Six : Stabilizing

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Alex POV

Vacant green eyes stare back at me as I await her reply, but I've got a very strong feeling that she didn't hear me at all.

"Hello?" I wave a hand in front of her face, she blinks in response, her lips twitch against each other, never parting, as she awakens from a distant fog and suddenly comes to focus solely on me.

Her luscious lips then part as she says, "What did you say?" She continues to blink a few times, resurfacing completely from wherever she had drifted off to. Instead of jumping straight back in, I wait a moment before I speak again, allowing her a second to collect her thoughts before I give her more to think about.

When I see her register that I hadn't yet spoken in response to her own question, then I decide to try again, not wanting to lose her to her all encompassing mind fog.

"I said, do you want to take a drive to the mountains this weekend? It'd be a nice break from everything, to clear our heads and maybe then we can return home feeling fresh again. We could also have a go at hunting together, we've never done that before."
This fact is true, we have never hunted together in that way before. Surprisingly.

She purses her lips once, "Sure. Why not."
I wait for any signs of hesitation, but I don't catch any and watch her casually grasp all of her long dark hair in one hand, swinging it over her left shoulder neatly. The action seems to be a calming sensation for her, as I watch her trail her fingers through the dark, somewhat tangled length.

A lot of forethought had gone into this idea, I have offered up this suggestion because I've decided that I need to see how she reacts in a position of freedom to hunt true prey.
Will she react the same way with an animal as she does with a human? Will that desire to attack and torture take over without her knowing? This is going to be a test.
Danica will have a few of her treasured weapons to work with too, it's going to really test her strength. The main purpose of this trip is to witness her in a natural surrounding, with no interference from me, because I need to figure out where her mind is settling right now. Deadly or safe?

I somewhat fear what lies ahead. But the mystery is too much to ignore. I need to know what she will do out in the open.

"We will make it a proper camping trip. Gather some supplies before we head off and pitch a tent somewhere deep in the woods, away from civilisation. We can leave Ditz with Dex for the weekend, I'm sure he won't mind."

Though I know he will no doubt grumble about not being invited on a hunting trip, but he will get over it.

"I haven't been camping in years. I'm actually excited for this trip, it'll be good to get away for a few nights." Danica says with a happy grin.

For now, it seems as though she is not picking up on my underlying plans at all, which is definitely a good thing, I don't want her catching a whiff of my devious attempts to figure her out. If she knew what was truly going on, she would be pissed at me, that much I am sure of.

"Yeah, it will. I'm looking forward to it too. Fresh air and peace and quiet, it'll be great." The words I say are perhaps a little deceptive, though they're not complete lies either. I do love the outdoors, and especially the act of the hunt. But that's where I feel I begin to falter.

Because the question is, how comfortable will she be with a weapon and a live, albeit a live animal target in front of her instead of a human one? When we last went camping I avoided the hunt altogether. Danica had never been into any of that stuff, so I didn't bother to even try with her around. I also didn't want to discover that she was weak stomached or something. For some reason, the idea of a weak stomached girlfriend bothered me greatly back then. Though I knew that we would one day head down this road, I had simply never imagined it would be in these circumstances. And who would?

Danica is a challenging creature now, something almost no one has dealt with before. There is no clear path ahead for me, or us, it'll be trial and error from now on.

The future frightens me.
Will it be the best thing for Danica and I? Will this baby even make a difference? And if it doesn't, then what does the future hold? What's right and what's wrong? Can we manage a life with her still hunting down fresh targets? Or will a baby be a call for the end to it all? I'm afraid of all the uncertainties ahead. Who will we become after our child is born?
Even more so, what will it change?

And it's not only that, but I have come to realise that I'm finding it really difficult to imagine us having a baby now, even given that it's already in the works. I need time to come to grips with it myself. I don't think I'm ready for that reality yet. But I can't tell Danica. I just need to figure it out for myself.

I need to have this trip to get some answers rolling in. The not knowing is what's hardest. If this trip can give me something to work from, then I'll take it.

A thought strikes me. Perhaps having Danica tell Carol sooner rather than later would be a good thing. It'll possibly instil in Danica a sense of a proper family and give Carol a reason to drop by our place more often, which would put a little fear of her sudden appearances in Danica's mind too.

With that thought in my head, I turn to Danica, "I know I said not to tell Carol about the baby so soon, but if you want to, you can."

Danica looks at me quizzically, but any doubts she might've had disappear as soon as they arrive as she smiles gently back at me, "I would like to tell her soon. I know she'd be over the moon for us. And plus, she'd practically become an instant grandparent because of it. She's the closest thing to a mother I've got. She will be so happy."

This thought has her grinning from ear to ear, a sparkle of life shining back at me through her gorgeous green eyes. And I can't resist returning the smile. The happiness beaming at me is too much to ignore.

For the time being I let the idea of a normal family life grow in my minds eye. Wanting nothing more than stability and normalcy for us and our future family. It's not too much to ask for after all. It is what we both want, I know that much from the smile that is still on her face as she stares down at the non existent bump that is her stomach.

Though I fear the future, I also am so eager to have it before me. To know what lies ahead.
Because, I hate a mystery.
And Danica is mysterious enough on her own.





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Bit of a shorter one here, but you guys know me and my writing. I don't fluff around if there's no more to be said in a chapter. I'm not one to fill in for the sake of a longer chapter.

So Alex has plans to get answers, or so he hopes.

How do you think this will play out for them?

Do you think Danica will take the bait and act out, or do you think she will have full control of herself and her demons?

I like getting into Alex's head, sometimes it's confusing to put him down into words, but the challenge is fun too.

That's all for now, thanks for reading guys, have a great one!

Shantelle 😉

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