Chapter 35 :

Author POV

"Lady, please eat lunch" said the housemaid, Bonhwa standing in front of y/n, slightly bowed her head lower. Then she took a glance of y/n that was sitting on the sofa in the living room with a tightness in her face muscles.

"I am fine" y/n said without looking at Bonhwa. Her eyes were focusing on the main door, waiting for Jungkook to be home.

Bonhwa started to feel uneasy as y/n had skipped her dinner and the breakfast as well. Especially when she was responsible by Jungkook to take care of y/n carefully because y/n was pregnant.

"Lady, please. What has bothered you?" No response from her. Bonhwa noticed that she was staring at the main door, looking like waiting for someone to be home.

"Are you waiting for the Young Master?" y/n quickly turned her head at Bonhwa and the impatience was clearly seen somewhere in her eyes.

"Yes. Can you contact him for me? I want to see him. I've been waiting for him since last night. Please". y/n left the seat and held the Bonhwa's wrist with begging eyes.

"O-okay. I will try".

"Thank you".

"Wait for a moment". y/n let go of the Bonhwa's wrist and then Bonhwa went straight to the kitchen. She whipped out her phone and dialed Myungdae's numbers. She took a glance at y/n until he took the call.

"Hello, Mr. Myundae. I'm sorry to bother you".

"What's the matter?".

"Is Young Master busy today?". He silently for a moment, remembered that he went to see Jungkook in the early morning and he was with his cigarette all the time while staring outside of his skyscraper window, looking so fucked up.

"Myundae-ssi?"

"Ah, no. Why?"

"Well... Lady is asking to contact the Young Master that she wants to see him so much. And she hasn't eaten since last night. She seems like she lost her sleep last night. I'm so worried about her health. Remember, she is pregnant".

Now, he got it why Jungkook looked so fucked up. It might not be because of Jimin only. He thought they might have had the fight last night and resulted in Jungkook leaving the house. Maybe, that was the reason for y/n to call him too. He stroked his chin while considering whether to tell Jungkook or not.

"Okay, I will inform him" decided him.

"Thank you. Mr Myungdae. Lady will be happy to hear that".

"But I can't promise you if I can convince him to do that".

He hung up the call and went to take the elevator to Jungkook's office. 

He knocked on Jungkook's door.

"Come in". Jungkook sounded like he forced out a loud voice that stuck in his throat so that Myungdae could hear him.

Myungdae entered his office and his eyes fixed on Jungkook's figure that sat on the chair, working on some paper works. That Jeju project maybe.

"What brings you here?" Asked Jungkook without raising his head to look at him.

"Your housemaid, Bonhwa told me to inform you that the lady hasn't eaten since last night and she seems to have lost her sleep too. She wants to meet you very much".

Jungkook stopped working on his paper works and threw his head backward into the chair. He closed his eyes for a moment. That child in her womb was very important to him and so her. But the way she was acting so shady to him had angered him so much. How could he want to trust her if she was being like that?

He opened his eyes back and grabbed his jacket suit and walked passed by Myundae out of his office.

                Jungkook stepped into the house and saw y/n was sitting on the sofa. Her gaze was already fixed at him at the moment he just closed the door. He stared back into her eyes. She really seemed like losing her sleep.

She got up and her eyes followed his figure that was slowly walking towards her. "Is this the way you're baiting me? You're so thoughtless. The child in your womb is hungry".

The gaze she held was unbothered as it was still piercing through him. Her stare had really unpleasant him.

"Why do you look at me like I'm the one who is guilty here? Didn't you say you want to see me so much? Or do you still wanna beg for my forgiveness again?".

"Do you think you're so innocent? This is wrong, Jungkook".

His eyebrows twitched upward, vision squinted, and his confusion blurred in black and white. "What are you talking about?".

"Do you love your child more than me?".

His confusion deepened as he slightly tilted his head to the side. "It is our child. My love for you and our child is equal. But for the past several days, you're acting so shady. What's wrong with you right now? Let's go eating" Jungkook grabbed her arm but she quickly tugged it off.

"Lie". Her voice was clear and she gazed down at her own feet instead of looking at him. Her heart was hurt when he was only worrying about the child instead of both of them like he claimed to love them equally. Or she was just being sensitive? She did not know and did not want to know. It was confusing.

Jungkook held a strong gaze and his face pinched in annoyance. He left the work again for her and she was just acting like a kid. "Are you jealous of your own child right now? Y/n, you're about to be the mother of my child, stop acting like a kid".

She shook her head and then raised her gaze to him. "We're having a child not because of love. But it is just for your own benefit. So, you can divorce your wife and inherit your grandpa's wealth. I doubt your love".

His face turned completely frowned in a second right after she said that. And his gaze ran wildly around her eyes. "How the hell do you know about that?" His breath was shaky.

"So, it is really true??".

He turned his head to side, letting out a sigh, then turning it back to her. Holding a serious gaze as he knew It was the time for the truth now. "You're right about divorcing my wife and inheriting my grandpa once the child is born. But that does not mean I don't love you or just using you for my own benefit. We will finally get married after that. Is that what we both really want? And I'm losing nothing. We will be happy. I promise you that life".

"How do I know if you speak the truth. What if you're just leaving me right after I give birth to your child just because you just wanna child??".

"How could you believe that nonsense thing you've created in your mind? If I just want a child, I would have it with my wife. But I can't do that because I don't love h-".

"But what if you can't have it with her because you hate the whole of her family. And you just don't want any blood related to them??" Said y/n as it could be true because Jungkook also hated Jimin.

"Nonsense!!!" He raised his voice as he was tired seeing her to be lost in her nonsense thoughts. She was flinched by his yell and he wore a guilty look, regretting it.

"Look, y/n. Look all the time and moments we've spent together. How all were fakes? We have done everything. Hug, kiss, cuddle. That's love. I love you. I gave you my everything and I'm still giving it. And I will always give it". His voice softened to convince her.

Tears welled up in her eyes and soon, strolling down her soft cheeks. She turned her back at him and was about to walk away but he quickly went to grab her wrist and carefully flipped her facing him again. He did not want her to have such thoughts. He needed to extinguish all those nonsense thoughts in her mind and only by that he could be at ease.

"Do you believe in me?" Asked Jungkook, wearing a hopeful gaze. But for her, even though she believed in his love, how could this be right? It was still wrong. This would hurt everyone. His family would surely hate her. And was that such a happy life that he wanted to promise her??

"Let's talk again later. Hard to swallow for me right now" Said her, almost inaudible.

"No. Last night, you wanna talk, right? So, let's talk now". He was nervous as she seemed to like to turn her back at him again.

"I'm tired, please" Her gaze shifted to her wrist that was grabbed by him, signing him to let her go.

"Then, let's go eat first". He slowly let go of her wrist.

"Don't you worry. The baby won't die if I skip the meal just for one day".

He clicked his tongue in frustration as she sounded to not believe in him at all. "It is not about the baby alone. You too. Come on, please".

She did not respond and just stared at him.

"What do you want? I will give you anything if you eat now and then let's have a talk again".

"I don't want anything from you. Whether you love me or not, you use me or not, you wanna marry me or not. Still, everything you've done is wrong. I don't wanna be part of your lies".

"y/n!" He yelled her name. Anger and frustration.

Her eyes flickered over to him.

He calmed himself and said, "What is so wrong? I'm doing this for us. If I don't do this, I will be trapped living in a life that I do not want to live. Being controlled like a puppet by my own family. Can you understand me? I deserve to choose my own path".

She dropped a tear and her lips parted, shooting only a shaky breath. "I.. I don't know" She shook her head at him, looking repressing everything.

"How do you don't know? Don't you love me at all? Understand me? Why you're making me feel that I'm the one who is wrong for everything. Don't you ever understand me? Can you at least stand by my side? Especially right now, when I really need you the most".

A tear finally escaped from his eyes and broke her heart even more. This was not what she wanted. She did not want to hurt anyone including him too.

"Don't cry..." Her voice barely could be heard as it was very weak. Like it truly came from her heart.

His gaze fixed perfectly at her again, hopeful eyes.

"Please give me some space and time. I will think about it" She turned and went to her room. His eyes followed her figure. His feet were too heavy to stop her from turning her back on him. Right after she closed the door, a moan escaped from his lips with a river of tears.

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