Chapter 18

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"So what was so extremely and utterly
important that we were forced out of our beds and into this lovely living room" Lauren spoke, as she walked inside and stood before me.

"No real shit I'm jet lagged like a mother fucker" miracle added.

"Shut up your a model traveling Is what you do and it's only la to Texas" I said.

"Early as shit is early as shit and I don't do good with either" she said, flopping on to be couch.

"Ok well you need to do, be, and think good right now" I said.

"Today has been a roller coaster of emotions, after waking up vomiting I realized that something is truly wrong with my body" I said.

"As I sat in that cold bathroom floor I realized that this feeling of being tired, the lack of eating, and the loss of the ability to keep food in my stomach has been experienced".

"When I checked the calendar it confirmed my suspicion of what was happening".

"After I panicked a little I realized that before I do anything I needed to confirm what I was thinking".

"So I rushed out to the store and back home with a little brown paper bag that contained a pregnancy test".

"I sat on the floor for hours just starring at the box and what those results could mean".

"I worked up the courage and finally peed on the stick".

" I then waited sitting on the bathroom sink, starring at the wall trying to prepare myself for what that stick might say" I continued.

I paused look at miracle and lauryen on the edge of anticipation and utter shock.

"I'm pregnant" I finally spoke.

Lauryen and Miracles mouths dropped open as I finally unleashed the bomb.

No one said nothing as we looked from one another.

"is this a good thing or a bad" miracle, finally spoke hesitantly.

"Good" I whispered, as I choked on my tears and smiled.

"Omg yasssssssss" Lauren screamed.

"Congrats I'm so happy for you baby" miracle quickly added, with enthusiasm.

"Are you ok" Lauren spoke.

"I mean at first I was was scared as shit I don't want......... " I paused.

"I don't want to go through that again I can't deal with that again loosing tylean damn near broke me and I think about her everyday and I still feel like I'm grieving but I do want this baby" I said.

"We support you girl you already know we here for the whole journey" miracle said.

"Yes girl" Lauren added.

"Thanks I love y'all" I smiled at them.

Lauren came and sat beside me while miracle reached over and we embraced each other in a hug.

" sooooo ummm ty" miracle asked,as we pulled apart.

"Yes" I said.

"Who's the father" she asked.

"Well ummm.......well ummm" I stuttered.

"I don't know" I blurted.

" I've had sex with both j and scrap it could be either one" I said, ashamed.

"Oh damn" Lauren spoke.

"Oh shit" miracle spoke.

" I'm such a hoe I feel like a girl on Maury" I said, throwing my face into my hands.

"That's the least of your worries baby we all know you fucking both, hell they know, who wouldn't, your problem lies with, you having a child by two very psycho, over protective,powerful niggas" miracle said.

"Bitch pray for a solution and one that doesn't end with one of them dead" Lauren chimed in.

"Well after I found out I thought a lot about what I was going to do and I've been thinking not to tell either one of them" I spoke.

The room feel quiet again as everyone took in my statement.

I looked from Lauren to miracle, both of their faces plastered with shock.

"Have you lost your fucking mind, they would kill you" miracle spoke, a seriousness behind her eyes.

"I don't care I lost my........" I paused, taking  note of the soft spot in my heart reserved for tylean.

We all took a moment to remember the sweet child we lost so soon.

"I will not lose this baby due to the selfishness of others, this baby is mine and I'm gonna protect him or her like I should have for tylean" I spoke.

"Ty you know that wasn't your fault" miracle tried to reassure me.

"Maybe not from the outside looking in but being on the inside you can't imagine creating something so pure and precious and having  such a love for this little creature that's everything good in you and then having it taken away from the you like that because of a complication during your pregnancy a time when she was so close to me and I failed her" I spoke.

"Well how do you plan to pull that off your not a normal person, everyone knows who you are and it will get  back to J and you know he's gonna ask questions, plus scrap is not just gonna let you go either and he has connect like J he'll find out" Lauren said.

"Well J may not be to concerned" miracle scoffed with irritation.

"What's that supposed to mean" I said, turning to her.

Miracle looked away from me, avoiding eye contact.

"Miracle" I called out.

"I was waiting for the right time to tell you but I'm guessing this is the time to get it all out" miracle said, looking hesitant.

Me and Lauren looked at her begging for answers for her behavior.

"When I was in La I was staying at this hotel, when I was getting into an elevator I saw a couple kissing at first I thought they looked familiar but when they finally saw me I realized it was J and shi" she paused, allowing me to take in the information.

"You know I'm not coming to you till I got facts so I flirted my way into getting a room servant to tell me who was staying on the top floor because we all know J is going to stay in the best, and sure enough he told me jalen Williams and some pretty Mexican chick he said every time they leave the room they hugged up or holding hands like a honeymooning couple" miracle continued.

"That confirmed j but I still didn't know for sure if the girl was shi or not, until the next day when I talked to the bell hop and he told me that the name on the girls bags what's shiana"

The room fell quite as two sets of eyes fastened on me waiting for my reaction.

"Huh" I scoffed with a hint of a laugh in my tone.

I stood off the couch and began to walked toward my bedroom.

"Ty what are you doing" miracle asked as her and Lauren followed close behind me.

"Nothing I shouldn't be" I spoke  as I marched into my bedroom searching for my cell phone.

I spotted it between my disseveled blankets and grabbed it quickly.

I unlocked the phone and began to dial Q in seconds.

"Wassup ty" he answered on the first ring.

I shifted my weight to one side pooping my hip on and resting my free hand on it.

Lauren and miracle stood in the door frame watching me closely.

"nothing much I had to pick some stuff up from Js house but I really don't want to run into him is he home" I asked.

"Damn yeah he is" he spoke, sympathetically.

"Ugh fuck ok I'll just get it another time then it ain't that important" I spoke, nonchalantly.

"Aye I can get it for you if you want me to" he offered.

"Nah I don't want him getting no ideas cause you doing me a favor, you know how he can have all the cake but we can't get a slice" I retorted.

"Ummm yeah save the drama I feel it" he replied.

"Alright I'll talk to you later and you better be bing good out there" I said.

Q chuckled on the other end of the phone " always always" he spoke, then we said bye and ended the call.

"What was hat about" Lauren asked looking confused.

"You are not" miracle spoke catching on already.

"Ha watch me" I said, walking toward my closet to throw something on.

"Wait what I'm lost" Lauren spoke.

"She about to go over there she just called Q to make sure J was home and she lied to throw him off so he didn't warn him" miracle informed her.

"Damn that was smart" Lauren said.

"Don't encourage her" miracle shot back.

"I don't need it y'all don't understand I choose J,my dumb ass was gone trot myself back into the snake pit with that fucker despite everything despite me having a man who cares for me and was ready to be there for me and J rejected me said that he wanted to let me go cause all he do is hurt me and this ducking bastered as the nerve to fuck that burrito border hopping toco munching back stabbing bitch in my motherfuckinf city" I roared with anger.

(To all the latinos sorry for the insult I'm not racist it's for the story i love y'all I got a Latino ex who I used to love and several friends that's are like family)

"Ty calm down" Lauren spoke.

"I am very he is just going to hear me I want him to fell this hurt to hear hurt and see this hurt" I gritted through my theeth.

I emerged from my closet with black Spandex Nike shorts and a Pink Floyd t shirt.

"Well your not going alone" miracle said, turning and walking out the room quickly.i

"Yup we all rolling" Lauren said, following.

Within minutes we were all dressed downstairs in the car headed toward Js house.

"Ty just be calm remember the baby" Lauren spoke as she drove because she was the calmest of us.

"I promise this will be the last time I have a situation like this with him" I said, more to my baby than anyone else.

We quickly arrived at J's house and we got out discreetly.

I walked to the door with miracle and Lauren behind me.

I slowly open the door with an old key I had and entered quietly.

" your stupid" shi spoke, from a distance while j laughed along with her.

I sighed out deeply and walked down the hall towards the sounds of the voices.

"Mmmmm what a beautiful couple" I spoke, as I rounded the corner and spotted them in the kitchen.

Both of their faces flushed of color and they froze speechless.

"See the crazy thing about you being this almighty power with your little spies running around the city telling you things is that I have one or two of my own, and you are much easier to spot" I said, smiling.

They looked at me shocked as to what I was doing there or talking about.

"So how was  you guys baeca " I asked.

"Ty" J began to speak.

"You are truly the sack of shit I've always thought you were you lying fucking bastard" I snapped at him cutting his dialogue off.

Oh shut the fuck up you lying bastard" I snapped at him.

"Shi" I said, snapping my head toward her.

"how was your baca, did you enjoy your stay in my lovely city" I asked.

I walked closer into the kitchen and propped myself up so that I sat on the counter facing them.

"What's so funny is that I spent so many nights and conversations talking about the place I was born and raised" I spoke.

"How beautiful it was, the little things that I loved and missed so much how wanted to show the both of you a place that had so much to deal with me" I said.

"Oh the wonderful look in your eyes shi, as I described place so colorful and different from this".

"Ty I can explain" she spoke getting teary eyed.

I quickly cut her off before she could continue

"What's even funnier is that I really thought you let me go because you cared J, I thought he's finally getting his shit together and seeing me for me" I said.

"You just found something better to move on to" I added.

"Ive always said y'all was fucking,  that you were a back stabbing low blow bitch and that of course you are the foul ass nigga that you are but I never quite believed it you know"

" in my heart I thought he would never cross the line like that and hurt me, I thought she would never cross the line like that, I mean surly they learned there lesson" I spoke.

"Clearly they would not bring such pain, anguish, and shame to me again and making even worse seeing how close I was to shi" I said, looking from her to him.

"But clearly I was wrong" I yelled! Reaching for a glass on he counter and chucking it toward them.

The contents of the glass splashed wildly through the hair as I swished past there heads and they ducked.

The glass shattered on the wall behind them spilling the last of the juice onto the wall.

"What the fuck" j screamed, as he stood back up. I'm

Everyone feel silent as the juice trailed down the wall.

I jumped off the counter and stormed past my friends leaving.

As I reached the door I went to grab the handle.

I suddenly was turned around by a strong force and my eyes meet J's.

"Let me just explain Ty" j stammered.

I reached up and touched his cheek, trailing my fingers down his jaw line I looked deeply into his eyes.

"I choose you, I wanted you j because when I was with scrap and I realized that a life with him meant no you something inside me ached I realized that under that pain and hurt i still was deeply and madly in love with you I remembered your smile in the airport I remembered you persistence at school i remembered when we made love I remembered when you stood by me I remembered when I stood by you I remembered almost loosing you and I remembered the baby we made and I didn't want to stop remembering and I didn't just want those memories I want more but instead you crushed me and rejected me and took all that away from me so you could remember another I cried for you J but I won't cry anymore have a nice life

I turned and walked away out the front door this time j not stoping me.

Lauren and miracle followed behind me and we got into the car and drove off.

{J} POV

I stood there long after the tires of the car no longer sounded on the pavement.

I starred at the ground thinking about what ty had said.

I turned and walked back into the kitchen the glass of the cup ty threw still askew on the floor and the wall still wet with juice.

I walked around to the sliding door to find shi sitting beside the pool with her feet in the water.

I stepped out into the back yard and walked over to her.

I deep sighed and took a seat beside her.

"I'm sorry for that shi" I finally spoke.

"I would say it's not your fault but in truth it is but it's mine to" she spoke.

"She loved you so much J more than she would even let herself believe and I knew that and I witnessed that and I do this" shi spoke, her voice shaking.

"Who says you don't get to love like that" I asked.

"Your right I should get to love like that but of all people I chose to love you" she said, looking at me with red eyes.

"And that's something neither one of us can help so we need to embrace it, hurts to hurt her but it hurts to not let us try this out" I reassured her.

Looking up at me I can tell she wants to believe me but I don't know if she will let herself.

Shi rested her head on my arm and we watched the water of the pool ripple with the breeze in deep thought.

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