you kno all day I was in a "happy mood" (if you call screaming and alot of glares happy) till my mom came home angry at my dad.

she said she wanted to turn back time so that she never met my dad or my bio dad.

and so I asked her,
"would you be happy if I was gone"

and she said,
"yes I would,cuz u don't even care bout me. I wish I never knew your dad (aka bio dad)"

I was all laughing and smiling when she said I don't care about her when I do. I mean what other reason would I hug you and kiss u, just bcuz I want something is what she says.

but I don't I love her care for her it's the least I can do and that's why I don't show my emotions around you, it'll be bothersome too.

it hurts badly to kno my own mother doesn't know me like she claims she does.

all she thinks I am is a heartless emotionless girl who's so stupid, only smiles and laughs, wants to kill herself, is an attention seeker, never takes anything serious, and doesn't love my own family.

Idk what you want me to do to prove to you I'm not what you think I am. I do everything you ask and yet I'm still not good enough.

just remember mom what you said if me not being here will makes you happy I'll do it, I'll do anything to make you happy.

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mom had to ruin my "happy mood" ;)