I'm back... And this is also dedicated to 'HIM', nowadays we talk but.... I feel so used, He only talks to me when he needs something. Well anyway .. Enjoy!
(Don't play song yet :P)
[Also involves cussing]
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Crush X Reader:
Only There When You Need Me

CONTINUATION OF : I'm FINE

~Reader's POV~

I stood up from my seat when I saw
C/N. He seriously asked me if I'm OKAY!? Oh I'm better than okay! In fact i feel F*** Tastic! :3 like who would? After being used and lied to?

"I'm Fine" I answered in a monotone voice, he just shook his head

"No you're not" he said back.
'Tch.... it's your fault anyway' I thought
"I am. Now leave me alone" I said trying to keep chill

"Fine.. but, I want to be friends with you again" he said. Smiling his famous smile. I felt butterflies in my belly just seeing that smile, 'No...--- AAAH F*** it!'

"Okay..." he seemed content with my answer, he smiled and put an arm around me. I flinched at first but calmed down
Maybe a second chance would be fine :3

~TOMORROW~

I walked down the halls as usual
I saw C/N placing his stuff in his locker. I went over to him and greeted
Him, he closed his locker and looked at me

"Hey Y/N!" He greeted, but something seemed... off... He's tone, that's not the C/N I knew! He's tone was... some what cold,

"So... C/N, are we Friends again?" I asked him, he smiled and nodded

"Of course BESTIE " I was kinda weirded out by his new nickname for me

"Heheheh" I giggled, But the bell rang
"Well see ya later C/N" I said walking the opposite direction he went, he waved bye..

~Lunch!~

I walked in the cafeteria with a happy vibe I skipped over to C/N... then I saw her R/N! Grrr... both of them were eating together. I didn't want to go over.so I sat with the Girls,

"Heyyy!" I said happy. They looked at me and smiled worried.

"You're not happy." B/F/N Said, I dropped my smile. I took out my phone and texted C/N
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To: C/N <3

Hey!
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I look at his way and saw him take out his phone. But placed.it back.in his pocket. WHAT!? he would usually reply... Ugh, the girls saw my distressed look and frowned.

"I'm gonna kill him!" (other bff's Name) said

"Noooooo"

~A week later~

I thought me and C/N are alright now .... but... it seems like he's been using me, this past week he didn't talk to me when I talk to him, he would talk to me when he needed something like... Helping him with his grades..
I walked down the hall with the girls beside me.

"OMG!" B/F/N said. We all look at her

"I REMEMBER that, There's a singing contest! You should definitely join Y/N!!!" She said.

"...No....." I saw C/N and R/N together
"You know what... I might as well" I said, heheheh ... get ready C/N! I'm getting revenge!

~THE DAY OF THE CONTEST~
(Btw act like you made the song x3)

I wore a beautiful High low dress, (Pic below)

I breath in and out as I was peeking through the curtain from the back stage, I look at the crowd and saw C/N and R/N. It made my blood boil, I glared at them but soon stopped once the girls went over to me.

"Y/N!!!" B/F/N said, jumping on me. I nearly tripped

"What the hay B/F/N!?" I exclaim balancing myself,

"sorry" she said sheepishly the other girls shook their heads at her

"Anyway... Y/N, Are you ready?" (other bff's name) asked me, I nodded and gave a confident smile.

"Sure am! I'm gonna show C/N what I'm really made of!" I said flipping my hair with sass.

"That's our girl!" (3rd Bff name) said, we all laughed. Then the Mc spoke

"Thank you (Random girl's Name)," the mc said, I look out and saw the girl walk off. Then the staff place the piano on the stage

"Okay! So next we have Ms. Y/N L/N!" The girls look at me and gave me a big hug

"GROUP HUUUG!" B/F/N squealed, Hugging the three of us to death -.-

"too.TIGHT.can't.BREATH!" I said, that made her let go of us,

"Ms. Y/N L/N please come out to the stage!" The girls said good luck to me and gave me a thumbs up, I walked out the backstage and the crowd cheered. Well my classmates did, I saw C/N look at me. I almost rolled my eyes, I sat on the chair and started placing my hands on the keys

"ONCE AGAIN MS. Y/N L/N! " The mc said. I took a deep breath and started playing.

[PLAY SONG]

"Feeling used
But I'm
Still missing you
And I can't
See the end of this
Just wanna feel your kiss
Against my lips"

The crowd went silent, and look at me in wonder. This song... I made it.. I wrote it since the day he started Dating HER, I look at the crowd to see C/N looking down.. and R/N cuddling him ..  I will tear you apart R/N...

"And now all this time
Is passing by
But I still can't seem to tell you why
It hurts me every time I see you
Realize how much I need you"

I saw R/N glare at C/N as he didn't respond to R/N's cuddle.. Serves you right.. you... MAN STEALER!

"I hate you, I love you,"

I remember the time when C/N came to me to only say he didn't do his assignment, and that he needed to copy mine. I didn't want to be rude.. so I let him, the smile he wore still made the butterflies in my belly go crazy, but... I know that he smiles not because of me.. but because of.. Her, R/N...

"I hate that I love you
Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her"

I sang my fragile heart out.... my once broken heart is slowly being treated through this song.. it.didn't hurt that much as it used to.., It was less broken.. but even if after this song. It's still a fresh wound.. I know time will heal but, this cut.. this shattered heart of mine will always know about what happened.. It will leave such ugly scars that can't be healed.

" I miss you when I can't sleep
Or right after coffee
Or right when I can't eat
I miss you in my front seat
Still got sand in my sweaters
From nights we don't remember
Do you miss me like I miss you?"

Oh C/N.. why? Why did you change? Where's the innocent, lovable and Kind hearted C/N that I used to know? That WE all used to know..?' I took a shaky breath. It wasn't obvious .. thankfully..
"F...around and got attached to you
Friends can break your heart too,"

I remembered the time I saw C/F convincing C/N that ... R/N wasn't for him, I was on C/F's side but.. it felt so wrong to know that C/F called C/N a dumb f***, C/N stormed out the room and we all just look at each other..,
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I look at C/N who was trying to calm a Mad R/N down.. 'pssh ... what a whiny cake--- I mean girl.. well tbh .. her face has to much make up that she would shame a cake >:3'

"And I'm always tired but never of you
If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn't like that shiz
I put this reel out, but you wouldn't bite that shiz
I type a text but then I never mind that shiz
I got these feelings but you never mind that shiz
Oh oh, keep it on the low
You're still in love with me but your friends don't know
If you wanted me you would just say so
And if I were you, I would never let me go"

Sometimes.. I just wonder.. if C/N... still loves me... I remember talking to this boy in cclass R/N was absent that day. And C/N.. he... Glared at him.. a death glare.

I also remember when I told C/N and the other's that I have a new Senpai... well he's not a real person... more like an anime x3,

=Flashback=
at lunch when everyone left. He went over to my seat  I was sketching my anime Senpai then. I closed the sketched and he looked at me seriously not even bothering looking at the sketchpad.

"Y/N." He said, I look at him wondering why he suddenly popped up..

"Y-yes C/N..?" I stuttered at first because.. I thought he wanted to see my sketchpad "-3-) it was embarrassing considering I used to doodle him.. and me.. doing romantic stuff <3

"Who is your Senpai?" He asked inching closer to me, I tensed up

"W-what?" I asked again.  Wanting to know if I was hearing right

"Who is your Senpai?" He repeated, I gulped.. but at the same time kinda mad, I wanted to scream out 'YOU WOULDN'T CARE ANYWAY!' But because I'm a decent person I didn't..

"Why should I tell you?" I asked, he rolled his eyes

"Because I'm your .. Bro" (Ouch BroZoned! ... ;~; wait.. this.. nvm..... I almost forgot this is based on HIM =_= well... he BROZONED ME :'3)
did he really think it was enough for me to say.

"So...?" I asked teasingly be got up and was kinda mad, it see like the old C/N the one.. with the cute mood swings.. :3

"Ugh! Forget it!" He stormed out of the room.. maybe... maybe he still has feelings for me.?

=END OF FLASHBACK =

"I don't mean no harm
I just miss you on my arm
Wedding bells were just alarms
Caution tape around my heart
You ever wonder what we could have been?"

This reminded me of the time C/N was being so sweet to me... he time we hung out where.. I kinda.. confessed to him, the time we were in the park we were eating ice cream and playing around like little kids..

"You said you wouldn't and you f-ing did
Lie to me, lie with me, get your f-ing fix
Now all my drinks and all my feelings are all f-ing mixed"

This reminded me of the time.. where.. he PROMISED to never hurt me! To promise to keep me safe! Promised he won't break my heart! But guess what!? HE DID!!! I let my emotions let loose I was playing the piano like my life depended on it.

"Always missing people that I shouldn't be missing
Sometimes you gotta burn some bridges just to create some distance
I know that I control my thoughts and I should stop reminiscing
But I learned from my dad that it's good to have feelings"

I remember the time back in ... my freshman year where everything changed, my old friends (except for the ones who are true) backstabbed me. Telling everyone lies about me..
I

remember running in to my Dad's arms once he picked me up, my Dad told me .. that  'it's good to have feelings good or bad. It lets you know that you're human and the you're
alive'
(oh wow.. My mind.. just .. This .. guys, this is inspirational! Btw, mah Daddy never told me that ._.)

"When love and trust are gone
I guess this is moving on
Everyone I do right does me wrong
So every lonely night I sing this song"

I'll  forget you C/N! I'LL FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL LOVE ME! I'll.. NEVER come back to you!

"I hate you I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you
I hate you I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her"

I'll never be like R/N. That's because I'll never be as mean, B*tchy and rude as hehe a low life she is..

"All alone I watch you watch her
Like she's the only girl you've ever seen"

I remember seeing C/N watching her intently.. those were the times where I cared for him where I.. was head over heels for him

"You don't care you never did
You don't give a damn about me"

I look directly at him while singing this, he looked.. I can't even describe.. he had this look of; Guilt, Sadness, Regret but with a hint of anger..

"Yeah all alone I watch you watch her
She is the only thing you've ever seen..
How is it you never notice?
That you are slowly killing me.."

I praise my self for writing this lyrics..  but.. I ain't turn in into no Taylor swift :/ not gonna happen.. she's more like.. R/N (no offense to all the swifties out there.. for I for one used to be a swiftie, but let's face it... she's changed ._.)

"I hate you I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you
I hate you I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her"

I finished the song and stood up bowing, the crowd gave me a standing ovation. Everyone cheered mostly
B/F/N, she gave me a thumbs up and mentioned to the camera :3
She was videoing it the whole time

"I GUESS WE'VE FOUND A CLEAR WINNER!" the emcee said, then handed me a trophy

"OMG! THANK YOUUU!" I squealed I saw C/N Storm out, leaving R/N there shocked

"Well Ms. L/N.. how does it feel to win?" The emcee asked handing me a mic

"It feels FANTASTIC!" I ssquealed

"Ms. L/N did you compose this song?"
He asked, I nodded

"Yes, it's for a 'FRIEND' of mine..." I trailed off a bit

====TIME SKIP CUZ Dori-Chan is Lazy ===

After the whole thing, me and the girls went to my house. B/F/N showed me the video which she posted on YouTube, and to our surprise it gone viral. Like... 2,000,000 views in 1 Hour and  and 1,782,999 likes, and 1 dislike (WONDER WHO THAT COULD  BE?)
the comments were amazing, the were complementing me and such. No hate .. (yet) after this I'm pretty sure things will never be the same with C/N But who cares !? >:3

(In the end you become famous.. making C/N regret his mistakes)

====== END ===
Phew.. "-3-  that was .. Quite hard to finish since.. me and HIM are cool now .3.
(But that don't mean I'm not holding a grudge..)

anyway, hope you all like it ! ^-^

Let's make a deal... hmm .. 4 votes, and imma post a new chapter.
-Dorothy