chapter 25

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Ian POV

I return to school to pick up Aubrey, feeling a little bit calmer than I was before. But not fucking calm enough. Only Aubrey can make me calm, and the fact that I am mad at her just makes me so fucking sad. 

FUCK! I bang my head on the steering wheel my own thoughts killing me, but I shoot back up when the horn goes off and I bang the back of my head on the seat. Jesus christ, I need to pull myself together. I scared myself with a fucking horn. I am a gangleader yet this tiny girl has me going crazy and she doesn't even know it.

People in the school carpark are looking at me after my horn incident so I just flash them my usual cold death glare as I get out of the car. That usually gets them to shut up and mind their own business. 

I put on my leather jacket and sunglasses and then lean on the car, waiting for Aubrey. I know she said that she was 'busy', but that's a fucking lie and I will intercept her as she tries to leave. 

Five minutes pass and I try search through the mass of teenagers piling out of school for my angel. She is nowhere to be seen. I decide to call her because there is no way I am fighting my way into the school against a hoard of teenagers. No answer. Great.

I wait another twenty minutes and the crowd of people leaving the school becomes few and far between. I keep calling her hopefully breaking down her stubbornness so she will just answer me. 

I walk into the school and start searching for my angel. I go to her locker and see no one there, I then go into the library. I walk leaving no part of the library unseen and I obviously look distressed with my laboured breathing as confused people look up at me. But I ignore them and focus on finding my angel.

I kept calling her on my phone but no response. Oh boy am I getting fucking pissed again. But then I can't help but worry about her. What if something happened? 

She must have left! But how the hell did I miss her? I bring my hands to my hair and start tugging on them as I grunt loudly. People look up from their desks' to stare at me, I shoot one particularly snobby looking girl and death glare and then walk out of the library.

As I am walking back down the halls to my car, I see someone familiar, someone who sits with Aubrey. 

"Hey!" I shout as I jog over to the girl, who is at her locker.

She turns around confused, and looks up and down the hall wondering if I was talking to anyone else.

"Where is Aubrey?" I ask coldly as soon as I close the distance between us.

"Wait what?" she asks shaking her head obviously confused, but I really don't have time for this. 

"Where the fuck is Aubrey?! You are friends with her right?" I say getting more agitated and bring my hands to run through my hair. 

"Yeah I am friends with her but I don't know where she is Ian" she says turning back to her locker and taking out her books.

 I grab her shoulders and turn her to face me again. "What the hell!" she says

Her phone that is sitting face up in her locker lights up with a message and we both snap our heads to look at it. It's a snapchat from Aubrey.

"Fucking open it" I say nodding my head towards her phone.

"What the hell is your problem dude" she says shrugging off my shoulders and grabbing her phone.

"Open it" I say coldly. She unlocks her phone and before she can do anything I snatch her phone from her.

"What are you-" she starts but I cut her off by waving one hand in air and saying "Shut up." whilst opening her snapchat app.

She shuts her mouth and mutters "Whatever"

I open the snapchat from Aubrey and it is a cute photo of her posing with ice cream and smiling. God just seeing her makes me almost forget that I am mad at her. I check her on snapmaps and if confirms where I thought she was.

I shut off her phone and give it back to the girl and walk off.

"A thanks would be nice!" she shouts down the hall as I leave.

I turn back and give her a forced smile and thumbs up and she just rolls her eyes. 

I quickly get into my car and leave the school. Within 10 minutes I am at 'Sinners and Saints' and I don't take anytime to think before I barge into the shop slamming the door open. 

I feel my chest rising and falling rapidly as I scan around the parlour for my angel. When I finally lay eyes on her I see her quickly look away. Got you.

 She is with fucking Riley? Great.

I make my way over to her and let my anger take over and I say coldly "You lose your phone or something Angel?"

I see her shudder, I am upset that she is scared but she needs to feel how mad I am again so she doesn't pull this shit again.

I continue staring at her and say "Oh it's right there. You just fucking stupid then? Forgot how to use it?" noticing the phone sitting on the table and take it.

I hear Riley say something but I just tune her out as my anger acts mechanism to funnel out everything but Aubrey. I take a seat next to Aubrey in the booth and feel her try to shift away from me. Even though I am mad I still crave her contact so I pull her back to me. 

"Here let me show you" I say, I hear Riley say something but again ignore her.

"You see this little red dot on the green icon, yeah that means you have messages." I say condescendingly looking between her and the screen. "Oh and would you look at that you have a fuck ton!"

"Ian please-" she says before I continue.

"So you just wanna press this and then wow! Omg would you look at that a keyboard appears so you can respond! You do know how to write don't you?" I say smirking darkly at her.

Riley tells me to go and I continue to ignore her and grab my angel's hand. "Time to go"

She tries to stop me but I pull her up, my strength nullifying any resistance on her part. 

As I am trying to leave I am blocked by the one and only fucking Riley.

"I said leave her the fuck alone" she says looking at me with her death glare. 

"Move bitch this has nothing to do with you" I say and find it hard to contain my anger anymore. 

I feel my angel struggling in my hold and hear her muttering something but I just simply press and finger to her lip.

"Did you just shush me?" she asks sounding dumbfounded, but it comes out muffled against my finger.

I look back up to Riley, drop my finger and say "Now Rail, Reed? I don't give a fuck. Just move and mind your own damn business."

My angel mutters quietly "Riley it's fine."

Riley removes her cold stare from me and it slightly softens when she looks at Aubrey and says "Are you fucking serious right now?" She scoffs. "This guy has gone all macho man and you feel safe with him? He looks like he is ready to kill-"

"Of course she is fucking safe with me!" I shout back interrupting her. That hit a nerve, I will do everything in my power to make sure she is safe. I should not have told the guards to stop watching her today, I only told them to stop because I thought I would be with her. She otherwise always has guards watching her and reporting back to me, so I know she is safe. And if I had fucking guards watching her today then I wouldn't have had to resort to fucking snapmaps.  

"Yeah well tell that to her hand that you're currently crushing"  Riley responds motioning to Aubrey and I's intertwined hands. I look down at Aubrey and regret washes over me at the prospect I could be hurting her, I loosen my grip slightly and return to looking at Riley.

"Ok well where ever Aubrey goes I go" Riley says maintain vicious eye contact  and crossing her arms over her chest. I really don't like this chick. 

"No fucking way" I scoff trying to brush past her but she dodges and goes to be back in front of me again. I growl "I'm not messing around bitch, leave"

Riley annoyingly taps her chin in mock though and says "Hmmmmm no!"

"You are incorrigible!" I say bringing my hand to pinch the bridge of my nose. 

My angel starts talking but is then cut off by Riley shushing her. "Don't you fucking sshh her!" I say getting increasingly frustrated.

I hear Aubrey try to speak but she huffs when Riley cuts her off "You fucking did it"

"Doesn't mean you can!" I exclaim clenching my jaw in anger.

"So where are we going?" Riley asks.

This chick has to be fucking kidding me. "No-" I start but am cut off when she says.

"Yes"

"NO!" I shout

"Hmmmm yes!"

"I'm not about to hit a girl" I say feeling my face grow hot with anger.

"Well that's awfully misogynistic! I bet I could beat your ass" Riley says and I scoff.

"No way" 

"Fucking bet" Riley says cracking her knuckles. 

I puff my chest and say "You want to fucking go?"

Riley bangs her chest and then spits "Hit me"

I start walking forward to her when Aubrey shouting "GUYS?!" interrupts me. I snap my head to look at her, worried that something is wrong. "Are you actually serious? You are going to have a fist fight in the ice cream parlour!" she says rolling her eyes. 

"Yeah dude you know you wouldn't be able to hold Aubrey's hand while you fight me right" Riley snickers.

"Fuck off!" I say rolling my eyes. I stare at her trying to intimidate her to back down. But she just returns my icy stare. I concede because all I want to be doing is talking to Aubrey.  "You know what I give up! Just drive behind us!" I say and then push past a smirking Riley.

Once we get out of the shop I hear Riley announce "Aubrey is riding with me"

Yeah that's not happening, so I say "Nope." and pick up Aubrey throwing her over my shoulder. 

I hear Aubrey huff and Riley scolds "Put her down"

"No" I say, the least Riley can let me do is have her in my fucking car. I gently place my angel into the car and buckle her up.

I then go to my side of the car and get it. I try to contain my anger and grip the steering wheel, hoping for it to act as some sort of stress reliever. 

Aubrey starts to speak "Look Ian-"

I interrupt her "No you fucking look" I says turning to face her and I can feel my jaw clenching. "You are in-" But I am cut off by a loud car horn.  What the fuck is it now?!

I turn to see a black car and inside is Riley waving her hands about. "Jesus fucking christ!" I say throwing his head back in exasperation. "I hate that girl" I mutter and start the car. 

"She is just trying to-" Aubrey starts to say but I cut her off.

"No" I say pulling out of the car space. 

"NO. You have to stop interrupting me I am getting real sick of it Gray!" Aubrey pipes up, her voice a lot louder than usual. But I can't help but pout that she called me Gray.

"Don't call me Gray" I say, I check in the rear vision mirror and see the devil incarnate Riley following behind. 

"What?" she asks sounding dumbfounded 

"You call me Gray when you're mad at me, I don't like it" I say, finding it hard to mask my hurt. 

"Well maybe don't be a douchebag bastard... hoe and I won't be mad at you "  she says. 

"A what?" I chuckle at how cute she is mad. She is insanely annoying but she is also so fucking cute. I turn to share this laughing moment with her but she just glares at me, ooo she is serious ok then. I gulp and refocus my attention on the road. "Why are you mad at me? I'm the one that should be mad at you!" I scoff returning to my angry mentality. 

"Are you serious? Did you get a hit to the head?" she scoffs and I turn to look at her with an angry glare. But it is much softer than the one I give others. 

"You're the one who is dating fucking Danny and leading me on!" I say getting tense and turning my gaze back to the road. 

She laughs and says "Well did you think to maybe... I don't know.... ask me?!"

Well shit. I just assumed, but. "Well I-" I start but am cut off by Aubrey,

"Oh my god!" she says rolling her eyes "Even so, what the hell gives you the right beat up Dan?"

"Are you with him?" I say glancing between her and the road needing desperately for the answer to be no. Even if it is a yes, it will be a no soon. 

"Seriously?" she asks rolling her eys.

"Seriously!!" I say growing impatient. 

"No Ian I am not and don't want to be!" she snaps back, and I instantly relax my shoulders. 

"Good. Well he seems to have thing for you" I mutter thinking of ways to get rid of him.

"Wait what? No way!" she laughs.

"Yes way!" I snap. "Those flowers, he said they were for you!"

She pauses for a moment thinking on something and then turns to me and says "Ian you said you trusted me! If I tell you that there is more to this than you think, will you just leave it please"

"I do. But Angel he-"

"No Ian please. No buts. He is not interested in me and I am not interested in him. And that's it" she says

I sigh "Ok"

She sounds shocked and says "Ok?"

"Yes Angel, I trust you" I say. Fuck it feels like a massive weight as been lifted off my shoulders. I bring my hand to rest on hers but she pulls away quickly and says.

"Ok"

"What?" I question looking at her confused. "We're ok now?" I say growing nervous again. 

"Far from it" she says and turns to look out the window. The weight that had been lifted off my shoulders returns full force and I am completely bamboozled. 

"Wait what?" I say trying not to stutter. 

"Oh well just because you're not mad at me anymore doesn't mean we are just ok Ian! You hurt my friend. You humiliated my friend! I just..." she says and trails off. 

As I stop the car outside my house I say "Angel I am so sorry. I just get fucking- I don't know. But just the thought of another guy with you makes my blood boil."

"It's not me you should be apologising to" she says and gets out of the car. 

I get out of the car and hear Riley say "God you fucking rich or something Ian!"

I mutter "Or something" and slam the car door shut. 

I walk quickly over to Aubrey and grabbing her hand. She tries to push away but I am so wound up by her being mad that I can't take a second longer without knowing how to fix so I growl. 

I tug her along not really caring where Riley goes. We enter to see Evelyn standing in the hall, she has been really excited to see Aubrey again. Something about her being good for me. 

"Oh I didn't know we would be having three for dinner! I'll go-" she says surprised. I interrupt her before Riley gets any ideas. 

"No, the other chick will be leaving soon" I snap. 

"Right ok then. Good to see you again dear" Evelyn says and runs off. 

"Why don't you go to the kitchen" I say to Riley but staring at Aubrey.

"No I think I'll stay here" Riley says walking over to Aubrey and I. Grateful I have backup I look over to my men on standby and nod to them. 

They immediately come and take away Riley. She swears and threatens but her voice soon goes away as she is taken into the kitchen. Thankful for no more Riley I pull Aubrey into the living room. 

"Angel please you need to understand-" I say putting my hand under her chin to tilt her head up. 

She puts her hands on my chest and tries to lightly push me away and shakes off my embrace. "Ian. I just really don't want to be friends with someone who bullies other people. You can't do that! You have to be nicer to people."

I scoff and stand up to my full height, she really doesn't get it. "Well we don't have to be friends"

I see her turn away and realise that didn't come out right. "No no no no" and I bring my hand under her jaw to tilt her head to look at me again. "Angel I want to be so much more."

She thinks about it and her face scrunches up before she says "Ian we can't be best friends if you are going to bully people like that. And you need to apologise to Dan."

"What? Baby are you serious?" I say throwing my head back, omg she is so dumb sometimes. "Angel no, well yes you are already my best friend but I want to-fuck." I say starting the sentence but not knowing how to finish so I end with a swearword and bring my hands to run them through my hair. 

"You want to what?!" she says shocked with wide eyes. I think back over what I said and realise. 

"Oh wait no, I was just saying that because I was um stuck for words!" I say pulling my hands out of my hair.

"Oh" she replies still looking confused.

"I mean I do want to fuck." I say before thinking, SHIT NOT HORNY BRAIN NOW.

"Ian?!" she says stunned. I am really no good at this whole explaining this. 

"No but like no! Wait fuck!...STOP!" I say getting agitated and frustrated that words are escaping me. 

I tug my hair in frustration and she says "I'm not doing anything"

I look to her and think how can I fucking get her to understand how I feel, because words seem to be fucking escaping me. "Fuck it" I mutter and then crash my lips against hers.

I wrap my hands around her to stop her from moving, one cradling her head and the other resting on her neck. She stops frozen, but I kiss her with so much passion. Passion and emotion I didn't know I possessed. Soon she gives into the kiss and that is when it feels like fireworks erupt. 

After a while my angel places her hands on my chest and starts pushing me away, soon enough I regretfully pull away. We are both panting and I breathe "Fuck" and she mutters "Shit"

She begins walking backwards and asking "What was..." trailing off. 

I sigh and then fall down onto the couch and put my head in my hands. 

"The world may laugh—may call me absurd, selfish—but it does not signify. My very soul demands you." I says looking at her and see her still frozen but her cheeks blushing. 

"Jane Eyre?"  she questions. 

I nod and then bring my head back to my hands to think how to tell her how I really feel, because I can't just use Mr Rochester's words, despite how she reacts to it I have to try and tell her in my own words. 

"Angel. I'm no fucking good at this." I say looking up from my hands while she stands there frozen.

"Angel, to cut a long story short my life has been shit so far. Full of darkness and no hope. Blah blah blah a sob story for another time" I say and then pause, I notice she walks closer. "But then I saw you, you were this light. Your smile, your laugh. Just everything about you." I say still amazed by the fact she has this impact on me and that I found someone as special as her. 

I look up at her and say "You are my angel, sent from wherever to fucking save me. And I fucking need you in my life, by my side."

She sits down next to me and says whilst grabbing my hands "Ian I don't know what to say" I bask in the warmth and comfort her hand holding brings me. Looking down at her hands gives me confidence in our connection so I say.

"Say you will be my Jane" 

Something makes me feel guilty about asking her to be my girlfriend. I don't want to drag her down to my level, but I haven't so far and she has managed to bring me to the light. Shown me what a better life can be. I am being selfish, but she is letting me. 

I am just the devil worshiping the angel that brings alien warmth to my cold heart. 

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3500 WORDS HOLY SHIT. i just thought some of you guys might want to have an ian POV on what happened in the past few chapters. sorry if it was boring to some :( 

BUT the next chapter should be out now

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