I think I'm in love with Daniel's visuals. Vote if you agree. <3

I'm planning to finish this book before my birthday this month. :P

[Jayden's P.O.V]

"What's wrong with you?" Daniel whined, punching me in the arm as I face the opposite direction. I'm not looking at him.

Truth is, I didn't sleep properly. I didn't even sleep at all!

Because I can't stop thinking about my feelings for him. There were a lot of things running in my head and it's all so new to me so I didn't understand them. It's like there's a new world right in front of me.

Peter said some things that actually made sense, so that's a consolation.

It's like, a new can of worms just opened and here I am confused as hell. 

It ticked me because I never felt this kind of affection towards him before. It's all just coming to me now, like a big tsunami wave. By the looks of it, I think something triggered inside of me the moment he came out. It is like  a new part of me was unlocked.

Have I always been attracted to him? And I just didn't know?

Should I keep on denying it? Or do I finally just accept it already? Accept that I like him more than just a best friend. Ugh fuck, it even sounds wrong inside my head! Why the hell does he have to be gay! Damn. Now I think I'm becoming one.

But I don't like boys. I don't like what's on their pants. Disgusting! I can't even imagine myself being with a guy.

But Daniel...

I don't see him like that. I don't see him as a guy but I don't see him as a girl either. I just see Daniel. I see a bunny and a cat merged into one and— damn he smells good today.

Crap. I'm going down. And I'm going down real bad.

My attraction for him transcends his sexuality. When I think of him I just see him.

Maybe sparkles was right, I am Danielsexual.

"Hey! You alright?" He snapped his fingers in front of my face. I shoved it away and growled. His presence is not helping my little problem inside my head.

In fact he's making it worse. 

A part of me just wanted to pin him in the bed and kiss his beautiful face, right here and right now...

But I'm still not sure if both of us will like that.

Ah, there goes my boner again.

A part of me is saying that I should probably tell him what's going on already but I'm scared that I might get rejected. What if the feeling is not mutual? What if I confess and he doesn't feel the same? That would ruin the friendship, big time!

That would honestly suck if that happens.

But the more I run away from this feeling, the more it haunts me and eats me up. I will surely regret it if someone like Peter gets him and I didn't even have the opportunity to confess.

But am I really sure? Maybe this is a phase?

I don't think so bud...

My train of thoughts got interrupted when he grabbed me by the chin, forcing me to look at his damn beautiful eyes.

Ah man, it didn't used to be like this. I don't use to see these little details in him. I know he's a pretty boy but I didn't really care about it before.

But now... I can totally see why other people fall for him. His eyes are insanely hazel and his lips are curved so perfectly it makes me want to...

Kiss him.

"Argh!" I growled, removing his hand away from my chin.

"Jayden!" He snapped. "What the hell is happening with you? Are you sick?" He asked, his worried eyes scanned the crevices of my face as he placed a hand on my forehead.

Yeah, I think I'm sick. I got the Daniel Disease.

It's a disease that makes you fall in love with Daniel Scott.

"Hmm... you don't have any fever. Something's clearly bothering you." He sighed as I got magnetized with his worried eyes. They looked so genuine and caring and I just want to drown in it. "Come on Jayden, talk to me. I'm your best friend."

But I can't. I can't even utter a single word in my mouth.

Stupid brain. Stupid heart.

When he realized that I'm not going to move or speak, he sat down beside me in my bed and rested his head on my arms as he read his Physics book.

Daniel and I have been friends ever since we were kids and he knew that if there is something intense bothering me, all he needs to do is wait until I subside. I'm kind of an angry kid back then, well I'm still as angry as I am now, Daniel just got better at handling it. He used to calm me down by laying his head beside me. For some reason that has always been so comforting. I never see it as homo because it's just two guys being affectionate with each other you know?

Like brothers and stuff.

But now that I see him in a different light, the way he's leaning on my shoulder definitely made me feel bubbly and shit. 

Ah fuck.

"You want some ice cream?" He asked, keeping his attention on his Physics book, highlighting words as he read.

I didn't respond, instead I just shook my head, observing his beautiful nose.

"You know," He muttered. "I told my mom last night." He chuckled to himself.

That seemed to catch me off guard and it finally distracted me from my own thoughts. "Told her what?" I said, intrigued by the news.

"You know, that I'm gay." He said, pulling back his head to face me.

"What did he say?" I asked back, looking at the ceiling, composing my thoughts.

"What's in the ceiling?"

"What?" I blinked and turned my gaze on him. "Shit, sorry. Go on."

"Well, we got into a little argument but I told her my peace and now I feel like I can actually breathe a little. With you and mom knowing it and accepting it, I feel like a huge chunk of bone has been removed from my chest." He smiled, nodding to himself.

"I'm proud of you Daniel." I look at him, commending his courage.

"What about you Jayden? You've been quiet ever since this morning and I'm not used to it. You're creeping me out." He whines, pouting his lips at me. "Are you mad at me?"

He looked so goddamn cute with his lips like that, that it actually made my cheeks heat up.

"What? No! Why would I be mad at you? Just, ignore me alright? I'm fine."

"No, you're not." He frowns, his attention shifting to me as his eyes search for any signs of emotions on my end.

"I said I'm fine!" I snapped but I didn't mean to.

My voice came in so harsh that it made Daniel wince a litte, surprised by my sudden burst of emotions that came out of nowhere. Feeling bad, I retreated and placed a hand on his shoulder. "Shit, I'm sorry." I uttered, scratching the back of my neck.

"Is it so bad that you can't even tell me what it is?" He asks.

"It's so bad that I can't even tell myself what it is." I confirmed to him. "Don't worry about it. I'll get over it."

"Was it your mom?" He asked.

"Nah, my mom's fine actually."

"Was it me?"

I froze.

"So it is me." He frowns. I knew he'd find out. Daniel is like a total psychic or something and I hate him for being a smart-ass sometimes. "Did I do something wrong? Did I offend you or anything? I'm sorry if I was a jerk." His eyebrows drop, looking guilty from the realization. He's probably overthinking dozens of scenarios in his head, knowing his anxiety.

"No, no, no, Daniel. Please don't think like that." I said, cooing him as he looked genuinely disappointed at himself. Ah shit, now I feel bad.

I sigh. "Daniel, when you said that I wasn't your type, were you really serious about that?"

Shit. Here we go.

His eyes widen as his face shows signs of confusion. "What do you mean?"

"Never mind." I brushed him off, standing up from my bed to get dressed.

I don't want to be stuck with these thoughts. I need to loosen up and find a way to tell him what I really feel.

I just hope that when that time comes, I'm not too late.

"Are we still going to Jeff's party? Or whatever the hell his name was?" I asked, looking back at him.

"Well, I'm only going if you are." He shrugs.

~

"I heard you're gay... hot." A blonde chick brushed her arm against Daniel.

I glared at the girl.

Geez. At first I thought people will start hating him because he's gay but people, especially girls, seemed to like him even more.

But I don't like this girl. She's hitting on Daniel. Can't she see that he's not interested in girls? 

That's why he's gay in the first place.

Duhh. 

"Is it really true?" Another chick appeared out of nowhere. 

"Whoa whoa whoa. Who are you now?" I asked, blocking Daniel away from them with my arms as I lost patience with these of homo lovers cooing over on poor Daniel. Leave the guy alone and give him some space, sheesh!

Coming to this stupid house party was a wrong idea after all! Daniel and I should have just spent our weekend in his house, playing video games instead of getting violated by these homo-loving girls.

The other chick gasped when she saw what I just did. "Holy cow! Are you guys dating?!" She squealed, covering her mouth from the excitement.

Daniel chuckled in return as a response.

Wait, what's that supposed to mean? Why was he chuckling? Did he not like the idea of him and I together? Was it that funny that he had to chuckle?

I frowned.

"No." Daniel snorted. "And yes, it's true, I'm gay." I rolled my eyes. Why does he have to be so nice to everyone?

"Why are you even asking those sorts of questions?!" I snap at the little girl who is now fanning herself. Weirdo.

"Nothing! It's just that I ship the two of you! I think most of the girls in our school do. I mean the possibilities are endless. Two of the most popular guys in school, dating?! I mean... how cute is that?!" She squeaked again, giggling from her imagination.

Daniel let out a small chuckle, smiling genuinely at one of his followers. "Thank you! But Jayden is straight." He said, patting me on the shoulders.

Daniel bid his farewell to the girls and walked to the other spot where he could enjoy his peace and quiet. He may not show it but I know he's starting to get irritated with people asking him again and again about his sexuality and his controversy with the team. This is the 'nth time people have approached him. Freakin' Daniel is the school celebrity so it's only normal for people to be curious about what happened.

But Daniel and I have been secretive with our real situations and we don't really let people in our circle that easy so I can feel for him if he's uncomfortable right now.

The party wasn't so bad to begin with. Jeff, being the fabulous chanteuse that he is, invited us for his big house party. I think he got stranded in some random island in Hawaii or something and this was a celebration for a second life.

At least that's what I heard from the rumours.

It was actually my idea to accept the invitation since I feel like Daniel and I had been in intense situations lately, together and separately, so I thought that it was a good idea to loosen up a bit. 

Both of us knew that we would get head to head with the varsity team but Daniel didn't want to make a big deal out of it and ignored them. And if he doesn't care, I don't care as well.

"Hey pretty boy." A blonde chick appeared out of nowhere in my line of sight, interrupting my thoughts. The girl looked pretty and she looked like the type of girl I'd go out with.

"Yeah?" I answered, smirking back at her as I sip on my own beer. I don't know how many I drank in the past hour but I didn't care as my goal for tonight was to loosen up a bit.

I need to get my head out of this Danielsexual situation.

Speaking of, I looked for Daniel but he was nowhere to be found either. I was so preoccupied with my thoughts that I didn't even notice him slipping away from my sight.

I scanned the whole room and was a bit surprised when I saw him already talking to Jeff and some boy at the very back of the room.

For some reason, this instantly made me feel mad and jealous again.

That's where he belongs. His homo friends.

Ah shit, not again.

"You look like you could use a distraction." The blonde chick purred in my neck, slithering her hand onto the middle part of my chest to the very bottom of my stomach.

A part of me wanted to walk towards Daniel and curse him out but... when I already saw him laughing and enjoying himself with the company of the other rainbow dudes, I decided to tap out.

No Jayden. Let him do his thing. Let him do what he wants.

Like he said, I'm never gonna be his type. I mean look at me? I'm twisted, confusing, and short tempered. Meanwhile the guy he was talking to seemed to make him smile genuinely. I don't think I can do something like that.

I think I'll just remain to be his best friend forever.

Well fuck. That's kind of sad... Are we going to be just like this forever?

Geez, the fact that I'm craving something more than just best friends really says a lot.

The blonde chick went back with another red cup in both of her hands.

I don't know what this is but whatever. If Daniel can mingle, I sure hell can too. I'm gonna get pumped tonight.