The journey wasn't long at all, I knew my parents would be worried about me so as I started to exit the airport I switched on my phone but the battery was just 2% so I simply called a taxi and told him my hotel's address.

After a quite long and a beautiful journey to the hotel that I had reserved, I finally went in after the talk with the man in the reception. It was still dark outside and my head and eyes had started to hurt really bad due to the continuous cries and thinking; I couldn't take my mind away from Jungkook, I really loved him but I never expected this at all. I put my phone to charge and plopped myself on the bed.

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I woke up due to the continuous phone calls from god knows who. Completely annoyed by whosoever the person was I answered the call even without checking who was calling,

"Yeoboseyo? Thank god you answered."

My heart sank as the voice of the man who was the reason for the pain in my heart spoke.

"Babe... are you fine? Please talk to me Y/n"

Babe? He isn't mad at me? May be because he thinks that I ran away because of him?

"Jungkook?"

"Baby... I-"

"I'm fine, I just need some 'me' time Jungkook. I was gonna call my parents but my battery died so I didn't bother. Please tell my parents that I am fine and not to send anybody to find me." Tears kept flowing even though I tried really hard not to.

"But Y/N-"

"N-no Jungkook, I'll be fine. I'm n-not gonna do something stupid I promise." I sniffled as my nose became runny.

"Please don't cry babe. I'm really sorry, but I really didn't get any of your texts."

What? Does he think of me as stupid?

"I gotta go though, I have plans. Bye." I hung up the call without waiting for his reply.

I ran into the shower and cried my heart out.

"What did you do to me Kook? Why do you have to lie?" I cried until my glands shrank and my eyes started hurting. I got out of the shower and got ready since today I was gonna go for the long waited event, deep sea diving. I wore a blue bathing suit and put a denim shorts and a white see through long sleeved crop top and headed out for breakfast. As I passed the reception I saw two men looking at me the whole time I talked with the reception workers. I simply ignored them and walked out and smelled the fresh salty smell of the sea.

I walked for a while on the sand and took some pictures, the view really was something I will never be able to express. I felt as if the waves were calling out for me. Even though it was the start of winter the mornings were really warm. There weren't much people at all. I looked around and suddenly my eyes caught the same two men sitting far away.

"Are they following me? No Y/n, you are just over reacting." I said to myself and since I had completely lost my appetite I sat there on the sand and uploaded a picture on my rusting instagram; I last used it when I and Mingyu went out on a date the day before me coming back to Korea. I set the timer and placed it on the bench and clicked a pic, trying hard to fake a smile.

I was happy with the picture so I uploaded it with a caption saying, "When you've been strong for so long, sometimes you just need some time to be alone and let your tears out."

I disabled the comments and posted it, I kept my phone in my back pocket and walked to the place where the instructor had announced in the chat.

I reached the place and payed for it and we left the shore on the boat, and soon we stopped in the middle of the sea and everything was blue as far as the eye could see.

There was another woman who was an American, and a photographer and the instructor who were going to dive with me. We all suited up and one by one dived into the cold, beautiful and calming atmosphere. My mind automatically calmed down, which was still hung up with Jungkook's words until I dived in.

We all swam deeper and deeper, interacting with the tiny creatures taking pictures and enjoying the calmest place to the fullest.

After taking a few pictures I parted ways from the others and swam into my own world. Every time I've taken dives, I've never felt as if I were going in, instead I felt as if the water itself called me in and embraced me in it. This is the place where you get to live each of your breathe, you get to know how important it is to live each of your lives; all you gotta do is breathe and have hope that whatever it is you are going to make it. You're conscious of your each breath, every moment. Being fully alive to each and every moment

The moment flows by like molten sapphires, deep blue silences, no earth below and no sky above me. Just the waters, telling that its just me here, only me,only my breathe and my heartbeats. Such depth, such solitude and me; only me.

Makes me believe I exist.

I came back up to the surface again and swam back to the boat. This was the longest time I've ever been inside, this time was different, this time I saw more of the life inside the water. I sun ready to come down and kiss the surface of the water.

I took off my goggles and the oxygen cylinder and sat by the edge of the boat, looking at the sky and tears formed in my eyes; I didn't even know why. I was never gonna forget this day.

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