moving my hand through my messy sex hair. "we had everything ready - the nursery, the entire house was baby proof, and we had spent thousands of dollars on this baby.

"the day came when my mom went into labor, we thought everything was fine," i continue, my eyes closing at the memory replays in my head repeatedly. "they took amelie away from my mom and kept her, and didn't tell my mom anything about what was going on."

"isn't that illegal?" billie asks me, brushing her fingers though my hair comfortingly.

i nod slightly, my eyes trained on her blue ones. "if any doctor treats a child - or anyone, for that matter - without consent, that's an immediate lawsuit."

"then why didn't they give any information?"

i shrug my shoulders looking down at the upside down cross pendant hanging from the chain on her neck. "two hours after amelie was born, we found out that the doctors took her to the NICU and couldn't get her to stop crying, so they decided to intubate her - they pushed the instrument too far, damaged her vocal cords, meanwhile pulling her head too far back, they broke her neck and killed her." i say, shaking my head slightly as to keep myself from crying.

"did you sue them?" billie raises her eyebrows, her hands cupping my cheeks as she looks into my eyes. "tell me that hospital was shut down."

"i work at that hospital," i say with a soft laugh, leaning into her touch slowly. "the doctors were put on administrative leave until the case was closed - they did fire them for malpractice, and my mom did sue them."

"thank fuck," she mutters, pressing her lips to mine quickly. "thats the worst thing i've ever heard a doctor do."

"i know," i sigh softly, my tongue darting out to wet my lips. "on a lighter note, i love the people at the hospital."

"thats a good thing," she murmurs, her thumb running across my bottom lip slowly. "your lips are really pretty."

"you say something about me is pretty with every chapter that goes on," i laugh softly, hiding my face in her naked chest. "you need to just shut up."

"make me, gwen." she says lowly, her lips brushing against the shell of my ear. "i dare you."

"challenge accepted," i whisper softly, straddling her hips and pressing my lips to her collarbone.