As i walked back to my room, i thought about how much i prefered this place to being at school. I know i havent been the best but i dont think i actually deserved all the shit i got. Every fucking time i was beaten, hurt, called names, bruised, cut, smacked into the sinks and mirrors, i felt part of my soul just die a bit. Like all faith in humanity was gone, but yet, i kept hope.

I walked back into the bedroom and once again, frank wasnt there. Instead of looking for him, i took advantage of the situation and layed on my bed and let myself cry. Since i got here i havent let myself cry. I miss mikey and music and singing and walking freely in the forest. I miss being who i am without being fucking monitored.

I didnt hear the door open, but i guess it has to have opened because the next thing i knew, franks hands were playing with my hair and he was whispering to me that ill be okay. Im not sure how long we stayed like that, but it must have been a while because by the time i stopped crying, the staff were coming round telling us it was dinner time.

Due to all the fucking crying id done over the last period of time, i had lost my apetite. However, i went down anyway to make sure that frank ate and i figured it wouldnt hurt to drink something. I ordered a milkshake and for frank i ordered some pie and a can of coke. We ate in silence for about 20 minutes until frank sighed and gave in

"Why were you crying?" I just sighed before deciding if i should tell him.
"I miss who i was" he didnt push for a more detailed response, he simply nodded and ate his pie. Even though he was in here for fucking anorexia, he sure enjoyed eating. Im glad he does, i want to see him get better.

Throughout the rest of the night we only made small talk until one of the nurses came in and told us to put on our jackets if we wanted to watch some fireworks tonight. It was already completely dark outside and the stars looks like little fairy lights. I put on a trench coat and frank put on a denim jacket that had patches of bands up the sleeves. Together, we headed down the stairs and into the field behind the hospital. We stayed seperate from the others and instead of gathering to look at the fireworks, we layed on the grass together.

"So"
"Im not great at conversations" i replied
"Neither. Pick a subject and we can talk about it"
"Songs. Whats your favourite song?"
"Probably Time of your life by green day, how about you?"
"You wont know it."
"Doesnt mean i dont want to hear about it"
"Its called Demolition Lovers, its by me and my brother"
"Man, id love to hear it some day"
Instead of replying, i just looked at the stars and began to sing it to him.

"Hand in mine into your icy blues..."
"...Ill meet your eyes, i mean this forever"
He stayed silent throughout the whole song and i figured he was just listening but when i turned, he had his phone out and he was recording me.

"Frank, no!" I shouted, smacking his phone out of his hand.
"I wont show a single soul, sugar. Thats it, ill call you sugar, because your voice is sweet and i love it, just like i love sugar." He seemed to ramble a bit but it made me laugh and nod so i was fine with it.

"Anyways, the song was rad as fuck bro"
"Thank you"

It was around 1 in the morning by now so frank and i left everyone else and headed back to our room. I went to get into the shower and started to remove my clothes. However, i noticed a note stuck to the inside of the shower glass door..
Like what you saw back here, didnt you. ;) xofrnk

I started to laugh, for some reason i found this fucking hilarous. Putting the paper into the trash can, i got the little bag out of the can and tied it in a knot, id throw it at frank later.

Wrapping the towel around my hips, i headed back into the bedroom, not forgetting to bring the bag. Frank was asleep so i threw the bag right at his fucking head which jolted him up.

"Fuckin hell gee"
My head snapped up. Had he just called me Gee?? Only mikey called me that. Usually i would get frustrated when someone called me that, but i liked the way it sounded when frank said it.

I quickly dressed myseld in some pyjamas before getting into bed, sleeping soundly through the night.