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Chapter 23

Lisa and Elle were screaming for Jack to do something. Being in so much pain myself I only just managed to work out what was happening. Elle continued to scream, as she tried to stop Joshua from punching whatever he was punching and by the sounds of it, I would say everything that he was punching everything in sight. I knew he was mad but he needed to stop before he hurt himself.

Too scared to move a muscle, I stayed as still as I possibly could. Not laying but not sitting either. It was uncomfortable but not wanting the pain to hit me again, I just held myself as best as I could. Feeling heavy breathing by my ear followed by big strong hands taking hold of me, I slowly leaned into them.

"Please stop." Joshua soothed me with warm soothing words but I knew the words were not only for me but for him too. His body felt like a tightly coiled spring, coiled up so tight that it could snap at any given second. I wasn't scared of him though which shocked me to say the least. After what Jaxon did to me I made a vow to myself that I would never go near another man as long as I shall live. And here I am now only a few days later trying to think on what say or do to help calm Joshua down. Doing the only thing my brain was screaming for me to do I reached my hand out and stroked my hand over his face until I found his lips, lifting my head up without any hesitation, I kissed him. His lips felt hot and soft against my own. Feeling the stinging of my split lips didn't stop me from taking the kiss deeper. Kissing Joshua right there and then felt like the most perfect thing in my life. My baby suddenly kicked making me yelp but giggle at the same time. Even though I couldn't see anyone, I could feel all their eyes on me. Placing my hand on my swollen baby bump I not only felt relieved but I felt a love so strong for my baby that it brought tears to my eyes.

"Isabella what is it?" I heard Lisa speak up for the first time since I woke up. Smiling I rubbed a soothing loving circle over my stomach. "She just kicked. I just felt my baby kick." I told them feeling so proud and amazed by that small movement. I felt all hands smother my stomach but feeling the warmness from whom I knew were Joshua's hands, I near enough choked. Out of all the hands that now lay upon my stomach waiting excitedly for my baby to kick, I could only feel his. My heart swelled as my body turned into mush at his mere touch. Joshua was still holding onto me and as much as I wanted to stay like this my body was in bits.

"Oh Isabella I'm so proud of you. You're such a strong and beautiful woman and I hope you will allow me the chance to make everything up to you." Hearing his words brought tears to my eyes and as much as I didn't want to thrust let alone be with another man. I knew that I was never going to be able to stay away from Joshua. He was one of the good ones and as long as he was willing to have me and my baby I was going to have him.

"Joshua." I whispered into his ear. Feeling him shudder I mentally smiled. "I will." I wanted to say more but with god knows who was still in the room; I thought I would wait until we were alone. "Thank you baby, I promise you now I did not run away from you or your, or hopefully what will soon be our baby." Oh my god I mentally squealed whilst my body melted. Is this really real? Is Joshua seriously accepting me and my baby? Hearing him saying 'our baby' made me feel so many mixed emotions.

Love for him wanting to be a father to my child and then there was the horrible realization of the real father. Ice-cold Chills ran throughout my entire body as my mind began to wonder back to Jaxon and the way he looked at me when he punched me. His eyes and face looked so different to how I remembered them. He looked so evil and the way his face twisted and strained with every punch he threw at me, horrified me. It was as if he really wanted to kill me and I had no doubt in my mind that if I hadn't had ran when I did, I would more likely be lying in a morgue right now instead of this hospital bed.

My body shook and although I knew I was safe, I suddenly didn't feel safe. Where was Jaxon now? Was he still out there looking for me? Was he going to come after me and finish what he started? My mind went into frenzy as the thought of him coming after me engulf me. Shaking from head to toe pain as well as fear engulfed me to where I could no longer catch my breath. My lungs burned as struggled to breathe. Panicking I pushed my body forward however, instead of breathing in a lung full of air as I thought would happen the pain hit again taking every last drop of air I had in me.

I could hear and feel Joshua Elle and Lisa trying to help me but as much as I tried to breathe, I couldn't. Someone placed something onto my face. At first I began to panic thinking someone was trying to smoother me but when I felt the gush of air entering my burning throat I began to relax. Before long I could breathe again.

"Isabella I'm going to give you something for the pain and something to help you sleep ok?" I wanted to scream no but I couldn't speak as what I can only guess was an oxygen mask was covering my face. I didn't want to sleep encase Joshua Elle and Lisa left me. I didn't want to be left alone encase Jaxon came back for me. I tried slapping the mask away from my mouth but my body suddenly became numb as I felt myself falling into the darkness. I tried fighting it off but the sudden heavy feeling of my body, I couldn't fight it, as I sunk into the darkness.

Waking up to blackness, I choked back the tears knowing that this was how it was going to be for me from now on. As petrified and angry as I felt, I kept reassuring myself that I was lucky, Lucky to be alive, as well as my baby. Feeling Joshua's hand still holding onto mine made me smile. "Your awake" I could just picture Joshua smiling as he spoke. My heart sunk as tears filled my eyes at the possibility that I would never be able to see his face or even his heart throbbing smile again. Swallowing back my shattering reality, I smiled

"Yes" my voice still sounded wired even to my own ears but I guess that was from screaming so much.

"I've missed you." Although it was his fault he missed me I couldn't help but replying him truthfully. "I missed you too." I wanted to question him further but even though I couldn't hear anyone in the room with us, I still didn't want to start questioning him encase there was. That was something I wanted to do in private because as much as I hated the way he had ran off on me at his house, for some reason I had a gut feeling it wasn't because of me or my baby. Hopefully this time my gut instincts were right because I really don't think I could go through any more in my life right now.

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I will be uploading again over the weekend :)

Aww the baby kicked!

Well at much as i loved that Joshua had lost it for a moment there, when reading i was wishing it was Jaxon's face and not just some wall, door or whatever.

Joshua just shocks me more and more. the way he doesn't really know Isabella that well yet and the way he is acting like her long lover as well as a father to her unborn child melts my heart. I wish there was more men like him in the real world. not that i need a man but you know what i mean... ha ha

Thanks for reading Mel xoxo