I was 13 when I had my first kiss. His name was Diego Valentine and in the halls of Junior High he was the guy that everyone seem to want. With a bad boy reputation, notorious for raising hell in the class room and drawing dicks on the desk. Diego Valentine was the guy everyone wanted to know. He use to brag about his mother being a aerospace engineer, which is awesome by the way, While most rich kids bragged about private jets. Diego bragged about the rocket he "owned" and said if the apocalypse ever came he would survive in space. I couldn't resist a bad boy, especially one who claimed to own a rocket and with most of the girls my age already having their first boyfriend I felt behind.So, when it was time to play 7 minutes in Heaven at Nani's 14th birthday. I didn't hesitate to let Diego Valentine kiss me in Nani's broom closest. It was 7 minutes in hell. The longest 7 minutes of my life.

With Diego's tongue down my throat, he tasted like a vape and bad discussions. Even offered to show me his other rocket. I declined his offered, And sprinted out of the closet  and washed my mouth out with soap while Nani praised me for having my first kiss.

It was fucking awful.

And than high school started.

I dated Fin, and my impression of kissing still stayed the same.

Awful.

I never enjoyed, and avoided it at all cost. I felt as though every high school romance movie had failed me and gave me false hope of kissing. There was no sparks, fireworks, or anything remotely similar. Just wet nasty ass kisses.

Not until Jasper.

It was like a dream.

" Jasper." I let out breathy moan

My mind reliving the first kiss Jasper and I shared. My hands clenched onto his dark hair as the kiss deepen.

His kiss were like...
Like fucking magic.

I saw the heavens, and stars, and felt the ground shake beneath me, but at the same time it was like the world stood still. I saw colors, and heard my heart nearly burst out of my chest, my blood pumping through my body.His lips, well his lips where fucking enchanting. And addicting, it was the kind of kiss that the Girls in the movies described.

He pulled away both of us panting for air after such an intense kiss. His beautiful eyes look at me and the corner of his lips turn forming a smile. The part as he began to speak.

" Bark!"

Did he just fucking Bark?

"Bark!

I shift in discomfort as I feel a wet substance against my face. Am I drooling? " Bark!" My eyes opened wide awaken by the sound that wasn't coming from my dream.

What the hell?

I blink letting my eyes  adjust the furry figure in front of me finally becoming clear. The wet feeling hitting me face once again.

A damn dog.

" Ahhh!" I loud scream escaped my mouth as I jumped up and moved to the corner of the bed in fear. The big ass dog looking at with its big brown eyes and tongue handing out his mouth showcases its canines. Terror racing up my body. The dog looked at me with confusion and turned away from the bed, his wet nose sniffing at Pastel pink pumps.

" No! No bad dog!" I exclaimed trying to govern from the bed.  The dog ignored me and laid down chewing on the heel.

" I love those shoes." I pouted still not having the courage to take the shoe away.

You've got this Kinsley.

I slowly place my foot down in the carpet the dog to busy chewing away to notice. Moving carefully I get off the bed and move closer to the dog. A low growl leaving his mouth causing my throat to go dry.

I didn't grow up with a "family dog" or any pet for that matter. Dad said they where high maintenance and frankly I was terrified of dogs. Not just because of there big teeth and claws, but because what they could do to my shoes. I cringed as I watched the big ass werewolf leave teeth indents on my pumps.

With a swift motion, I snatch the shoe which seem to piss the dog off. He growled lowly and had danger in his eyes.

" Fuck." I cursed and sprinted out of the room. The dog got on my tail braking loudly.

I figured that with 40% of the house deaf, it made since how Jasper and Jack didn't come to my rescue, but Jasmine and Diane I wasn't sure where the hell they where. Maybe they where just heavy sleepers. My feet moved fast as if I was on hot coal as I ran down the stairs.

" Fuck.Fuck.Fuck." I cursed quickly under my breath. Reaching the bottom of the stairs and into the kitchen. Just as I did both Diane and Jasper entered through the back door holding a bucket of produce from her vegetables garden.

Both of their eyes went wide as they saw my panic state.

" Morning." I greeted with heavily breath struggling for air.

There eyes traveled down to my exposed legs.

Another Fuck.

I looked down realizes that my habit of sleeping without bottoms should of been something I changed as soon as I got here. Dropping my slobbered covered heel I grabbed the hem of shirt tugging it down.

Jasper face heated up nearly as much as mine. His eyes coming back up to my face not daring to look at anything else out of respect.

Like a bat out of hell. The dog came into the kitchen and leaped on me tackling me to the ground.

" Ahhh!" I scream again. The large dog licking my face and sniffing searching for my pastel pump. I won't lie the dog has good taste, and even I would tackle someone down for a  limited addition pair of pink pumps by Jimmy Choo. But this was just traumatizing.

" Come here Bear." Jasper kneeled down and called the dog to him. Bear's ears raised in attention and abandoned me and my shoe running over to Jasper cheerily playing as Jasper rubbed its belly.

" Bear." I panted for air " How fitting."

Diane came to my side giving my a helping hand as I got up.
" Sorry about that Ken- Kinsley." She said correcting herself " Bear is use to sleeping in Jack's room. He was locked in his crate last night. I don't know how he could have got out."

" Morning." Jack entered cheerfully

" Where have you been? Kinsley has been screaming her head off." Diane stated.

" Ahh the wonders of being deaf." She gleamed pulling down a bowl of cereal. " Well now that you mention it, once I put my aid on. I did hear the most annoying sound made me regret even putting it on." She shrugged

" Jack this isn't funny." Jasper scowled his little sister.

Jack presses the bottom at the back of her aid causing a red light to come on meaning she had cut it off. " What's that's I can't hear you!" She spoked loudly and smiled grabbing her bowl of cereal and leaving.

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                  I stayed in the bathroom using every face masked and creams that I had packed wanting to rid my face of Bears slobber. So, far I wasn't making the best impression and Jack and Jasmine seem to hate me. Diane, well I don't really know what she thinks me I just know they by the look on her face she's always tempted to say something but bites her tongue , but instead smiles and just shows hospitality not wanting to be "rude."

A soft knock catches me attention. I open the bathroom door, and Jasper stands against the door frame. His eyes widening as they catch sight of my face mask.

" Shit." I cursed turning away.

Jasper chuckled. " I can't talk to you if you're not facing me."

I exhaled deeply understanding how true his statement was.
I turn around and face him, the corner of her mouth quirked up threaten to laugh. Until finally he did, no longer being able to hold in his laugh.

" Jackass." I said and covered my face in embarrassment.

" I'm." He said in between his laughter stepping closer to me. His hands grabbing my wrist he lowering them.
" Sorry." He laughed until faded. " I just... it's weird seeing you like this."

His eyes scanned over my face fixed on my face, Insecurities swept over me as his eyes studied ever thing about me. But he looked at me in way no one ever did.

" Like what?"

" You always look so perfect." He revealed.  " Even when you don't try. But it's just.." He trails searching for the word.
" Different seeing the process of perfection. You know?"

" Not at all." I replied just to mess with him

" It's just nice seeing you not so put together like you always are.  I mean you're always beautiful, but.." I smiled watching him rambled. My fingers trail on his chest as.

He nervously laughed.

" Jasper." I spoke lightly looking at him wishful eyes.

" Yes." He replied

" Kiss me."

And with no hesitation, no second though Jasper blessed me with his lips and crashed them against mine. He pulled me close hungrily as if he had craved this kiss just as much as I did. His lips where soft yet, passionate no mercy as he devoured.

Hot damn.

With lips still on my mine, he used his foot to close the door behind him. We where chest to chest in never ending kiss he smelt like mint and tasted just a sweet. Everything about him and his touch was enough to melt me. It a kiss that he dominated a kiss where Jasper Ralston was in control me, and I didn't mind one bit.

Bang Bang!

I jump started at the sound of someone banging on the bathroom door.

" Hurry up I gotta brush my teeth!" Jasmine exclaimed

Jasper looked at me quizzical expression, not sure as to why I broke from the kiss.

" Jasmine." I mouthed.

"Shit." He cursed and quickly straighten out his attire.

I smirked " Wait." I wiped the face cleanser that had got on his face from kissing me.

" Now go."

" Thanks, whenever you're done. I was thinking we could head into town. Grams wants me to run a few errands."

I nod still flushed from the kiss.

" Cool."

Jasper open the door and walked out of the bathroom  earning an look from Jasmine.

" I was just helping Kinsley with the shower." He lied, glancing back at me one more time.

Jasmine looked at me face in terror and screamed.

" NANA!!!!!"  And sprinted down the stairs.

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             I didn't do my own grocery shopping. Hazel would do most of it, and even then it she was very light with it some potato chips and Package salad. We weren't the cooking type we at out, or ordered food. We didn't do family dinners, but Dad wouldn't hesitate to drag me to someone else's. My cooked, sometimes it wasn't an everyday thing because she too was a hard worker spending her days being a Corporate attorney for Dad's franchises.

The Pines just weren't the cooking type.

But the Ralston's where.

" Am I heavy?" I asked as I sat my nearly adult ass in the grocery basket. 

" Not really."

I leaned back in the basket and looked at his gorgeous face. How the bright fluorescent's light showered over him as if he was a glorious angel. I certainly was with the hottest guy in the store, probably even the hottest guy in towns

" If it gets to heavy let me know." I told while my eyes scanned over the lengthy list Diane had gave me.

Fresh air was what I needed, gave me a break from Jack's scheming. I didn't know how to deal with kids, or what to say. I mean yeah I saw a few younger girls at the studio, who where around Jack's age but we all had a common denominator.

Dance.

Helping them was easy because we had the same interest. Jack and I are... completely different. And Jasmine well she's younger and every-time I talk to her I end up accidentally scarring her for life.

I frowned as Jasper throws  carrots in the basket.

" Looks like I'm the only snack in this basket." I joked

Jasper raised an eyebrow not impressed with my pun.

" Well you are a pretty penne." He replied grabbing a box of Penne Noodles.

I looked at him blankly before saying " Booo."

Jasper tossed the the box at me, but I instantly caught it. M eyes going wide as I saw a pack of oreo cookies. I reached out of the basket and grab them Jasper giving me a disapproving look.

I flutter my eyelashes " Pretty Peas."

Jasper chuckled.  " Does anyone ever say no to you?"

" No." I playfully grinned.

As I rode in the basket the music in store had changed from some old Taylor Swift song. To "Hey There Delilah" by the Plain White T's. The name instantly reminding me of what Jack had said to me " He had enough of that last summer with Delilah."

Delilah.

I wasn't sure how to ask, subtle maybe? Let it ease its way into conversation-

" Who's Delilah?" I blurted out taking him off guard.

I wasn't sure if he had really not understood me of if he was just taken back by my questions " What?" He said said his forehead furrowed.

" Delilah." I signed instead of speaking.

His jaw clenched and he sucked at his teeth before saying
" No one anymore. Who'd you hear that name from anyway?"

I shrugged casual my eyes examining his body language. He was tense for moment, but not upset just as if he wanted to avoid the topic.

" Guess who?"

He sighed " Jack."

" Was she a girlfriend?" I asked jumping right into it wanting to seem as unruffled and nonchalant as possible. The idea of Jasper's past relationships hadn't even crossed my mind until now.

Jasper's eyes shifted away from mine and nervously licked his lips. " I've never had a girl friend before."

My mouth stammered not sure what to say. It was confusing. Although Jasper had never been in a relationship I understood why. With how complex his personal life was and how closed off he used to be it made since. His innocence to relationships was evident, but then again just because Jasper hadn't dated a girl before doesn't mean he'd never been with one. I certainly wasn't the first girl he's ever kissed, and with how good he does it clearly shows that he had plenty of practice. And for some reason that made me nervous.

" So is she a friend?"

" Something like that." he mumbled

" So she was friend." I said confirming it with my self.

It was quiet between us for a few seconds. Jasper looking grateful that the conversation had ended.

" But what kind of friend?" I said breaking the silence out of my own curiosity. Jasper chuckled " What do you mean what kind of friend."

" You and I both know how multi meaning the word friend."

Jasper shock his head with a smug expression.
" No, no I don't. Care to elaborate."

I huffed not finding it funny. " There's friends, and than there best friends and frenemies and friends with  benefits and-." I stopped in mid sentence watching Jasper look at me with an amused expression as I struggled to explained. " You get it."

" What are we?" His eyes blazed with hilarity he stopped pushing the basket and waited on my response knowing there was no answer to that questions but enjoying watching me squirm.

I stared dumbfounded stammering for words.
" Where...complicated." He lightly chuckled and nodded.
" And you and Delilah?" I questioned

" Where complicated." He shrugged using my words against me seeing how frustrated I was getting. My attempts at acting unbothered were clearly failing.

Growing annoyed I throw the block of cheese at him, he ducks and laughs. " Why do you want to know so bad?

" Because you're being so vague about it."

I watched as Jasper's eyebrows frowned debating questioning if he should tell me about Delilah.

" We had sex." He confessed casually.

I froze my eyes nearly popping out of my head " You and D-D-" I stutter like an idiot.

" Delilah." He said finish my sentence. " She wasn't a good girl, she had the whole bad girl persona going on. Stayed into trouble, what we had was just casual. It wasn't romanic, but she wanted it to be. I didn't. She wasn't nice to Jack and Jasmine. Treated them like trash so I ended things."

It was like a bomb had just went off. I don't know what it was, but it was comforting viewing  Jasper as innocent and inexperienced. He was always so sweet and unpretentious and I know that he still was those things. But, he just wasn't as inexperienced as I had thought. Knowing he had more sexual experience than me, was intimidating. Knowing that he had tasted sexual  pleasure and I knew little of it was enough to send me to the edge. Although  he said that he could wait when I was ready.

I had heard those words before.

He wasn't a virgin.

We had a brief conversation about this before, but I honestly didn't believe him when he said he wasn't until now.

I know men, I know how hungry and driven they can be because of sex. And yes, Jasper and I aren't at that level yet, but one day when he is my boyfriend he'd expect that of me.

Panic struck through my body, as the image of Saint Jasper had tarnished.

I knew that it wouldn't change Jasper, that was still going to be the same. It made me question how much I really knew him.

" You alright?" He asked

Snapping out of my day I force a smile. A smile spread across his face in relief.

" I'm fine. Uh is that everything on the list."

He nods. " Yeah, let's head back. Jack and Jasmine are probably some plotting by now." He joked.