Taking deep breaths in and out, it doesn't work! For years I always remind myself to take deep breaths in and out to calm myself and also to reign in my emotions. But why is it not working?!

I can't believe this is happening now. After this, I would be moving to Zach's house and God-knows what will happen from then on. I'm not ready. I'm not ready to just leave. Sure I am nothing to all of them but it's been my home. That place is where I grew up, where I learned, where I was molded to get stronger, where my memories with Nanny and Edmund are...I couldn't just leave it like that.

"You shouldn't waste your tears for people who don't deserve it" turning around, Tyler stood there in his formal suit.

"Tyler, I didn't know you're already out of the hospital" I said while wiping my tears.

He gave me a small smile "It's sooner than expected"

"Right...you're a dominant" I said as I just remembered.

"So...you're really going to be stuck with him" he states as he walks closer to me. The only man I let in my comfort zone besides the band.

"I guess" I said while scratching my wrist.

"You should tell him who I am to you" he said and that took me off guard.

"Why? Do you know how will he react? He'll kill you!" I said in terror. Zach is already in a bad blood with him and he could kill him! I won't have that.

"He deserves to know the truth." He said determinedly and I gulped. "You know what happens if a dominant intercourses with another dominant" he murmured and my eyes widen.

It is said in the history of the dominants that dominants should only have another dominant as their partner for life. But because of the power of love, one by one defied that rule and intercoursed and married ordinary people - submissives. Because of that, their offspring became weaker and weaker until the dominant genes are no more. It is said that there are still some dominants that are active and they are conserving our nature and heritage...continuing the strong bloodline. Meaning, Mr. Harrison chose me as a tribute from my father to keep the bloodline strong. And the fact that father is a money sucker, accepted it. Fucking shit! I am going to be used as a breeder!

"Are you implying what I'm thinking about?" I asked as my heart beats erratically in my chest.

He nodded solemnly. "It would be better if it would be me. At least we both know we could trust each other and we are comfortable together. It may be selfish in my part but I don't think I can entrust you to him. You've already been through enough"

I looked at the ground. Tyler's right. I don't know my role in this drama and I couldn't trust Zach also. We have settled our matters already but that doesn't mean I trust him. I may be more comfortable with him now but trust is another issue.

"You should've fought. Come with me, Alexa. I can treat you better than he can. You know that. I'm not here to taint him but you don't know him" he pleaded me and I am conflicted. Should I choose him? He is better than Zach anyway but will it benefit me?

"I don't think I can, Tyler" I said sadly. As much as I'm more comfortable with Tyler, my crazy heart is still screaming at me to give Zach a chance.

"For god's sake, Alexa! I am your first, you are my first. Do you think you will be his first?" He asked and my eyes widened. How can he put the subject into this. Loyalty and faithfulness is very important to me. Love and marriage is a very big deal and if I ever come to those terms - which is already happening - I would want that everything will be my first with my partner. But I am already tainted. I bet Zach is too. But the question is, will we be our last for each other?

"Do you think you're more deserving of her then?"