The next nine days passed in a flash and tomorrow morning was the day. The day that I've been dreading, every minute of the night and day. Sleep wasn't coming easy and as much as I wanted to have a clear mind in the morning, my head was filled with all the worse thoughts possible. What if Jaxon managed to break free and kill me or worse still, they didn't believe me and set him free.

Not only would my baby girl no longer have a mummy to love her but also have a raving lunatic evil so called dad out there too. Then there was the matter of his wife as well. As much as I didn't want to think of her being there in the court room, I knew deep down she would be. Both of their faces haunted me to the point where I gave up trying to sleep and slipped out of bed. I didn't want to wake Joshua up because he was starting to look as bad as I felt. He deserved so much better than me and my baggage but as much as I wanted to free him of all of this crap, I just couldn't tear myself away from him.

I loved him so much that if I was to leave him now, there was no telling if I would survive a day let alone the rest of my life. Then there was my baby to think of too and I really couldn't bear to even think of what it would do to Joshua, if I left him now. However, I did come to one conclusion and that was it would kill us both more than facing everything else head on together. Yes it was going to be hard but I knew together we could get through this, just as he had told a number of times.

Feeling a little better after clearing my head as well as a strong cup of coffee, I made my way back to bed. Seeing Joshua out cold I smiled at how cute he looked. Although everything in my life had gone to hell, looking at him and then my baby, I realized that my life wasn't as bad as I had thought. I had been blessed with not only a beautiful healthy daughter but my soul mate too. I never in a million years thought I would ever find a love so strong after Jaxon. However, now I realize I never truly loved Jaxon because now I know what true love truly feels like.

The next morning I didn't want to think of what today will hold. So doing my usual morning rituals as well as feeding and changing Elise, I carried on without letting the fear of today settle in.

Joshua Elle and Lisa were doing enough stressing out for the entire world, let alone me. I loved how much they were worrying about me but trying to stay strong, when everyone around is treating you like you're going to break at any second, wasn't helping my strong façade.

We were all ready and had to be in court in an hour. Grandma was looking after Elise as I didn't want to chance me being seen with her or endangering her any more than I already had. Joshua had doubled up on security so that we didn't have to worry about leaving his mother and our baby alone. Lisa Elle Jack and Paul demanded that they were coming with us and I have to say it really touched my heart. I felt stronger having us altogether and as I got myself mentally prepared for what was ahead of me, Joshua squeezed my hand in reassurance.

Entering the courts, I hadn't realized how scary these places were. My heart was racing what felt like a hundred miles an hour. Bile rose up my throat making me feel like I was going to throw up any second. Everything looked, I guess as a place like this should look, full of criminals. My feet moved along but without my knowing. I couldn't wrap my head around what I was seeing.

This place not only looked scary but it was also filled with hundreds of Jaxon's. My legs began to tremble the further we walked into the courts. Joshua Jack and Paul walked along side us as if all this was in some way normal to them. However, Lisa Elle and I looked on, not believing what we were seeing right in front of us. It was like I had walked into a horror movie. Being trapped in with a load of villains'. The only thing that seemed to ease my petrified mind was the amount of police and security guards that were stationed everywhere.

Joshua led us towards our lawyer who I had actually met a few times before and although he was nice, seeing him here all suited up with a blank but hard face on, made my insides squirm.

'Ok Isabella pull yourself together!' I mentally yelled as we moved in the direction of big dark wood doors.

Our lawyer, Joshua and I stood waiting to enter the private room that was set up especially for me. Elle Lisa, Jack and Paul all had made their way to the open court room because they wanted to see Jaxon go down, so they keep saying. As Jack was the one who found me, he had to be there anyway encase he needed to be called to the stand, which thankfully he didn't mind and agreed to right away.

Joshua and our lawyer were talking but I couldn't for the life of me focus on what they were saying. As time went by, my nerves were beginning to get the best of me, as we anxiously awaited for the doors to open. Joshua held me and tried comforting me but I just couldn't seem to stop myself from shaking. How people were smiling, laughing and chatting around me, I will never know because for me this felt like the worst thing ever. Seeing the big doors opening in front of me, I felt as if I was going to faint.

"Jesus Isabella breathe" Joshua told me as I started to sway in his arms. I nodded my head as I took in deep lungs full of air. "Good girl. You can do this OK. I will be there by your side. He cannot harm you, touch you or even get near you." Nodding my head, I gave his hand a quick squeeze as he led me into the room right behind our lawyer.

Taking in my surroundings I felt like I was the criminal here. Although it wasn't a court room; it might as well of been. Sitting at the top end of the room on a stage like stand, was what looked like the judge and then on either side of her stood two scary tall muscular men. Who they were, I hadn't a clue because they weren't in security nor police uniform. To the right, in front of the stage like setting were two benches, which I was being led to. A large screen to the right caught my eye making me almost collapse and I'm sure I would've if it wasn't for Joshua holding me. My blood ran cold as my heart practically stopped for a flicker of a second. Bile rose in my throat and was threatening to come out at the sickening face on the screen. The way Jaxon's eyes appeared on the screen, felt as if he was staring right into my very soul and even knowing he wasn't in the room with me, my entire body shook as my blood ran as cold as ice. Frozen on the spot, I stared petrified into the screen.

This was the first time I had actually seen Jaxon since that nightmare of a night and as much as I had prepared myself for this. I now knew that there was nothing in this world that could've prepared me for this moment. For just seeing Jaxon's face on screen had me literally shaking on the spot. Joshua stared in the direction I was looking and slowly moved my face away from the screen.

"Isabella. Remember he is not in this room and cannot get in this room. Please baby calm down. Come on let's take a seat." I could feel Joshua moving me along but how I was moving one foot in front of another I'll never know.

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Oh It feels so good to be able to write again!!!!

I hope you all enjoyed this chapter :)

I'm still writing so i will be uploading again real soon xx

Did any of you feel nervous for Isabella?

by the way i have a nice surprise for you in the next chapter ;)

All my love Mel xoxo