{J} POV

After finishing his drink scrap stood shaking my hand goodbye and leaving me and shi alone.

"You ready" shi asked, as she looked at me.

"Not really" I said, poring me more alcohol into my cup.

"What's wrong" she said, looking concerned.

"I just don't want to go back to that hotel and be left alone with my thoughts to" I said.

"What's going on J" she asked.

"Everything is just real fucked up right now shi" I responded.

"Well j sitting here in the club and getting drunk ain't the way to deal with it" she said.

"And what do you suggest" I asked, sarcastically.

"J don't start that shit"

"What" I asked.

"Don't start being an ass in efforts to push me away" she said, her eyes filling with the emotions she was feeling.

I sighed deeply and sat my glass down on the table.

"Alright, Alright lets go then" I said, giving in to her.

Shi smiled with triumph and stood to her feet.

I stood up and we both began to make our exit out of the club.

Within an hour we were back in my suit.

Shi sat on the couch rubbing her feet as she removed her heels.

"So tell me whats going on" she spoke as she begun to relax.

"I gave her up" i finally spoke, sitting beside her.

"What do you mean" she said.

"I told her that I wasn't gonna fight for her anymore, that I would let the relationship die" I answered.

"But why after going through all you have been through". she asked.

"The day ty popped up at the house we started to talk and I just opened my eyes to a lot of the shit that has happened to her solely because of me" I said.

"Just thinking about all the shit I've done and caused her made me feel sick and nasty, it really tore me up shi"

Shi looked at me and listened intently as I continued.

"Ty didn't even go to her graduation ceremony because of me she didn't go to college and get her career because me".

"We lost our child because of me".

"J tylean was neither of you guys fault firstly and she was a blessing that happened because of both of you" shi began to speak.

"Yes you guys have been through a lot of shit because of your lifestyle and ways but ty knew what she was getting herself into"

"Cause she knew doesn't mean she deserved it" i interjected.

"J you can't take all the blame and beat yourself up about it" she spoke.

"That's why I'm letting her go to stop putting her and I through pain and suffering" I said.

Shi looked at me for a second then smiled "That's matte of you to think that way, your growing and I'm proud of you" she said.

I chuckled and answered "Thanks".

"But will you be ok" she asked with clear concern in her eyes.

"To be honest not really,  but in time I will be especially knowing she is going to be ok" I spoke being truly honest with my feelings.

Shi looked as if she was going to speak but her lips tighten closed and she said nothing.

We sat on the couch in the quiet just thinking .

{Ty} POV

I climbed back into the black Maybach for what seemed the hundredth time that day.

Every house this women has showed me today has not been the right one for scrap.

I've been paying attention to each detail from the drive way to the back yard.

Truth is I've been using scraps house hunting as a distraction.

This is a win win situation if you ask me, scrap will get the perfect house and I get to burry my problems in return.

The driver began to drive a few blocks down then turned onto another driveway.

The pavement began to turn into beautiful intricate cobble stone lush greenery lined the driveway all the way up  to a brick estate.

I was astonished at the simplicity yet beauty it had, modern yet classic.

The car came to a stop and the driver quickly exited to open my door.

I took the moment to look around.

The driver appeared at my window and opened the door I exited the vehicle straightening my clothing as I emerged.

I looked closer at the property.

The lush landscape allowed a fragrant burst of flowers to escape into the air, which made me get feeling that this was truly a home and not just a house.

"Soooo" the realtor spoke, as she emerged from her own car and walked towards me.

"So far I love it, it definitely fits what he's looking for" I said,

She smiled and I could see the relief in her eyes and the hope that the inside of the house would  uphold to my liking.

"Let's take a look inside" she spoke, taking the lead into he house.

She toured me throughout the house and landscape then bringing me back to the front door.

We exited the house out onto the driveway, where our cars sat.

"this is the one" I spoke.

"Oh great I'll let him know" she said.

"For a second I thought I would never find one" she added.

"Sorry for being such a critic but I just want everything to be perfect for him" I responded.

"It's ok it understandable I'm just happy we finally found the one" she spoke.

I gave her a small smile "Well is there anything else that needs to be done on my part" I asked.

"No I'll communicate with him at this point and get him the paperwork he needs" she spoke.

"Alright, well if there is anything else feel free to call me and thank you for time and patience" I said.

"No problem" she spoke.

We shook hands briefly then parted ways to our separate vehicles.

{J} POV

I tossed and turned throughout the night thinking about the decision I had made.

I miss ty already and this choice is proving harder than I expected it to be.

I just keep thinking about her, how much I love her and how much she said she loved me.

I poured me some coffee into a mug and walked out to the balcony to get some air and think.

I keep questioning whether I made the right decision and it driving me crazy.

"J" a yell came from inside the suite.

"Out here" I yelled back.

Shi suddenly appeared as she walked towards the balcony doors.

"How you sleep" she spoke as she stepped outside.

"Not good but I'll love" I said.

"Well I slept great" she smiled.

"Well sprinkle some of that enthusiasm on me" I said.

"It's gonna be ok j you'll get through this" she spoke becoming serious.

"I know I just need a distraction right now, something to ease my mind"

As I looked at her I could see the wheels turning over in her head as she thought of a place we could go.

I then same her face brighten and her eyes popped as the idea became clear in her mind.

She smiled as she stood pulling out her phone.

Shi began to walk toward the door with a mischievous look.

"Secrets" I said, giving her a side eye as my own sly smile played on my lips.

"Just sit back and relax I got you" she said, and I compiled.