Here's the extra chapter I promised and I will upload again tomorrow

Melxxxxx

Happy reading

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"Hey please don't cry baby girl." I hadn't even realized I was crying. Reaching his hands up he gently cupped my face and with his soft lips, kissed my tears away which were now streaming down my cheeks. Joshua inched my body closer against his and hugged me as he rubbed soothing circles on my back.

"Isabella whatever it is that is troubling you. I want you to know that I'm here for you if you want to talk but for now I think it's best if we let the doctor in so he can check you over." Not trusting my voice I just nodded because as much as I wanted to tell him right now, I just couldn't, not yet anyway. Knowing I needed to get Joshua out of the room just encase the doctor lets it slip, I took in a deep breath in hope it would stop my stupid overflowing tears.

"Joshua would you mind if I see the doctor alone please?" I asked in hope that he would agree.

"Of course I wouldn't mind. Would you like me to call in Lisa and Elle to be with you?" he asked. I was surprised he hadn't fought me on staying. Nevertheless, what surprised me more was the way he had offered for my friends to be with me. I couldn't believe how lucky I was. He was everything if not more than what every woman would die for in a man. If that was Jaxon he would have kicked up such a fuss and offering for my friends to be with me was a complete no go. Jaxon never really liked my friends not that I've ever told them that but Jaxon always made it clear to me. Jaxon always made excuses up whenever we were invited out but I knew the truth because we would always end up arguing over it.

Remembering Joshua was still waiting for me to reply, I answered quickly. "Yes please" whilst feeling like the worst person ever for refusing him but wanting my friends. However, it was for the best. Well at least for now as I needed to have a clear head to tell him everything. I mentally promised myself that I would tell Joshua as soon as the doctor had checked me over.

Joshua kissed my forehead as he lifted me up before replacing me back on the bed. "I'll see you in a bit then." Although his voice came out strong I could clearly tell he was hurting and it was my entire fault. Knowing now wasn't the time for me to crumble and give in, I watched as Joshua walked out of the room but at least I knew he would be back I reassured myself.

The doctor had seemed pretty pleased with my recovery, so pleased that he had allowed me to get out of bed on the conditions that I didn't leave the house. After promising him a thousand times over, he finally left as well as Lisa and Elle. Now alone I knew it was now or never. This was it!

Lisa Elle and I had talked about what I should do and after a lot of discussion; we decided that for now it was best not to tell Jaxon. At first I wanted to ask them to tell me what they had heard but by the way they didn't want Jaxon knowing yet had me shutting my mouth, for now anyway. However, the girls did agree with me telling Joshua, well that was after they made me confess my feelings for Joshua.

With a knew found courage, I made my way down the hallway and just as I turned the corner I heard Joshua's voice coming from the room across the hall from me. As if my feet had a mind of their own before I even had a chance to stop myself I had entered the room. Joshua looked up and his angry face turned soft. As soon as our eyes locked he cut his call short. None of us spoke a word but we didn't need to as the electrical current between our bodies spoke more than any words could. After what felt like only seconds but was probably minutes Joshua made his way over to me.

"Oh Isabella I'm so happy you're going to be alright. The doctor told me that he is very pleased with your recovery but he also told me that you haven't been eating right and that is what had caused you to collapse in the first place." Although he sounded relieved he also sounded mad that I had not been looking after myself properly. If I wasn't so nervous I would've laughed at him but knowing what I had to tell him had overrode my instants to laugh.

"I know." I replied knowing this was it, it was now or never. This would be the make or break of us not that there is an us but if there is to be an us in the future this would be it. Swallowing down my building anxiousness I asked him could we sit down and talk. Without a word he took hold of my small hand in his larger one and led me over to the sofa in the corner of the room.

Joshua sat silently as he waited for me to start. As if he felt my nervousness he sat me on his lap. With the heat radiating of his body and the tenderness he held me in gave me the extra strength I fought to find. I had never felt so nervous in my life. Oh sweet Jesus help me.

"Joshua what I'm going to tell you, you're not going to like. Hell I wouldn't blame you if you run right out of this room but please just let me finish before you run." The way he looked at me like I was the stupidest person ever eased my trembling insides but at the same time scared me. I wasn't nervous or even scared in telling him as such. It was the not knowing whether I had lost him before I accepted him.

"I promise I will hear you out but Isabella....I want you to know now that no matter what it is you have to tell me, nothing will have me running away from you. I know we haven't really had time to get to know each other yet but believe me when I say this. I have never or did ever think I could ever feel the way I do for you. You have brought something I hadn't even known I had been missing into my life." Oh my god. His words had me hoping and praying that he would keep to his word and not run because with every word that slipped out of his mouth had me falling harder and harder for him. Leaning into him I placed a small but meaningful kiss against his dry lips. 'You can do this Isabella' I internally chanted. Without wasting another second I began.

"Joshua I don't think you will still feel that way after I tell you. Honestly though I hope you won't run as it has been killing me staying away from you. As I too feel something for you and have done since the first night we met. "I stopped there not really knowing where to start. Then after a lot of thought I thought the best way was to start from the night at my house.

"Do you remember the night you turned up at my house? The night I had beaten Jaxon?" I blushed at remembering how I had totally lost it that night. Nodding his head I carried on not wanting to remember that night. "Well I used to think he was the one, the one I was going to spend the rest of my life with." Ha ha I laughed sickened by how naive I was back then.

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Oh here we go biting fingers :/

Will he run?