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Chapter 33

Two weeks had past and Joshua and I were beginning to get more excited about our soon arrival of our baby. I had, had a scan and Joshua had literally got the nurse to print us pictures from every angle our baby laid in. We laughed and cried as we saw how much our princess had grown since the last scan. I no longer thought of our princess as Jaxon's baby. To me now, it was Joshua's. Sometimes I would feel bad for taking my baby away from its blood related father but that disappeared as quickly as I felt it because I wouldn't wish Jaxon on anyone, let alone my own flesh and blood. We were better off without him and knew that there was no man on this earth that would love my baby and me as much as Joshua did.

We finally came out as an official couple the day after we returned from my parents' house. It was funny really because I already felt we were a couple, especially with us living together and everything. Joshua had Elle and Lisa move all my things out of the guest room which I barely stayed in and moved them into Joshua's bedroom, when he took me out on a date, to ask me to be his girlfriend. As romantic as it was I couldn't help but laugh at his nervousness. I even teased him when we got home when I first realised he had moved all my stuff before knowing I would agree to be his girlfriend, not that I would've. He blushed and I mean full out blushed as I continued to tease him but after a while I finally gave in and kissed him, before leading him to what was now officially our bedroom.

Paul being his usual big brother self-gave Joshua the speech if he was to ever hurt me he'd kill him. Ha ha Where Jack on the other hand, gave him the father's speech. Seriously it was as if they were my lifelong friends, instead of Joshua's. Elle and Lisa didn't give him a lecture or anything but the way they stood with their hands on their hips nodding in agreement with Paul and Jack they didn't need to. I couldn't help but laugh how everyone was out for Joshua.

I sat to the side patiently waiting for my turn of the lectures to come but it never came. Feeling a mixture of disappointment as well as relief, I sat in between Jack and Paul as Elle and Lisa took a seat either side of them. Joshua hadn't even managed to sit down because as soon as the lectures were over they all started giving their take outs orders to Joshua. All I could do was sit there and bite my lip to stop myself from laughing aloud because in all truth, he was the one who invited them all around for takeout and a movie. So who was I to stand in their way ha ha.

Elle, Lisa and Paul were arguing like always over what movie we were going to watch. Where Jack on the other hand just sat there scowling at their childish behaviour. Joshua picked that moment to walk in his face red with annoyance. "Enough already! You're acting like bloody children. Now sit down I'm picking a movie and that's it." And with that said, Lisa Elle, even Paul flew over to the sofa whilst they pouted like five year olds. Jack on the other hand just sat there smiling to himself. I'd seen Joshua mad before but seeing him take control of them all like that made my stomach flutter with a kind of excitement. Damn he looked sexy when he was annoyed. I could just picture him now when our little one would play up and he would raise his voice like that. 'WOW' I mentally awed, God was I lucky to have found this man, my man.

The court date was set for four weeks' time and the baby was due in six. I couldn't help but panic and seeing this was taking a toll on Joshua, didn't help ease my panicked state. I knew I was just going to have to deal with it when it comes down to it but right now I didn't think I could face going through all that. My nightmares had come back full force at the thought of seeing Jaxon again. Every night I would wake Joshua up by my screams I hated how I had gone from finally starting to live my life back to this.

Even with Jaxon locked up he still managed to torment me. I tried not sleeping but being snuggled up in Joshua's arms was impossible. I tried staying up but Joshua could see through what I was trying to do and put a stop to it. I knew the stress was bad for my baby but how could I not stress knowing that not only had I had to face Jaxon but he would also know that I was pregnant. He wouldn't know for sure it was his but it wouldn't take a brain surgeon to work it out. I had stayed away from all our old college friends so this wouldn't happen and now I was left with no choice in the matter.

The lawyer had met up with Joshua and I, he told us that we had a good fair judge for the trial. Although this seemed to ease him, it didn't ease me.

Joshua

Seeing Isabella so distort killed me. I was meant to protect her, yet there wasn't a damn thing I could do to make this right. Even with all the money I had, I could do nothing. It broke me hearing her screams every night as she slept. I knew she was reliving that night over and over again, each and every night. The sad thing was there was nothing I could do to help stop the nightmares from happening. All I could do was hold her and try and sooth her, as she screamed out. So many times, I wished I had just killed Jaxon when I had the chance but even now, I knew I could've never lived with myself for killing someone, no matter how much I wanted too.

Isabella was looking so tired and drawn that I wouldn't go to bed unless she was with me. Many nights she tried faking she wasn't tired but I knew she was just trying to stay awake so she wouldn't have to dream. My heart went out to her, it really did. I couldn't imagine what she was going through but I had a rough idea. I managed to keep her mind occupied in the day but at night there wasn't much I could do to help, only be there for her.

We only had a couple weeks left now until the court date and as hard as I tried to keep my emotions hidden, I could tell I wasn't doing a very good job of it. Today was the first day I had left Isabella alone while I went looking for a way to stall the courts. I didn't want Isabella to have the baby early and thankfully the doctors agreed, yet I hadn't told Isabella that, as I didn't want her to think I was going against her. I understood that her biggest fear was revealing the baby to Jaxon but truthfully, I didn't care about him because I would fight him all the way if I had too. If he was a good man then I would step back a little but knowing Jaxon was in no way fit for father material, I couldn't help but feel protective of our baby.

I have never kept anything away from Isabella but for the last two days I have, and to say I felt guilty is an understatement. It wasn't that I wanted to keep this from her but I couldn't find a way to tell her that she will have to stand and give evidence in court. I've been running around like a mad man trying to find a way that she could give evidence but in separate room to Jaxon. The judge reassure me that she would look into it and being that Isabella was pregnant, I laid that on thick. Whilst stating that too much stress could be dangerous not only for Isabella but the baby too.

So here I was right now waiting outside the door of the judges private chambers, were both lawyers were present, as they tried to come to some kind of agreement.

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Paul Elle and Lisa are just so funny, i loves them and the way Paul and Jack all gave Joshua the what will happen if he hurts Isabella speech, made me laugh. I can just imagine Elle and Lisa standing their giving him the evils whilst their hands on their hips. ha ha

Oh God I feel so nervous for Isabella.  I hope Isabella doesn't have to sit in that court room!!!

Can  you Imagine having to be in the same room as Jaxon, omg i would have to kill him.

Hope you enjoyed Mel xoxo