I kissed Jasper Ralston

I kissed him!

Why would I kiss him!

But damn it felt amazing.

But it's wrong.

I was in conflict with myself, caught between regretting the kiss and not regretting it all. It was clear as day where our feelings resided. He liked me, and I liked him. But I still wasn't ready for anything more than that. I know Jasper isn't a bad guy. That he wouldn't hurt me. Still, I wasn't completely healed over what had happened to me. Jasper deserved somebody that could give him there all, that wasn't me... Not just at least.

But even with all that in my head, I still kept thinking about the kiss.

I kept wanting him.

It was at least 7 am and while he was knocked out sleep next to me. I was up reflecting about the night a smile still on my face hoping it all wasn't a dream.

I kissed Jasper.

And it was more than what I had ever hoped for.

I touched my soft lips to remember how he was once on them.

Shit.

I can't have him wake up with me looking like this or with my morning breath!

I slide out of the bed trying my hardest not to wake him and tiptoe out of his room and into the bathroom. Catching sight of my appearance. Goodness, I almost forgot how I looked without makeup. That was my fault for growing too dependent on it. I turned on the warm water and began washing my face once I was done I applied toothpaste on my finger and brushed my teeth. I was done being sad and done looking that way. I refuse to be Cry Baby Kinsley. I refuse to be ugly, no matter how hard life gets. If I'm going to do this whole "natural" things I needed to do a damn good job at it. After I brushed my teeth and pulled my hair back into  ponytail.

As for my outfit... There was nothing I could about that. I looked down at my none existing boobs that looked even flatter in his tee shirt.

" Fuck."

I looked at self in the mirror again trying to fake confidence, but it wasn't there.

" You are gorgeous." I complimented myself.

" A bad bitch. A fucking Goddess. You are..." I sigh

I suddenly felt self-conscious not believing a word I said.

"Ugly as fuck." Groaning annoyed I flick off the bathroom light not wanting to see my self any longer. My hands grip the door and swing it open.

" Holy shit!" I cursed startled at the sight in front of me.

Jasper's older brother stood outside the door looking at me with amusement.  His eyes were the bluest I had ever seen, a blue that made me cold just by looking at them, he had Jasper shared the same dark hair and handsome looks. He was larger than Jasper and his shirtless body was on display showing off his muscles and stumbled face giving him a mature look. At least in his mid 20's.

"As pretty as you are I'm ashamed to say I've forgotten if I brought you home last night I was pretty damn drunk. Did we sleep together, princess?" He asked

My lips moved, but no words came out. I looked at him with wide eyes still in shock me

" I- Uh no."

He smirked " Shame." His eyes ranking over my body. " I'm Jayce and you?" He extended his hand for me to shake.

Is he serious?

" Totally underage," I stated glaring down at his hand. Jayce stared at my face intently as if he was searching for something.

" I've seen you before. Are you a stripper?"

" Did you not just hear me say underage?"

" Wait a minute." He examined " You're the dancer." Jayce said referring to the festival. Jayce scoffs " Knew you were a stripper."

" If you're always this obnoxious I see why Jasper left." I insulted crossing my arms over my chest. His eyebrow raised at the mentioning of his younger brother.

" Oh, so you're the Malibu Barbie everyone's talking about." He chuckled the smirk never leaving his lips. He placed his hand on the doorframe towering over me and blocking me from leaving. " I'm impressed, Baby Brother snagged him a rich bitch." His finger gazed under my chin.

" Pretty one too"

I swatted his hand away trying to act unfazed and keep a straight face.  He lightly laughed " He can't handle you."

" I don't need to be handled jack ass."

" Noted" With a playful glint in his eyes. " What do you see in him anyway. Let me guess you're using him to do your homework?"

" Let me guess you're using him to do your dirty work." I shot back.

He shrugged " I'm not using him. I'm teaching him. You might have it all in your world Princess, but it's harder over here for me and Jasper."

" Where you teaching him when you left him to get jumped."

" Don't tell me shit about my brother alright. I'm all he's got and if he was smart he would leave you out of it. You'll only drag him down."

I scoffed " Oh don't play big brother now. Jasper doesn't need you teaching him he's fine on his own. Unlike you, he has a real job. A street pharmacist isn't exactly a career."

He laughed " Wait I'm sorry aren't you a stripper?"

My fist clenched in annoyance.

" Dancer." I corrected

" Criteria for a stripper."  He was infuriated! The most ignorant and blatantly obnoxious person I ever meet. He was cocky even though he was handsome I looked at him with so much disgust! How could he even be related to Jasper!

"Jayce." Jasper interjected his voice raspy recovering from sleep. 

" Hey Kid." Jayce said finally moving from in front of me. I walked past him with glare. " Morning Jasper." I greeted as I walked past him and back into him room. It was silent as I entered Jasper was still in the hallway with his brother and do to the lack of voices it was clear they where using ASL to communicate not wanting me to hear.

                   20 minutes passed and Jasper entered the room in a fresh pair of clothes and his hair slightly wet. Everything I laid eyes on him I felt my heart pound and my cheeks blush. Thinking about last night.

" My Mom well be home soon." He spoked

" I... I guess I should leave... Unless you want me to meet her?" I asked unsurely

His eyes widen.

" God no."

Oh.

" No. I didn't meant it like that. You're great, damn you're amazing. I just, I don't think you should meet her. She's not in her right state of mind. Maybe one day." He scratched the back of his head. " When's she clean."

" I understand my Dad's not a drug addict or anything.. he's just a terrible person. I don't want you to ever meet him. I wish you could meet my mom though. She would have liked you." He smiled lightly at my words.

"Really?"

" Totally." I confirmed a wide smile spreading on my face.
" She would be happy that I'm dating a guy like you."

Shit.

Dating.

His eyebrow raised and the corner of his lips curved at my words. " I.. I uh." Damn it why am I so awkward?

"  We're dating?" He asked

I bit my lip " Eventually." I confirmed.  " I.. I just-" my words where cut short as his lips crashed into mine.

Fuck.

Sparks running down my body was my lips moved against his. I saw color flash before my eyes. I felt the world slow down. I loved the way he held me, how his hands cuffed my face as he claimed my lips.

Blissful

He pulled away those pretty eyes staring at me the way nobody had ever.

" You don't have to explain. I'll wait, I'll always wait for you. When ever you're ready Kinsley I'm here. I'll settle for eventually because at least I know there's a future. We'll take it slow. We don't have to define what ever this is. But I'm enjoying it regardless."

I smiled the brightest smile I ever smiled in my life.

" Thank you Jasper."

His pearling white teeth were on full display.
" No problem."

" We should go, I know you have to to get on the road soon and I don't want to show you down."

" Do you want me to take you back home?" He asked

I shook my head. " No, I can't face my Dad right now. I'll just go to Nani's."

" You can come with me you know." Jasper said.

" What?" Is he saying what I think he's saying?

" I mean if you want. You can come with me."

" With you to visit your sisters and your Grandma?"

Jasper nodded.

" Okay." I agreed with a shrug sending him by surprise. Maybe he expected me to be hesitate, to ask more questions but honestly meeting Jasper's family sounded waaay better than being stuck in LA with Nani's.

" Really?"

I chuckled " Yeah."