[46] Alone

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That morning came sooner then I would have liked. It's been four weeks since I've seen Easton face to face. He phones every day, but when he does the call is never longer than an hour. I miss him beyond words and I've never felt so alone. It's sad to think that him being away has left me more alone than when I lost my parents but it has. I think it's because when I lost my parents I had Claire, and this time around I'm trying to be strong.

Tonight I'm having dinner with Shay and Amara. They've both been keeping a close eye on me and I spend lots of time with them even though I have chosen to stay at home.

Buzzz buzzz buzzzz

"Hello?" I answer quickly recognising the foreign phone number

"Hi Sweetheart." Easton smiles on the other end of the line

"You're calling early tonight." I respond with a smile, the sound of his voice enough to turn my sad mood around.

"We have a few things to do tonight so I wanted to call you now or I knew you'd worry."

"I worry about you no matter what East." I remind

"I know baby, and I'm sorry. If all goes well I should be in a few weeks"

"We only have four weeks before she's due East."

"Before the baby is born, that's the aim Sweetheart." He takes a deep breath "I have to go, but Aubrey I love you, so, so, so much you know that right?"

"I love you too Easton, and I miss you."

"I miss you too" The line goes quiet for a moment before he speaks again "Aubrey" his voice breaks softly "Never forget how much I love you and our baby girl. I promise you I will come back to you."

"Easton, I feel like you're trying to say goodbye to me, is something wrong?"

"Just listen carefully, I will come back to you."

"Okay." I all but whisper "I love you East."

"I love you sweetheart." and without another word, the line goes dead.


I arrive at Shay and Lane's home at around six, our usual dinner time. I make my way through the door using my spare key and head right for the kitchen where the strong aroma of food is coming from.

"Hey." I smile softly

"Hey honey," Shay says in an upbeat tone as she looks up from the pan and places down the spatula, making her way over and giving me a hug "How are you feeling?"

"I'm okay." I give her a soft smile "Easton phoned me just before I arrived"

"Lane phoned me as well, how was Easton?" She questions as she gets back to cooking

"He seems a little off, he kept telling me that he'd come home to me and he's trying to get home before the baby is born."

"I think he's just missing you honey, and I know he's very stressed about you being in the house alone."

"Was it selfish of me to want to stay in the house? Should I have just come and stayed here with you and Amara to put his mind at rest?"

"No sweetie, you don't have to feel bad for choosing to stay in your own home."

"I just feel like maybe I'd put his mind of ease a little if I came and stayed here."

"If that's what you want, you know you're always welcome here."

"Hey sister!" Amara smiles as she makes her way down the stairs

"Hey." I give her a soft smile "where's Oli?"

"Nates putting his down he's been a little unsettled this afternoon."

"Oh." I nod

It's been hard seeing Nate still around when Easton isn't, but I understand Oli is a newborn, it would be wrong for Nate to leave him and Amara. I just wish someone had taken Easton's place like Lane took Nates.

"Do you need any help with dinner?"

"No sweetie, I'm fine, thank-you." Shay smiles

"I'll be back in a moment" I excuse myself and make my way out into the back deck.

I take a deep breath looking out at the gardens. Since my phone call with Easton I have this horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach, I feel like something is wrong, like maybe what he was doing tonight was more dangerous than usual.

"You okay?" A male voice asks from behind me.

"Chet you scared me." I jump slightly as I turn to face him

"Sorry Sweetheart, I just wanted to check you're okay?"

"I'm okay, I'm just having a moment." I laugh softly, feeling silly "I just miss Easton so much."

"He misses you as well, he tells me every time he phones."

I smile softly and place my hand on my bump. "Do you think he'll be home soon?"

"He's trying."

"Good." I nod and bite down on my bottom lip trying to hold the tears back

"Come here." He takes my hand and pulls me closer to him, rubbing my back as holds me close

"Look at this, I can hardly get my arms around you anymore." He jokes

"That's cause you spend too much time at the gym and your muscles are too big" I joke back and pull back from the hug

Chet is extremely fit for his age and he is always telling Easton to join him in the gym and that he's still the best looking man in the family due to his mussels and tattoos still looking amazing.

"Don't tell Easton that, he'll think I've brainwashed while he was away." He laughs

"Thanks for checking on me, and for always putting a smile on my face."

"You're welcome Sweetheart, I'll always be here, we all will." He places his arm around me "lets head inside."

We head back through the doors when I hear Amity speak "Oh Chet, you always did have a way with women" She laughs as she makes her way over. "How's our baby girl?"

"She's good." I smile and rub my stomach. "She's been moving around a lot lately."

"Probably getting ready to meet you." Amity smiles

"I just hope she'll wait until Daddy is home before she arrives."

"Dinners ready," Shay calls

We sat at the table together and ate dinner. Even though it was so nice having everyone around, I still couldn't seem to find total happiness, my thoughts were filled with Easton and how bad I wanted him home with us, all of us.

At around nine we said our goodbyes to Chet and Amity, Shay, Amara, Nate and I watched a little TV while baby Oli is sleeping

"Do you want to stay the night?" Amara asks with a hopeful smile

"No, I should get going, it's late."

"Are you sure? You can stay in Easton's room if you like, or you can sleep with me." Shay offers

"You're so sweet." I giggle softly

"What? I'm just as lonely as you, I miss Lane so much."

I hadn't taken a minute to think about how Shay might be feeling, she has her husband and her son on the other side of the world and she has no idea when either of them will be home, of course she's just as emotional as me, only she's been able to hide it so well. Maybe after twenty years of being a Mafia wife that's something you learn.

"Maybe I will stay tonight, but will you stay in Easton's room with me?"

"Of course honey."

"If you two are having a slumber party, I'm staying as well!" Amara adds with a smile

"Really?" I giggle

"The boy has a California king, I think we can all fit don't you?"

"What Nate and Oli as well?" I joke

"Nope, they can have a boys night." She shrugs

"Alright, it's settled, sleepover in Easton's room." Shay stands up with a smile.


I wake the buzzing of a phone next to me and roll overlooking at the time, 2 AM. I reach for the buzzing phone and find it's mine, and the phone number calling is Easton's Italian phone.

"Hi baby." I answer a little groggy with sleep "Why are you calling me so early?"

"Aubrey." A voice with a strong Italian accent speaks on the other end of the phone

"Yes, who's this?" I question sitting up

"Aubrey it's Lorenzo Ricci, I run the Italian m-"

"I know who you are, why are you calling me at 2 AM? Where is Easton?"

"Aubrey I'm so sorry to be the one to call you, Easton was killed by the Colombians tonight."

"Is this some kind of sick joke because I don't find it very funny" I huff

"I would joke about such things my girl, again I am so sorry but it's true, he was killed"

I feel a tightening in my chest as my hands begin to shake and tears roll down my cheeks, this can't be happening, he promised me he'd come back, he promised

"Aubrey?" Lorenzo speaks once more

"He isn't dead" I tell him "H-he wasn't killed, he couldn't have been because he promised me he'd come home to me."

"Aubrey, I'm sorry darling, I just wanted you to be the first call I made, he loved you, so, so much"

"He said he'd come home to me." I yell into the phone before starting to sob "He promised he'd be back before our daughter was born." I sob into the phone

"Aubrey." Shay sits up quickly, Amara joining her, both of them looking at me with worry written across their faces.

I drop the phone as my hands shake terribly, and hang my head as I sob.

"Who the hell is this?" Shay asks angrily as she places the phone on speaker.

There is a rustling sound before a familiar voice speaks "Shay?"

"Lane, what the hell is going on?" Shay questions

Everything around me goes quiet, I can't hear a thing. I know that Shay is talking because I can see her lips moving, but all I hearing is the buzzing sound that's taken over my body. I watch her, I wait for some kind of reaction, I want this to all be some kind of a bad dream, but she begins to sob in her hands, Amara doing the same and I know that I'm never going to wake up for this bad dream because this isn't a dream, it's real.

Easton is gone, and he's never coming home.





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