Tapping...

Tapping...

Tapping...

Poke...

Poke...

I groaned as I swat something that is poking me. Childish giggles resounded and I opened my eyes, I came face to face with my tiny demon.

"Wakey! Wakey!" Glai cheered as she jumped up and down my queen size bed.

"Glai!" I groaned as I buried my head on my comfy pillow.

"Don't you have school?" She asked me. A four year old should not be able to pronounce words that fast, I thought to myself.

"Not going" I said, hoping that she'll leave me. I still want to sleep. I couldn't get enough sleep, thanks to that jerk. He wouldn't stop bickering with me and he even slung me in his shoulder just so I can go home with him. Lucky him, I got under his skin the entire ride even when he escorted me inside the house. Imagine my parents' reaction when we got home bickering, it was priceless! But why didn't I have enough sleep? Let's just say that he refused to go out of my room til midnight and I still don't remember how he got in, in the first place. I was too busy annoying him.

"Mom's right. You are layzy" she said.

"And tell her not to show her fucking face to me because I swear I'll feed her to the sharks" I growled in anger.

Glai started sobbing and wailing. Great! Just great! She's afraid of sharks but she's not afraid of me when she has to.

Ayla, Glai's mother and my aunt came in and I growled at her. "One more kid to barge in to my room and you are all dead" I threatened them. They know how much I hate all of them. Telling false stories about me and poisoning their children's mind about me, that's why I never got close to my cousins. It'll only lead to dominating so...

*****

"Heard you threatened them this morning" Nanny commented as she sat across me while I eat my breakfast.

"That's because they never learn" I said.

"Yeah...but you still should be patient with them. You might hurt them" she said thoughtfully.

"I'm already out of it" I said while finishing my meal. Before I could take it and wash it though, Nanny already took it and washed it for me.

"Go on. I'll do it." She said and I gave her a brief hug.

Going to the living room, Jaken is there, playing with the kids. He loves kids and they warm up to him so easy. I am envious before, but now I don't feel anything. Maybe I'm finally immune?

"Alexandrielle, look." I looked at mom's chest and saw a baby she is cuddling in her arms. She has this look of adoration and pure love in her eyes. She always have that look on her when it comes to babies. Did she also looked at me like that when I was a baby too? I doubt it. How come she can love other babies but never me? What did I do?

Shaking my head, I reminded myself that I am not worth it.

"Isn't she cute? Your aunt Patty just gave birth to her four months ago. Isn't she beautiful?" She cooed with that same gleam in her eyes. My heart ached.

Looking at the baby, she has beautiful brown doe eyes and cute cheeks with adorable baby pout and eyes. Aunt Patty is not as worse as the others. She's just a simple woman who treats me like a normal niece but we are never close. Technically because I don't have to do anything with them.

"Another soon to be rascal" I murmured. I always dreaded new borns. They think they are gifts because it is new life, but that meant another additional trouble to me when they grow up.

"Hold her if you want" she said happily.

I took a step away from her, my heart aching. "No I don't want to" I said softly. Why am I feeling vulnerable suddenly?

"Oh come on, just try" she insisted.

"I really can't" I tried to pursuade her.

"Ssshhh" she said as she handed me the baby. I was so scared. I've never held babies this age before and it terrifies me. What if I drop her? What if I hurt her? She's so fragile, so cute. I'm so afraid to hold her. I want to make my hold gentler but what if I accidentally drop her? If I keep it firmer, I can hurt her! Damn it!

"You're doing a great job" mom praised me and I trembled. The front door opened and a very strong aura I know so well get himself inside. My body trembled in anxiety and a slight fear. Both caused by the baby in my arms and the guy that just entered.

Zach greeted the kids and Jaken as if they're very close and the kids warmed up to him that fast, unlike me. My heart squeezed painfully.

I feel him studying me and I don't have to be a genius to figure out what he is thinking. I know he learned how lacking I am in social skills and also with children. Such a pity in my part but I couldn't seem to care, although a part of me does.

The baby reached her hand up in the air and touched my cheek. My eyes widen as I saw things in my mind.

A few years old kid with me, sitting in a tree branch. Talking, joking, laughing...like friends. The kid has a long curvy chestnut hair and when she turned to face me, I was greeted with those same beautiful brown doe eyes.