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[Jayden's P.O.V]     

Stupid Rafael.

Stupid Coach.

Stupid team.

"Stupid wattpad guidelines now you and Daniel have to go through this book, again."

"What?! Who said that?" I asked, confused about what I have just heard.

Anyway...

Now that everything has subsided, I just realized that I don't have a club now. I actually didn't think this through and I just let my emotions run over me like I always do. Pfsh. Now it's all biting me in the ass.

Daniel is probably going to do well, regardless if he's in the team or not because he's talented as hell and that boy has many skills that even he doesn't know. Whilst me, on the other hand, don't know a goddamn thing.

Damn... What am I good at besides basketball?

Think...

Well

I'm good at fishing.

Damn is that even a thing?

I'm pretty good at track and field but that homo-hating coach is in there and I hate him because he was bad to Daniel. Well, I guess I'm club-less now. Maybe Daniel can teach me how to do things. I think Daniel is a decent painter, maybe he can teach me.

Ugh, but painting is so boring and gay.

Well, there are plenty more fishes in the sea and there are a lot who don't have an idea what their purpose in life is. I'm one of those fishes.

Damn, I really do need to go fishing.

You know what, after all this shit is over, I'm gonna ask Daniel to go fishing with me. I know that guy loves nature as I do so I'm sure he'll be pleased with the idea.

Daniel...

Ever since he told me he was gay I've been having these weird feelings towards him. It's alarming how comfortable I am with that concept and the fact that I got over it so quick. If a dumbass like me can, how come others can't? For instance, the coach and the people in our team? Now I know, I know, I'm not the smartest tool in the toolbox but they're pretty fucking stupid for kicking Daniel out just because he's gay.

Well I have had my fair share of stupid as I forced him to watch porn in the hopes that it will turn every thing back to normal.

Eh, I regret nothing.

You know what's more alarming? Is that every time I think of Daniel going out with Peter or someone else that's a guy, it pisses the fuck out of me. It makes me want to punch a wall just by thinking about it. I hate that Daniel and that weirdo get along so well and so quick! Meanwhile, all Daniel and I ever did was to argue and throw basketballs at each other. To be honest, I wish Daniel wouldn't be so elusive towards me sometimes.

He makes this stupid face where it's all flat and emotionless whenever he's mad at me and I hate that because I don't know what he's thinking.

It's like he's not letting me inside of him.

Wait, that's kinda not right.

Sigh.

The thought of him having a new best bud someday who's someone like him, gay, and then they'll start having gays night out, shopping, talk about how hot Nick Jonas is and talk about boring arts and paintings.

Ugh.

It's so fucking boring!

Then one day, one of his friends will probably find him attractive and then will flirt with him, then stupid Daniel will be too cute and innocent to go along with it and flirt back.

For some reason, that thought didn't feel comfortable inside of my chest.

I don't like that.

Damn, I don't want to lose my friend.

The thought of him having a boyfriend and me left out hanging in the air, alone doesn't sit right with me.

Well, I should probably just get a girlfriend right? No problem...

But then, none of them can be compared to Daniel. He's just so different and unique. They're not like him with his cool and calm-

Wait a minute...

Did I just compare Daniel to other girls?

Wait...

Do I prefer Daniel more than girls?!

Hmmm... that's interesting...

And gay!

Wait, what?!

Am I gay?!!

Holy shit, no, no, no. Keep it together Jayden what the fuck?! What's wrong with you bro? You're such a disappointment! You're not gay!

Just watch porn and everything will be alright!

Yes, yes, yes. That's probably the right thing to do, goddamn I'm so smart. Ugh, my mind.

I have a mind of a mastermind.

What?

Not wasting any more time, I opened my laptop and clicked my whole stache of porn. I opened the best one I had and tried to ease myself in it for a bit. Shit, maybe Rafael was right all along though? Maybe it is a disease? I think I'm getting some Daniel Disease right now. Shit!

My mind is starting to panic and I don't know what to do so I just did what any normal guy would.

Jerk off.

Shit. Why am I not turned on by this all the sudden?! What the fuck?!

Hey dick turn on! Those are hot babes jiggling their tits for you! You ungrateful dick!

"What the hell is happening to me?" I panicked. Am I getting the Daniel Disease right now? Am I suddenly a Danielsexual or something?!

Daniel AND sex?!

Just the image of Daniel's face made my dick hard all of the sudden and turned me on.

"Ahhh shit!" I cried in horror. Did my dick just get excited from the thought of my best friend and I— dude that's sick! This can't be happening. No this ain't right. This is just a weird night. Jayden you're dreaming. You're just too tired. That's all. Just sleep it out bro. Just calm down. You're not gay.

You're not gay.

But-

No butts! I mean... buts!

Now I'm just talking to myself.

This can't be happening. I tried thinking about other guys but that just made me cringe and shudder. Fucking gross!

They're not like Daniel.

No! Stop thinking about him bro what the fuck?! He's your best friend. Don't think of him like that. He had been like your brother for almost a decade. How dare you think of him like that?

Think of him naked.

And there goes my mini-me again.

Ugh nuts! I need to sleep.

Sleep.

There's no way in hell I will be able to sleep now, especially with this horrifying thought formulating inside my brain.

Plus, I can't sleep when I force myself to, it just makes it even worse! I need help with this little problem of mine. This sudden confusion. But who can help me besides Daniel?

I can't let him help me. He's the problem!

Gotta think fast!

And then as if thunder struck me, a certain someone appeared inside my head.

Ahh shit... As much as I hate this person. I feel like I have no choice. He's the only one I know who can help me, unfortunately.

~

"Seems unusual for you to call and meet me in this place and at this time." He smirked.

That stupid smirk on his face makes me want to punch him so much. Why does he always have to look so confident and so cocky? Does he think that he knows Daniel better than I do? Well pal, think again. I know Daniel from head to toe, I've even seen his peni-

Okay I'll stop.

But I just felt the need to tell everyone that it's... impressive.

Not more impressive than I have, though.

"I have a problem." My voice croaked, out of being nervous.

"Puberty is not a problem." He giggled, sucking on his popsicle and looking at me with daring eyes. I noticed that his eyes have always been intense without trying. He just had that kind of look in his eyes that is naturally annoying that when he looks at you, it seems like he's up to something bad.

I can't trust this person.

Well, too late to realize that now Jayden huh?

"Stop doing that. It's disgusting." I grimaced. I am starting to think that I called the wrong person. I should have just called Jeff but I knew the minute I say something to him, news will spread around faster than lightning. I can't expose my uncertain feelings, especially if it has something to do with my best buddy.

"Trust me, sooner or later you'll be doing this to someone else's." He giggled.

"Okay maybe I called the wrong person. Goodbye Peter." I can't do this. Who am I kidding and what the fuck am I even thinking? He had been the main reason why I'm getting so worked up by Daniel so why did I even called him in the first place? I should have called someone else...

That is... if I have anyone. I only have Daniel.

"Dude chill, I'm just teasing you. Why are you always so worked up for no reason? And how do you expect me to eat an ice pop?" He chuckled, sinking back comfortably to his seat, as he eyed me from head to toe. "So what's your problem boy? You and Daniel crossed each other?"

I shook my head. "No, not that."

He scoffed. "Then why call me? I'm confused. It's 10 pm in the evening. Frankly, I have school tomorrow."

"I have a problem and I need your help."

"Me? Why me? What happened to Daniel?" He asked, looking concerned all of the sudden.

I rolled my eyes. "As if I'm telling you what's happening to him right now. It's none of your business."

"I'm his friend and no offense but we're seeing each other. So I think I should know. "

For some reason, there was something about the way he said it that irked me which resulted in me, slamming my fist against the table. "No! You are not seeing him." I glared at him as he smirked back at me.

"You can't tell us what to do, you're not his mom." He teased.

"No, but I still said so. You're not seeing him."

He sighed. "So why did you call?"

"This may sound stupid." I scratched the back of my head. "And Daniel had been lecturing me about this but... I think... he influenced me... in some ways or another." I said, unsure of myself if what I'm saying is actually making sense.

Sheesh! That took me a lot of energy to admit. My mind's refusing but my dick is having a mind of its own.

Just so you know, dicks don't lie.

If it erects, it neglects.

"Influenced?" He asked, confused with what I was trying to say. "What do you mean? He's your best friend, so of course you'll be influenced by him one way or another. Care to be more specific, leggohead?"

"Okay, sparkle. Call me leggohead again and I'll crush your head." I muttered, not even liking that insult one bit.

"If Daniel calls you leggohead, would you crush his skull?" He asked, obviously insinuating something.

I grimaced. "Of course not, he's different! Don't you dare level yourself to him."

"More different than any of your guy friends?"

I froze. Shit. It's a trap. This conniving son of a bitch.

I fumbled for a little while, still contemplating about where I stand in this situation. I never felt something like this before and it's so weird that I'm even at this point where I question my relationship with Daniel.

Dang it, stupid Daniel and his stupid rainbows. It's making me all confused and shit.

"Ugh. It's making me gag just by saying it." I scowled, but I continued. "I think I'm... I think I might be attached to him and not in a best friend way but in a way like how I'm supposed to crush-on-a-girl-way. D'you get me?" My words are twisted as my mouth and my brain right now.

Peter cackled in return, earning a furious glare from me. What's he laughing about?!

"Do you think this is a fucking joke sparkle? I'm having a mid-life crisis over here."

He seemed to notice my struggle and postured himself so he could compose his words. "Does he know any of this?"

"Not at all, please keep this between the both of us."

"You're not having a midlife crisis, Jayden. You're having your official second sexual awakening."

I made a look. "A what awakening?"

He sighed, massaging his forehead and throwing his popsicle away and getting serious. "A sexual awakening. It's when you realize that a certain thing or person can turn you on. In your case, it could be Daniel."

"Dude I'm not gay." I protested, raising my hands.

"I didn't say you're gay, dude." He mimicked, rolling his eyes from annoyance. "Finding Daniel attractive does not make you a homosexual."

"But the way you said it, it's like you're saying I'm homo."

"And what is so wrong about that? Anyway, it could be that you're bisexual or demisexual, I don't know. I'm not your therapist Jayden. Jesus."

"Huh?" I said, confused and stunned at the same time. "Whatever you just said, I didn't catch any of it."

"I expected that." He shrugged. "It could be that Daniel is the only guy you find attractive because of the emotional bond you guys have."

I gasped. Now it's making sense.

"So? What do you think? Am I sick or something?" I asked.

"Of course not, leggo head." He snorted. "But frankly, you are getting in our way, romantically speaking. I don't think gatekeeping Daniel from the people he should see or should not see is good for your friendship in the long run."

"I am not gatekeeping him. I just don't trust his guts with people sometimes. People have been abusing his kindness ever since."

"That, I understand. But I value what we have." Peter mutters.

I glare at him. "And also, if I am indeed attracted to him, it's the end for the both of you."

He rolled his eyes. "Not with that outfit," he snorts, "besides, it's not for you to decide. It's his. What made you even think that you're attracted to him all of the sudden?"

I sighed. "I really don't know man... Somehow it irked me when he told me that he's seeing another guy, other than myself. I didn't expect myself to be upset but I am upset and I can't lie to myself."

"But your friendship with Daniel is different compared to the ones that he's seeing."

"I know! But it still makes me upset. I hate the thought of him hanging out with other guys, on a deeper level of course. I also hate it when you make him smile-"

"Ouch." He giggled.

"And a while ago," I continued. "I tried jerking off to porn but I can't turn myself on all of the sudden, but when I think of Daniel my dick was like 'holy shit I'm long' So it bothers me so much. I don't know. I have never felt this feeling before."

He scratched his chin, examining me. "So you don't like boys but Daniel is an exception?"

"When I think of other guys, it sends shivers down my spine. It's revolting and just thinking about it makes me gag. Guys smell so bad, but Daniel...it's all roses and heaven. Is it because we've been friends for almost all our lives?!"

"How far are you willing to go with him? Romantically and sexually?" He asked.

"I don't know man... it's weird. He's my best friend after all, that's kinda fucked up."

"Without considering any judgmental thoughts in your head, stripping away his gender, and just him. Daniel alone. How do you feel about him and you?" He asked again, crossing his arms and formulating a conclusion inside his head.

I don't know. He's my best friend. Of course I like him. But how do I really feel about him? Do I like him more than that?

No.

Yes.

Maybe? Shit.

"I'm fucked up." groaned.

"Easy. Just clear your mind and focus. Stop judging yourself. Just let your mind flow and feel what you want to feel. I'm gonna ask you again... do you like Daniel more as a friend?"

"Yes." I breathed.

"Then I'll leave the rest to him. My work here is done." Peter smiled and patted me on the back. "Tell him before somebody steals his heart. I'm quite the competitor, you know." He winked.

Well... this is new. I think I'm attracted to my best friend.