Daniella POV

My cheek pounded as I slowly awoke, arms around in a tight embrace. Last night was a complete blur once I had gotten onto the bus. I was fighting back urges until finally my body couldn't hide it anymore. I turned over and placed my head against Gerald's chest before releasing a soft yawn.

"Morning babe."

" Morning... What happened last night? My cheek hurts so bad."

"You don't remember?"

" No."

"Well Richard and I got into a fight and... You got in the way... I hit you... But then Richard finally told me every thing..." My heart skipped a beat, I was nervous as hell until he sighed, it was quiet for a moment till he spoke.

"Why didn't you tell me you've been pregnant D?"

"Because it... It wasn't my fault and I wanted to forget Gerald. He had sex with me, I wasn't even conscious! Next thing I know is I'm pregnant and I have to go for my first treatment of chemo." I didn't expect myself to cry, but a slight sob left me.

"I felt guilty... So fucking guilty that I was being selfish and choosing my life over a baby's but it wasn't... It wasn't right. I just lost you and you... You're my world... I didn't want to be with anyone else, but when you moved on I settled for Finn. He wasn't good to me. Sex was sex. I knew he wasn't faithful because I would go to the hospital for my chemo and he wouldn't be there or at home... I acted like I didn't notice. I was a fucking cancer patient, I was lucky someone wanted me... Then when I got better our relationship got worse. All we did was argue... I stayed at Richards a few times towards the end of my marriage because he would get so angry. Then act like a child and call me crying saying we could fix it somehow." He was quiet till the end, a soft sigh leaving my lips.

"You're worth so much more than anything anyone can give you D. You're so strong..."

"Yeah well today I have to be strong. It's my yearly check up. I'm always scared as hell for these. I called a doctor in town so while you're at sound check I'll be there."

"I need to go with you D..."

" No that's just gonna make me more nervous." A laugh escaped my lips. " Your mom is going. I'll be okay it's just a check up." I slipped out of the bunk and grabbed some clothes to change into before occupying the small bathroom. I showered quickly and managed to make myself look presentable with the bruise etched on my cheek.

"Dang D!"

"Shut up Marty." I huffed covering my cheek with my hand before walking towards the exit of the bus. Suzanne already waiting with purse in hand.

"Wait babe!" I heard Gerald running down the hall, he lifted me up, pressing a kiss to my lips. "I love you... Call me when you're done. I'll see you soon."

"I will babe I love you too." A giggle escaped me before Suz and I walked off the bus and into the await cab. I was so nervous, my heart pounding the whole way there and the whole wait. I had to go into the room myself. The doctor seemed concerned slightly as she squeezed one of my breasts.

"I wanna get you scanned... I'll be right back..." I held my breath almost till she came back and guided me into the other room. "I wanna make sure there isn't any masses in your body. This was the breast that happened to start the cancer last time. It just still seems a little swollen."

"O-okay." I got changed and laid down, the scanner running over my body. Then silence. I sat up then got dressed. I knew that pitiful look. That was the look Finn gave me when I was diagnosed.

"Miss Evans... You've got a small tumor... Actually in the other breast... I'm not saying you have cancer, but I'm saying you need to get that operated on before it grows and possible spreads if it is a cancerous tumor. I soonest I can operate is next week."

"Can you check the hospital in San Francisco?"

"Of course..."

"Just let me know when you schedule it for... I'll be there..." I swallowed the lump in my throat before I rushed out of the room even past the waiting room. I couldn't do it again. No more chemo, it would kill me. I stopped once I was standing in the pouring rain, Suzanne coming up behind me with an umbrella and pulling me into a hug.

"I'm so sorry honey..."

"It's a tumor... It could be cancer again... I cant do it again mom! I can't!" Cries turned to sobs and she held me with one of her arms. We walked silently back inside, she called a cab and we waited. Neither of us dared to call Gerald for fear of his reaction. The cab ride back to the venue was silent. I sluggishly walked inside and the moment he saw my face he knew.

"Danny... Danny baby..." He ran off the stage and pulled me into his arms. "Shhh we'll be okay... I'll get the best doctors... I promise."

"Ger it's a tumor... There is a chance it's not cancerous... But... I'm so scared."

"It's okay... I'll be there the whole time... Don't worry." He picked me up and carried me backstage, we laid there in silence. Each of us running over the scenarios we dared not say out loud. Finally it was time for him to go on stage. Suzanne watched me like a hawk as I laid on the sofa, zoning out. Soon enough my body shook, a seizure threatening to come. I didn't fight when she stuck the needle in my arm. Numb. That's what I felt. Absolutely nothing but worry in my mind. I wouldn't be able to fight this again.