"I'm sorry"

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I wake up to Theo gone , he had early classes .
I struggled believing that last night was real and not a dream. Seeing Theo that upset was strange and new to me.
I hear a tap on the window and it's Pansy's owl.
I quickly get up and open the window.
I can't reach out to the owl because of the protection charm on his room but the owl can come in.
The owl comes in and drops the letter.

It was from Pansy and Sylvia.
I smiled reading it , they hoped I was ok and they said that they missed me.
I wrote a letter but not to Pansy and Sylvia I wrote to Harry.

To Harry ,
I'm ok I've got something to tell you .
But you need to help me escape Mattheo's dorm .
He's put a charm on his room I can't get out and I don't have my wand.
Please write back as soon as you can.
Ps, the password is pureblood.
~Y/n Carter.

It was a short letter and straight to the point.
I hesitated letting Pansys owl take it.
I almost felt bad .
I was betraying Theo by send this letter and telling Harry but then again if I don't tell Harry he could die along with lots of other innocent people .
I had to I had to send the letter. It's what my mother would do.
I gave it to the owl and shut the window again.
Waiting .

Harry Potter POV

"Ok so here's the plan , Fred and George release stink bombs into the boys bathroom right next to flich's office! He will have to check it out and then we sneak in and look for the map" I had to listen to Rons stupid plan that wouldn't work.
"No we can't do that we need a better plan" Hermione picks at her food .
That's when a owls fly in to deliver post.

A owl I have never seen before flys and drops a letter to me .
I open it immediately.
I read it and my eyes go wide.
"What's wrong? What is it?" I hear the panic in Hermione's voice.
"Mate? What's going on?" Rons voice is also filled with anxiety.
I quickly get up without saying anything.
Both Ron and Hermione follow me.
"Harry! What's going on!" Hermione shouts as we enter moaning Myrtle's bathroom.
I shove the letter into her hands and start pacing .

"Oh my Lord Harry do you know what this means!" Hermione says also shuffling about.
"What , what's going on?" Ron snatches the letter and reads it out loud.
"Holy fuck this is bad we need to help Y/n!" Ron peered up from the letter looking at me for a plan.
"Poly juice potion take two?" Hermione suggests anxiously..
"Yeah I guess so that's the only way we are getting in without being noticed" I agreed with Hermione's plan.
"Ok I'm in" Ron says also.
"I'll make it ready for Tomorrow tonight, hopefully it will go to plan I'm much more skilled now so it should work?" Hermione sounded unsure .

"Ok let's do this , me and Ron will get the ingredients Hermione you get the cauldron" we all scatter finding everything we need.
Hermione skips her classes for the day to make it.
She's never done that before ever so it must be important to her too.
Me and Ron still went to classes so it wouldn't look suspicious that all 3 of us were off.

Time jump to tomorrow night ( the night of action"
Hermione turns into Astoria .
Me and Ron turn into Crabble and Goyle again .
"Ok let's go"
We all make our way to the slytherin common room.
"Pureblood" Ron whispers.
The door opens to reveal lots of slytherin's from all different years chilling , reading , studying and smoking.
"Where now?"
"I'm not sure to be honest"
"It must be like our common room?" Hermione suggests as she walks left toward some dorms .

"We don't know which one she's in?" I sigh as we walk past some dorms.
"Lucky for you I stole this after you guys were finishing your 5th period" Hermione holds the map up.
Me and Ron are shocked to say the least.
"Your bloody brilliant" Ron smiles at Hermione lovingly.
God he's so in love with her how does she not see it?

We follow the map to where it says Y/n is.
It leads us to the end of a Corridor where one dorm stands alone .
"You ready?" I ask Hermione and Ron they both nod.
"Astoria? Why are you here I thought you were meeting Blaise?" Theodore Nott was opening his dorm room door.
Shit!
"I cancelled" Hermione tried to pass off as Astoria .
Theodore just nods weirdly and walks into his dorm.
"Quick go" Ron whispers as I open the door.

Y/n Carter POV

I had really bad anxiety about the letter I almost wished I'd never sent it.
I've been waiting nearly two days now.
I was sat on Mattheo's bed fiddling with my hands .
He was in the shower.
It was awkward between us since he confessed why he hated Kai so much.
We've barley spoke and we live in the same dorm .
I hear the handle twist and hide under Theo's bed.
I hear footsteps and see Crabble, Goyle and Astoria .

I try keep quiet INTILL Astoria spoke "Y/n it's Hermione , Harry and Ron" she whispers.
I hesitate before getting out from the bed.
"Y/n!" Harry hugs me and I hug him back .
I wrap my arms round the back of his neck as his arms go round my waist .
The poly juice potion was wearing off and he started to look like Harry again.
That's when Mattheo came out he was wearing a white shirt with some jeans .
We all look towards him in shock.
Even though the person he hated most in this school was in his room he couldn't take his eyes off me.

He looked betrayed and I did I really did fuck him over .
But he has also fucked me over many times .
That's what I kept repeating in my head.
As I stared at the boy Ron speaks.
"We're taking Y/n!" Ron stands taller as he steps in front of me slightly.
Harry still has one arm round my waist for protection.
Mattheo's eyes wonder from my eyes to Harry's arm.
He looked so hurt and I actually felt bad .
"Go ahead see if I care" all four of us were shocked at how chill he's being.
Theo turns away and grabs his wand quickly.
"Sectumsempra" he shouts .
Ron jumps in front of Hermione and the spell hits him .
Rons wand snaps as he hits the ground.

He starts to bleed out rapidly.
I fall to my knees trying to help.
"Ron Your ok just look at me your ok" tears were streaming down my eyes as I look up at Mattheo.
"PLEASE HELP HIM" I scream at Theo .
But he does nothing .
Hermione was on the other side of Ron trying to heal him but it wasn't working.
"Expelliarmus!" Harry shouts trying to disarm Theo .
He blocks it easily "Alarte Ascendare" Harry flys and hits against the wall with force .

I realised as Ron was crying and Hermione was screaming for help no one could hear us .
I grab Harry's wand and stand in front of Riddle.
"Put it down" he warns me.
I throw a spell and we start duelling .
"Put it down or I will kill you and all your little friends!" He throws a spell that makes my legs collapse.
He stands in front of me .
Everything that was happening was happening in slow motion.
Ron coughing blood, Hermione trying to wake Harry up from being knocked out while still trying to comfort Ron.
So much noise but I heard nothing almost like when you watch those action films .

You see Someone get nearly blown up and they have this ringing in there ear .
They hear nothing but that, while chaos and devastation is happening around them.
That's what it felt like and I knew what I had to do.
As I looked up at the boy I grabbed Ron's sharp snapped wand and held it up to my throat.
"I'll kill myself" I threatened Mattheo.
But he did nothing it's like he felt nothing .
He was calling my bluff.
"Fine" I start to slice my throat.
He watches but as soon as the cut draws blood he yells at me .
"Stop!" He grabs the wood from me .
Falling on top of me in the process.

"Help him or i will kill myself I'll do it" I say as I grab his wand pointing it at my neck.
His eyes widen like he's thinking of a solution .
"Avada-" I began.
"Ok fine" he's breathing was heavy.
As he grabs the wand from me pushing me away from him.
He pushes Hermione from Ron who was nearly dead "Vulnera Sanentur" he said this serval times before Ron was fully healed.
Hermione hugs Ron .
She helps him up and she grabs Harry .
Trying to stand him up.
Ron helps hold Harry as they all stand there in front of the dorm door.
Staring at me not knowing what to do.
"Go it's ok just go" I nod at them as tears stream down my face.

My legs were still not working from what ever charm he put on them.
"No we can't leave you-"
"Yes you can Ron go"
"But-"
"GO!" I shout and they leave quickly shutting the door behind them.
Now I was left with him .
God help me.
"You fucking traitorous Bitch!" he grabs me up from the floor by under my arms .
"I'm sorry please I'm sorry" I scream defenceless and vulnerable.
My neck was still bleeding from where I'd cut it.
"You're sorry? YOU'RE SORRY?!" I could see him getting angrier by the second.

"You fucking held me while I cried to you about my father! And then you screw me over!" He drops my arms and I collapse yet again.
Hitting the floor hard.
"You can tell who your mother is" he spits.
I was confused at the comment.
My brows frown .
He starts laughing hysterically.
"Oh you don't know" he squats down so we are eye level.
"My father you hate so much for killing your family , for killing Mudbloods and half bloods , for torturing innocent people , for ripping people's families apart that person you hate so much! Your mother fought for" he starts to laugh at my confused expression.

"The truth is those very death eaters you hate were just like your mother, she was one of us she was a death eater she killed her own kind for my father! She is just as ugly inside and out as my father, if not she's worst pretending to be someone she's not!" His hand tilts my chin up .
"That's not true my mother isn't, wasn't! a death eater-" I insist.

"Oh but she was, she was his right hand woman his most loyal death eater she ripped more families apart then Bellatrix you know Tabitha's mother you hate so much" I smack his hand away from my chin .
"She couldn't be-" tears start to Pour out of my eyes .
The realisation has hit and I knew that it made sense why else would The dark lord kill her and my father?

"But she waS part of The army against your dad! She couldn't of been-" my voice cracked as I saw his evil smirk grow wider .
"She only stopped being a death eater when you were born but that doesn't change the fact she was still one of us and killed for the man you hate! She even tried to kill me when I was young! that's why mummy dearest is dead because she like you are traitorous sneaky bitches"

I could tell he was telling the truth.
I didn't know how I knew but I just did.
My hand covers my mouth as I sob into it.
The look of disgust and betrayal was also in my eyes.
Not just Mattheo's.
"You knew this whole time and said nothing you asshole" I shout at him .
He laughs at me .
"I didn't tell you because I was waiting for the right moment to tell little miss perfect that her parents are just as flawed and evil as mine"
I could start to feel my legs again and I sit up holding my legs as I cry into my knees .

I wasn't angry I was just devastated.
I was lied to  my whole life.
I went to my parents funeral.
Everyone said "your parents are hero's"
They said how "lucky I was to have such brave and genuine parents that loved me"
It was all a lie .
My mother broke families apart like how Voldemort broke mine .
The best part of my life was false and no told me not even them.
They were liars they weren't who I thought they were.
I never knew who my parents were and I never will.
I stand up walking past Mattheo and going to the bathroom .
I looked at myself in the mirror , I didn't know who I was and that was hard enough.
The only thing that got me though it was my "be like your mother and father mind set, make them proud"
And now I don't even have that.

I wasn't sad now I was angry , my emotions were like a rollercoaster that couldn't be stopped.
I looked at myself in the mirror and saw my mother .
Her fake smile making me gag .
I punched the mirror again and again intill Theo came in and grabbed me pulling me away from the mirror.
"What the fuck are you doing!" He Looks at the mirror and then at my hand.
"Get the fuck off me" I get out of his grasp .
Walking back into his room.

I start to smash up his room , he just stands there and watches me in shock.
"Fuck you" I shout at I throw a glass photo frame toward the wall.
"I fucking hate you" I start to push his books of his shelf.
As I stop in the middle of his room we stare at each other .
He comes racing towards me he grabs my face and our lips meet.
Blood dripping down from my knuckles staining his shirt.
He picks me up quickly, I wrap my legs around his waist as we make our way to his bed .
Not once breaking the kiss.

"You make me so fucking frustrated" he confesses as he rips open my shirt .
Exposing my bare tits.
"I don't know if I hate you or want to fuck you" his head dips down as he sucks on my nipple.
Never breaking eye contact.
My hands scrunch up the bed sheets as he sucks harder on my nipples.
"Fuck me like you hate me" I moan out .
He stops sucking my breasts and looks at me with a smirk "don't worry I will" .
With that he grabs my neck making me sit up so he can pull down my shorts.

He pushes me back so I'm led flat on his bed again .
Practically fully exposed except for my black lace panties.
He takes off his shirt "you know how bad I've wanted to shut you up and fuck you so hard that you finally have nothing to say" his head dips down to my waist line.
He takes my panties into his mouth and starts to pull them down with his teeth.
I watch In shock as I feel his breath near my core.
He pulled my panties down to my ankles then pulls them off with his hand.

He starts undoing his belt as I watch .
When he is finally in just his boxers he once again is above me.
In between my legs he spreads them wider as I whimper as the feel of his boxers against me.
My hips buck forward slightly.
He grabs them stopping my hips from moving .
"You want me to fuck you like I hate you that's what your going to get"
With a flick of his wand my hands are being tied to the head board.
I yelp in response not expecting it.
I look up towards the ropes that tie my hands that's when he shoves himself fully inside me.

I scream as my hands try getting free.
My breathing was heavy as I look at him .
He doesn't give me time to adjust he just fully pounds inside me with full force .
"I hate you" I moan out as he hits my g spot .
"You hate me? Then why is your pretty pussy so wet?"
His hand grabs my throat as he goes harder and harder.
"Slow down" I beg , this only made him go faster.
I knew our safe word .red. But deep down even though it hurt I didn't want it to stop.
It wasn't all pain it was pleasure as well I loved it.
"God you make me so fucking angry" the head broad starts to rattle against the wall.

He thrusts up wards and deep as he rubs my clit with his free hand.
"Mattheo" I moaned his full name as I start to feel a knot in my stomach.
"You hate me? Then why is my name coming out of your mouth you little slut"
The ropes leaving marks around my wrists as they tighten every time I struggle against them.
Both his hands are now on my hips as he moves his hands up my hips to my breasts pinching my nipple .
"Fuck" he growls as my eyes roll back.
My back arched towards him .
I cum all over his dick.
"Riddle..."
He keeps going thrusting hard into my now sensitive core.
A few last hard thrusts and he pulls out cumming on my stomach.
He breathes roughly as his head falls onto mine.

He unties my hands and they fall beside me as I try to catch my breath.
He picked up my ripped shirt and wipes me down cleaning me.
The shirt was broken anyway so he tosses it.
We lay there in slience not really believing what just happened.
I turn and get under the covers .
I fall asleep soon after with him next to me.

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