19. Realization

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~Third Person's POV

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As a bright warming light entered and quarreled with the darkness of his smoky, quiet and haunted room, he rubbed his puffy eyes with his weak knuckles, trying hard to come back into consciousness.

It had been eight days since he had locked himself up in his room.

His only diet these days included alcohol and water! He had stopped eating everything as it used to cause adverse effects on his stomach and whole body, leading him to vomit continuously. It felt as if whatever he tried to eat was busy cursing him for his highly unfortunate fate.

The after effects of alcohol from last night were still present in his body as his head spun wildly when he tried to drag himself towards the bathroom, only to fall down on the sofa again. His body was getting weaker by every passing second as if all of his energy and nutrients were being slowly drained out.

He was getting skinny day by day.

And Oh!

What about that never ending glamour and magnificence of his charming existence?

Yes! It was also fading away.

He was becoming bloodless, lifeless and completely languid as if he was nothing but just a a rotten corpse!

After taking a long hot shower, as he decided to come out of his chamber to which he had restricted himself since 8 days, he stopped by the full length mirror who was apparently making fun of his disheveled state.

All he could see in the mirror was a zombie!

He wasn't the same Shahveer Ali Khan anymore!

Huge dark circles surrounded his red swollen eyes as if he was a panda! He brushed his fingers across his face as he realized how fast he was shedding pounds only to become skinny day by day. Those good looks for which every hottest girl in Manchester was ready to die, were silently betraying their owner. His charm, his handsomeness, his flawlessness and his killing and dashing features were slowly and gradually leaving him alone!

"What have you done to me Hooriyah?"

He whispered to himself as he looked at his reflection with disappointment and pain.

"Would you ever feel happy if you watch me in this state?"

He continued to mumble under his own breath.

"I wish you were here, in front of me! Then you would have known how beautifully your Allah has done justice with the tears which I had given to you !"

A warm lonely tear cascaded down his cheeks from one of his puffy eyes.

"I wish you were here to see how pathetically your beloved is being destroyed by your nightmares, your voices and your memories!"

He cried and continued to complain as if she was listening!

"I know you are listening! You are haunting me! Destroying me! Cursing me! Annoying me! You are casting a spell upon me! A spell of something which I am hating! You are making me crazy! Driving my heart insane! I wish you were here to see my state Hooriyah! I wish you were here!"

He cried innocently as her beautiful melodious voices started to ring in his head again!

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~Shahveer

All of my imaginations were abruptly interrupted by a deafening ring on my phone due to which I finally came out of my trance in which I was lost few minutes ago.

Not surprisingly, it was Soniya!

She had been calling me since three days but I hadn't answered her for once. It wasn't that I was mad on her. It's just that I had started feeling annoyed due to her super clingy and over possessive nature. I had slowly and gradually started to realize that the feelings I had for her, were not the feelings of love. Perhaps, I was just passing my time with her.

I never loved her! I only liked her and there is a huge difference between loving and liking someone.

And that likeness was also fading day by day.

I was loosing interest in her.

Because I had started gaining interest in someone else!

I admit that Soniya cared for me, but only when there was a purpose or a need. I had never felt for her the way I had started feeling for someone else. Someone who had unintentionally and unexpectedly started to build lots of chaos and desperation in my already dead heart.

Finally deciding to give her one last chance, I picked up her call only to be stormed with a bunch of questions.

"Shahveer! So finally you had decided to pick up my call! Where the hell have you been since eight days? What the hell has happened to you? Why are you pretending like I don't even exist?" She complained.

"Listen to me Soniya....I was just___"

"I'm not gonna listen to you at all! Just come downstairs, we will be there at your porch after five minutes!" She interrupted.

"What do you mean by ....we?" I asked.

"I mean that our whole gang! Melissa, James, Carlos, Priya etc etc! We have planned a picnic and are leaving for London today, by road, and you have to come with us at any cost or else I will smash your face with a hammer! Do you understand?"

She chuckled as she announced the plan to which I groaned with annoyance.

"Uh...Soniya, I think you guys should go alone, I'm not feeling well!" I made a lame excuse.

"Listen to me Shahveer! We are doing this for you! It's your 26th Birthday tomorrow! And we want to make it special for you! We will party hard, dance like a psychopath and have lots and lots of fun! Will you break our heart like this Shavi?"

I could feel her pouting on the other end.

I had totally forgotten that I was turning 26 tomorrow.

Wow!

Did I actually forget the day which I used to enjoy like hell?

My birthday ?

How's this even possible?

"I'm coming downstairs in two minutes!"

Don't know why, but I finally blurted it out.

Maybe because I didn't want to argue anymore. Or maybe because I didn't want to ruin my birthday by having horrible hallucinations!

"Yeeeeeaaaaaap!!! Thanks a ton Majesty! For taking out some precious time from your life, for us!" She giggled.

"I'll pack for the trip, now! Bye, see ya later!" I smiled and ended the call.

Maybe a road trip with friends would do wonders!

Or at least I will get rid of those nightmares for some days!

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As the car sped off across the smoothly paved and glossy roads of London, my friends continued to sing some awful songs at the top of their lungs while I stared at the beautiful city with my gloomy eyes.

Within few hours, we had finally reached at our destination where we had to stay for two nights. It was an elegant and luxurious resort where we were supposed to celebrate my birthday party.

As the darkness slowly started to envelope the magnificent city of London, my friends started searching for some coolest nightclubs in the town. But being the most restless out of all, I wasn't excited at all!

I was frustrated, exasperated and annoyed!

ALL I WANTED WAS SOME PEACE!

I didn't feel like partying tonight. Something was burning inside!
There was a storm!

A tornado!
And a volcanic eruption!
Everything was happening simultaneously!

This feeling of exasperation was about to take my life any second.

My friends had planned a grand party for me and instead of being grateful to them, I was throwing tantrums like a spoiled kid. The parties which were just like heaven for me, seemed to be boring and meaningless now!

"Come on you can't be serious Shahveer! Just come with me, the place which I had just discovered, is mind blowing! You will get crazy as hell once you pay a visit there!" Soniya pulled my arm as she tried to convince me for the umpteenth time.

"I'm fine here, why don't you guys go and enjoy by yourself?" I excused once again.

"You wanna feel better? Do you?" She asked with a serious tone.

"I want to!" I whispered as I nodded.

"Then don't waste my time and get up, I'm gonna take you to one of the best clubs in this world and I bet you, you are going to forget each and every shit which is frustrating your mind!" She pulled me more harshly this time due to which I had to give up and follow her towards the nightclub which was thankfully not that far from the resort.

As soon as we reached at our destination, a storm of dancing flamboyant lights welcomed me as a cool refreshing breeze filled with alcoholic aroma brushed through my face.

Inside the club, it was like dancing on the Northern Lights; beneath the dry-ice smoke swirled an array of blues, acid greens, hot pinks and gold. The music played over the dance floor as if it had fused with the bodies.

"You're gonna love this!" Soniya whispered in my ears and pulled me towards the stage where everyone was busy dancing on the Hollywood beats like a pro, not caring about their lives, as if it was their last day on Earth.

All sorts of whiskey, champagne, beers, vodkas, tequila, brandy and wines were decorated on the nearby counter where a young bartender was swiftly working and arranging uncountable glasses and bottles for the visitors.

The music was loud!

Deafening!

And the beats were high!

The DJ changed the songs professionally as he mixed several beats simultaneously.

It was no doubt, the best club in town!

An energetic layer of ecstasy ran down my spine as I watched the highly vigorous crowd dance crazily on the excellent beats of my favorite types of music. I immediately picked up a bottle of vodka from the counter and gulped it down my throat in the same usual manner and waited for few seconds to embrace the after effects of the alcohol, which luckily, started to appear sooner than my expectations. As I began to fall in the pool of euphoria, I started forgetting my frustration, depression and those painful wounds, and it actually seemed as if they were miraculously healing. This overwhelming feeling of intoxication, ecstasy and pure bliss was magically helping me in feeling the happiest person alive. Maybe it was the best vodka in town! 

Tonight was going to be epic!

I knew that!

Without wasting any more time, I unbuttoned my jet black leather jacket, rolled up the sleeves of my white shirt and threw the jacket towards some gorgeous ladies, who were continuously whispering in awe while looking at me and drooling over my highly mesmerizing looks, to which they shouted with elation and enthusiasm.

I smiled devilishly and winked at them due to which they nearly fainted. As the energetic vibes danced across my soul, I enthusiastically followed my gang towards the dance floor where they were busy in hooting, laughing and dancing like a pro!

Soniya immediately cheered up as she saw me coming towards her and we began to dance like some crazy fellows. The night was young and so were my feelings. By that time, I had completely forgot what I was going through since five months as being completely lost in the hurricane of tranquility, exhilaration and euphoria was enough for me to never look back at my past. I was feeling thrilled, overjoyed and most importantly, relaxed. And that was the most beautiful feeling in the world.

My best friends were with me, Soniya was with me and this club seemed to be a heaven to me!

What else could I ask for?

I was dying with anxiety, but tonight, I watched all of my stress magically fade away!

I danced and sang along the beautiful beats of some Bollywood songs, forgetting about the rest of the world as Soniya chirped happily.

" Oh Shavi! I was dying to see you like this since months!" She cried with joy as she wrapped her arms around my neck.

"I'm sorry for treating you like an idiot since few days!" I apologized.

"It's okay dear, I know you have been going through a lot! But just know one thing, I'll be always there by your side darling!" She smiled shyly.

"Then lets marry next month?"

I smiled, not knowing the meaning of the words which were unintentionally escaping out of my mouth. A strange feeling kicked inside my heart as I tried to stop myself from uttering something else!

It felt as if someone was casting a spell over me, making me utter the words which I didn't want to.

"Really?" She chirped happily.

"Yes! The sooner, the better!" I looked at her twinkling eyes with a great intensity, trying to figure out what the hell I was saying.

"I don't believe this Shavi! Of course! It would be the best moment of my life!" She giggled and hugged me with joy.

We danced along the beats as we enjoyed the rhythms of this ecstatic atmosphere with full enthusiasm. The urge to embrace this feeling started to get intenser as I craved for some more vodka, in order to completely lose my sanity to its extra wonderful after effects. I was just loving this euphoric state of mine! I wanted to stay like this forever! Happy, carefree and relaxed!

I excused my friends for a while and left for the

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