I had been laying in bed for a few hours now, unable to sleep.

Theo wasn't leaving my thoughts, and there really was nothing more that I craved than to be with him right now. Not even sexually, just being near him was frighteningly enough.

His suggestive and teasing flirts could really make me a hot and giggly mess in the palm of his hand, even if some of them were really meant simply as jokes.

I had got no studying done tonight, but would definitely spend the whole of tomorrow with my nose buried in books.

I couldn't do this anymore. I felt hot and bothered, yet extremely frustrated with myself for even feeling like that.

I got up ran my hands through my hair, pacing around for a moment and contemplating on what I was actually about to do.

This wasn't good, I was already in way too deep.

I decided to stop caring about everything else except him and me, now in this very moment inside my home, away from the press and gossip magazines, as well as from prying eyes and drama, including my own everyday worries and hesitations.

Before leaving my bedroom, I stripped out of my flannel pyjamas and underwear until I was stark naked.

I stood in front of my mirror, the only light being the moonlight coming through my window. After deciding to leave my hair down in natural and gentle waves, I made my way quietly towards the stairs.

The only thing I had with me was a condom in its foil packet.

When I got downstairs, I found Theo fast asleep. He was on his back, head turned to one side while one leg was basically hanging off the couch. The duvet was draped over from his waist down to between his legs casually, just covering his manhood.

I felt like such a creep staring at and studying him like this, but even asleep on my couch he managed to look so incredibly manly and hot in the most crude and sinful way.

Without a second thought I walked up to him and straddled his lap, while moving the duvet back so that there wasn't anything in the way of our bare skin meeting.

He stirred, his head moving to face the other side.

My heart was beating fast. I had never done anything like this, since I usually played things relatively safe. These new and incredibly strong feelings were driving me insane.

"Theo," I whispered, leaning down to peck his lips. It took me a moment of leaving soft kisses onto his lips and neck until I had him stirring awake.

"Scarlett?" His voice sent a shiver down my spine, forcing my back to arch and my arousal to gather between my thighs. I'm sure he could feel it on his lower stomach, though.

"Is this a dream?" He cleared his throat and shifted underneath me a little, hands sliding onto my thighs.

I left one last kiss on his jaw before pulling back to give him a small smile in the dimness of my living room.

"Sorry, did I wake you?"

"Fuck, I'm glad you did," he took in my nude state, "this isn't something I want to miss, love."

There was no self-doubt or discomfort that I felt, especially with his dark eyes portraying such hunger and admiration while his tongue swiped over his lower lip discreetly.

"Is this really happening?" His eyes then met mine again, voice incredibly low to match our quiet and dark surroundings.

I couldn't help myself from just smiling, probably blushing a little as well.

"Yes," I told him, keeping our eyes locked together firmly, while with my free hand, I guided up one of his hands. I moved it along the curves of my side, until he took charge and brought it up to cup the side of my breast.

"I have a condom," I lifted up the small condom pack.

His hand retreated from me and he examined the packet closely with furrowed brows.

"This won't work, birdie," he tossed it away, a smirk growing on his lips, "it's too small..."

"Oh, Lord," for a moment I stared at him, before shaking my head with a laugh, "now I regret buying a whole pack of them."

We were both quiet after I'd said that, just gazing at each other in the dimness. I had no idea why I'd said that, since it almost sounded as if I had bought them just for sex with him; as if he was my only sexual partner.

Well, right now he was, but I didn't want him to think this was anything more than it actually was. I did know though, that I wasn't his only sexual partner; there was no way I could be.

"Give them to Tim. He looks like he could use them one day, when he feels it's time to lose his virg—"

I leaned down to press my lips against Theo's, shutting him up.

"You're horrid. One more rude thing about Tim and I'll go straight back to my bed, alright?" I murmured against his lips, nibbling gently on his lower lip for a moment.

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Theo didn't reply, and instead brought both hands to my bare sides, moving me lower on his lap until I felt his hardening member pushing up against my core.

Obliviously, while we made out, I found my hips moving so that I was basically grinding down against him, knowing he could feel exactly how aroused I was.

"Do you have a condom?" I dared to ask.

"Yeah. Back pocket of my jeans," he was still kissing me, hands squeezing my sides and holding me firmly on his lap.

"Why do you have a condom with you?" I had to pull back and ask. I didn't want to think of myself as being so easy, yet with him I was. Or what if he was planning to find a different girl?

"I always have a condom with me, Scarlett. Safety precautions," Theo shrugged calmly, reaching onto the floor to grab his jeans, "I never know with you, anyway. You keep me on my damn toes, it's very frustrating."

I gave him a small smile once he'd gotten the condom out and the jeans were back on the floor. He was then handing it to me and motioning for me to put it on him.

I moved back enough for me to be able to roll the condom on him, taking my time, the silence and lack of light in our surroundings relaxing me.

"What did I do to deserve this, huh?" He chuckled quietly to himself. My gaze raised up to meet his dark one after the condom was fully rolled onto his hard member.

"This is bad, this just complicates everything," I shook my head with a gentle smile, slowly lifting myself up, while with my left hand, I guided his tip toward my entrance.

"Why are we doing this, then?" He asked, eyes so incredibly dark and voice deep, sounding still so in control and unnerved by this situation.

"I don't know," I spoke breathlessly, sinking down onto him.

A groan left his lips once I was fully seated on him, feeling deliciously full and stretched in this position. My veins were filled with excitement, knowing he was like an addictive drug to me and I should consider this the final time; a final high. My rational mind knew that this couldn't go on.

"You're really driving me to the edge of insanity, birdie," one of his hands cupped the back of my neck almost punishingly, pulling me down to press his lips against mine.

My hands were on his chest, feeling his accelerated heartbeat which matched mine. From there, I felt his skin underneath my palms while I moved them up, soon letting my fingers tangle in his hair.

His stubble tickled my chin as our kiss deepened, turning so quickly into one of pure lust, passion and need. His rough hands were firmly on my hips, fingertips digging into my skin.

"You're the one complicating this, Scarlett. You're so bloody stubborn... just give in to me," he was murmuring, hips jerking up and causing me to gasp silently at how deep inside me I felt him.

"Fuck... Ride me baby, show me how much you need me."

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I really hope you're liking this story so far!

My sex scenes aren't usually maybe as dirty as they will be in this book, so I hope it's not too cringy. Just a warning, haha.

I wish you the best day/night, always remember how amazing you are!!!

Much love,

paula.