Y/n diary entry .

Dear diary ,
It's my 15th birthday today!
my parents are at work and haven't come home yet.
I can't open any of my presents intill they get here that would be rude.

4pm my parents are still not home I don't know why? They should be home by now maybe something came up?
Traffic?

8pm they still aren't home I've been sat at the table waiting for them to cut my cake and wish me a happy birthday but they haven't .

9pm- grandad is here I see him pulling up and putting away his broom.
I wonder if he's going to tell me that my parents have made me a surprise hunt or maybe a holiday??!

That's all I saw when I died in the astronomy tower.
That diary entry .
The last time I thought my parents were alive.
That was a different girl back then.
All I saw was how empty I felt when my grandad told me that my parents weren't coming home that they weren't going to wish me happy birthday ever again .
I remember screaming like my heart had just
been cut open, the pain was unbearable and in that moment I thought wow this is what it must feel like to die.

But I now know I was wrong .
I barely made a sound as I bled out on the floor .
It was peaceful.
There was no screaming or crying.
I was finally at peace .

Well that is INTILL I woke up in Riddles bed.
I was led down with new clothes on .
I look down at my stomach to see it patched up .
I didn't know where Riddle was but I wasn't about to find out .
I try and get up but the pain is too much.
But I try anyway.
"Y/n wait you shouldn't be walking yet the stitches having healed properly!" I hear Mattheo walk out of his bathroom .
He has wet hair and some shorts on.
I quickly jump against the wall with my hands out .

"Stay the FUCK away from me!" I shout scared.
I didn't want him to come any closer.
"Ok ok I won't" be steps back with his hands in the air.
My eyes were darting about the room .
I saw next to the bed clothes covered in blood and bandages.
"What happened!" My chin starts to shake as I remember the events .
"Why am I not dead" a single tear falls as I wipe it getting myself together.
"Why Didn't you LEAVE ME TO DIE" I shout angry that he helped me.

"Look" he turned and opened his draw.
"Don't open that! What are you doing!" I try to stop him .
But I see he has my wand and I back away from him yet again .
"Here have it as a sign that I won't hurt you" he rolls it along the floor .
I bend down and try to pick it up.
"Shit" I hold my gut as I feel a shouting pain though my abdomen.
I pick it up and hold it pointing it at him .
"That wasn't a clever decision was it now Riddle" I smirk as I clutch my wand tighter.

"Your only alive right now because I helped you" He says carmly as he takes his towel from his neck and throws it on the bed.
"I was only dying BECAUSE OF YOU!" I shout as I throw a spell and books start hitting him .
"Ok yeh I deserve that" he rubs his head as many books had just hit him.

"You deserve nothing! Your a horrible person you know that right! Like a terrible fucking person!" I once again throw a spell that knocks over his wardrobe which made a loud crash as it nearly landed on him .
That's what I was aiming to do , for it to land on him and crush him.
"I know and I'm sorry I didn't mean to stab you!" He holds his hands up at me trying to get me to calm down.

"Didn't mean to stab me?! Then what did you fucking intend on doing when you plunged a dagger into my stomach you Asshole!"
He backs up slightly seeing that he wasn't going to calm me down.

"Finestra!" I flick my wand and all his glass paintings shatter along with every glass object in his room .
Even his windows .
As soon as I did this a gust of wind flew into the room.
Blowing my hair back as I looked at the state of his room .
Glass everywhere , broken frames, books everywhere, his wardrobe had a cracked door and his window was fully exposed.

"I was meant to stop you I thought you would stop when u felt the dagger pressed against you! But I turned you too quickly and the dagger stabbed you!" I laugh at his dumb response.
"You used my dead mother's dagger to kill me! You dick!"
"Alarte Ascendare!" I point my wand towards his draws and all of them fly out breaking as they hit the walls .
His room was a even more of a mess clothes and broken wood all over the floor.
"I didn't want to kill you! If I wanted to kill you I would've let you die I would've killed you the first time I realised you were a threat!" He shouts finally getting my attention.

"Why am I alive then? Are you going to use me as Leveridge against Harry? Why the fuck am I here right now Riddle!" I was getting ready to cast another spell but he interrupts me.
"Because I care about you in some fucked up , weak , pathetic way I CARE about YOU!" He shouts shaking his head at his own words.
I narrow my eyes at him as he stands there with a loss of words.
"If you cared about me you wouldn't of pretended to be Fred to lure me into a trap! You wouldn't fucking stab me!!" I was still angry and I wanted him to piss off .

"I didn't mean to stab you! And it wasn't a trap I was trying to get you not to tell your fucking Gryffindor friends!" I laugh at him and he looks at me strangely.
"What's funny?"
"So the only reason you tried to fucking find me was to stop me from telling Harry , you don't care about me if you did you would've let me go! you wouldn't of stabbed me or backed me up against the railing! Mattheo Riddle you care for no one but yourself and it will always be that way because of how you've been wired!" I spit out spitfully.

He nods his head "I thought that too! Don't you think I've thought that! I've told myself that I couldn't care for anyone that I didn't have the ability! But when I sat alone after you ran off from me at the ball I felt guilty! I've never felt that ever! I hate you for it! I hate you for making me feel guilt , for making me care about you even if it's only the slightest bit! That's why your here! That's why your alive! Because even though I hate you I couldn't fucking leave you to die like some animal!" He starts to pace as his hands tug on his hair.
I'm guessing he doesn't like feeling like this..
I could tell he felt vulnerable .

"How long was I out for?" He breaks his pacing and looks at me .
"2 days I told everyone that you went home to see your grand father because he was sick" I nod at his answer.
"Why do you care about me? I tried to kill you" I ask honestly.
"I wish I knew trust me it would've been a lot easier if I just let you die" he starts to pick at his lip .
"I guess you can't be angry at me too long considering you tried to kill me first on purpose might I Add" he tells me trying to get me to be less angry with the situation.
He starts to pick up some of his stuff from the floor.
"It's different and you know it is" him trying to kill me on purpose or not was different from the time I tried to kill him.

It was before I knew him , before I actually hated him because of who he was, before I cared for him because of who he was.
"Yeah I know it is" that's all he said as he cleaned up my mess .
I wave my wand and his room starts to go back to normal.
I lay on his bed .
"Goodnight"
"Yeah" I say as I drift off.