Well... I'm so sorry.. for not doing any requests or Updates, I just realized that I really can't write requests perfectly.. since.. whenever I'm inspired that's when I write, I'm terribly sorry... but my emotions are mixed atm.. so here you go ...
Grab your tissues
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Crush X Reader: I'm fine

~Y/N's POV~

'I hate him! I hate him so much! I try to act like everything's okay... but inside I know I'm not! He told me he loved me... he did! He made me fall for him only to leave me hanging...' I felt another tear fall from my eyes, I sat in bed hugging my fluffy pillow... I tried to keep quiet so no one can hear.. So my parents wouldn't hear. 'You told me we can't be together because... you're taken, but now I see you with a random girl!? What... why did you do this to me!?... I HATE YOU SO MUCH C/N! I WISH I NEVER MET YOU!' I felt tired from all the crying. I decided to stop thinking about this things and laid down.

"Tomorrow's another day... and tomorrow I'll see HIM again.. " I muttered to myself, as I fell asleep

~ 2 Months Ago ~

I was walking down the corridor. To my classroom, school was gonna start in a few minutes. I look around and saw the students going to their classrooms or the other's just doing something else. On my way to my classroom I saw a boy with H/C who seemed lost, I walked over to him and tapped his shoulder. He turned around and I saw a good look at his face 'Dang... he's cute :3' I felt blood rush to my cheeks. I cleared my throat "Hey, Are you lost?" I asked the boy

"Yeah... I'm new here" he said, blushing a bit from embarrassment,

"Hmm.. I'm guessing you're new" he nodded, "Well... can I take a look at your schedule?" I asked him, he nodded and have me his schedule.. I look at him and smiled a bright smile

"Umm.. why are you.. smiling?" He asked,

"Umm ... nothing.. it's just that we have most classes together!" I said, and as if on cue the bell rang.. uh oh..

"Oh no! We're gonna be late!" He said worriedly, I quickly grabbed his hand and ran to class. Dragging him along, I blushed beet red but continued my sprint, as we reached the classroom door I quickly opened it just in time. The teacher wasn't here yet.. I saw an empty seat next to the window and decided to sit there. The boy sat in the chair next to me, we both catches our breaths...

"C/N" the boy said, I looked at him curiously

"Huh?"

"C/N, My name is C/N L/N.." the boy smiled a cute shy smile. It made me blush

"I'm.. Y/N L/N, but just call me Y/N!" I smiled back still blushing. After our little introduction the teacher walked in and introduced C/N as a new student and such

~1 month later~

C/N has been acting strange.. he seemed more attached to me, he's also protective with me. I would always get flustered whenever he acted cute I hate to admit it but.... I developed a crush on this goof ....

~3 week later~
Me and C/N sat on a bench at the park, today was Saturday and C/N decided to go to the park. Dragging me along with him, it was sunset right now.. the beautiful scenery the sunset... nature... two people of opposite genders seating next to each other. Seemed cliché right?.. I was snapped out of my thoughts when C/N suddenly spoke

"Y/N... I want to tell you that... I .. I... I love you" he told me looking away when he said the 3 words I thought he'd never say to me.. I blushed and looked away.

"You're kidding right? This is another one of your pranks isn't it?" I laughed a nervous laugh ...

"No.. I'm serious Y/N" he looked at me as I look at him. He was dead serious...
I blushed beet red

"I-Idiot ..." I muttered,
After that we just went back home..
A bit awkward tho

~ 4 weeks later ~

I confessed to C/N last week... through a lyric prank. I pranked him with "Into you" by: Ariana Grande but... now he seemed a bit distant from me.. it's like he's hiding something

"Aye C/N!" I called out happily to the boy, as he closed his locker. He didn't even bothered to look at me as he made his way to his classroom. My smile dropped and I stopped in my tracks, I felt my eyes tearing up. I blinked the tears away and bit my lip, I look down at my shoes and when I look led up he was gone..

~2 weeks later~

He... He... No.... I started shaking violently as I look at my phone, seeing what he just said.. or reading it.. it felt like my heart got stabbed .. I started crying.. C/N was taken.. he is.. I can't believe it! WAS HE JUST LYING TO ME ALL ALONG!? I sobbed as all the thoughts rushed in my brain, after a few days I tried to get over him.. sometimes I fail sometimes I don't .. but whenever I see his face I would feel a pain in my heart,

~ 5 days later ~
I decided to stop running from my fears... I was gonna sort things out with C/N..

-Time Skip-
I told C/N that we should just be friends.. he told me 'We were just friends anyway"

~ PRESENT ~

I woke up to the sound of my alarm.. I got up did my morning routine and got ready for school.. today was friday, thankfully.. yesterday was hell... I saw C/N with this new girl.. they seem to be flirting with each other... the worst part is.. it's the first time they ever met -3-.. I feel like C/N just said those things cuz he DOESN'T WANT ME IN HIS LIFE ANYMORE! HE DOESN'T WANT TO BE WITH ME! Whenever my friends asked if I was ok.. I would always answer with "I'm FINE"

~Time Skip lunch ~

I walked in the cafeteria ready to go hang out with the girls.. but what I saw was nothing from what I wanted to see... it was C/N and the girl .. KISSING!? .. I felt tears pour down my face, I dropped my tray.. including the lunch. And everyone around me became silent. They all look at me and I just shook my head and ran, before I did I look to see C/N roll his eyes.. that made me run more. He broke my already broken heart 2000 more times.. I ran to the room.. where I could calm down. I sat down on the seat in front of the piano.. I had a secret talent and it was playing the piano (play song now!)
I took a deep breath and started singing

"Feeling used
But I'm
Still missing you
And I can't
See the end of this
Just wanna feel your kiss
Against my lips
And now all this time
Is passing by
But I still can't seem to tell you why
It hurts me every time I see you
Realize how much I need you"

I took a deep breath as i felt the tears stop pouring down. I closed my eyes and put my heart into the song

I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her....

~C/N's POV~
I heard someone playing the piano
In the music room. I took a peek and saw... Y/N she was pouring her heart and soul out while singing

I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her

I don't mean no harm
I just miss you on my arm
Wedding bells were just alarms
Caution tape around my heart
You ever wonder what we could have been?
You said you wouldn't and you fucking did
Lie to me, lie with me, get your fucking fix
Now all my drinks and all my feelings are all fucking mixed
Always missing people that I shouldn't be missing
Sometimes you gotta burn some bridges just to create some distance
I know that I control my thoughts and I should stop reminiscing
But I learned from my dad that it's good to have feelings
When love and trust are gone
I guess this is moving on
Everyone I do right does me wrong
So every lonely night I sing this song...

I sighed... I must have really broke her.. I stepped in she stopped.singing and playing the piano and glared at me. I asked her one question "are you okay?" She answered with "I'm Fine"

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CRAPPY CHAPTER ;~;
Forgive me.....
I wrote this so fast... not gonna even check it

=SORRY FOR ERRORS. WRONG GRAMMARS AND SUCH

UNTIL NEXT TIME

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