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There's been such a dramatic drop in active voters and commenters, super sad! But I appreciate you guys for staying :)

sorry for spelling errors this chap is way too long to proof read as I've got to go out
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The walk down to the beach was kind of tense. Luca was obviously a bit fatigued, and wasn't in the best of moods.

It also felt even more like we were being babysat. Mainly because Luca was older and less friendlier than Aaron.

The others kept on looking at their phones, apart from Nate and I because mine was broken, and Aaron had his.

Nate eventually slowed down and walked next to me making me grit my teeth awkwardly.

"Um, I'm sorry by the way." He said quietly and I forced myself to look at him.

"About....what?" I asked stiffly.

"I was being a bit manipulative by making you drink all that alcohol. I mean, it would have been my fault if you had drowned so, yeah, my bad." He apologised and I raised a brow at him.

"Apology accepted I guess, although I'm not that sure I would have drowned."

"Are you kidding me? That's why I said we shouldn't go outside. Do you know how many drunk people drown every year? A lot. You should really thank Aaron, he saved your life." He ranted and I made a face.

"Uhh, well, that's comforting."

"I mean, I totally would have tried save you, but I would have just drowned as well, so I couldn't help, sorry." He excused and I scoffed and shook my head at him.

"Well, I appreciate the thought."

"I mean, there was one point he surfaced without you because he couldn't find you in the dark. And I was like 'shit I'm a murderer', but then he found you. Lucky really." He continued and I made an even more disturbed face.

"Uhh, okay."

"Like shit man, I was scared even though I was completely out of it, don't know how Alex and Aaron must have felt."

"Okay Nate I get it."

"Damn, imagine if we couldn't find you and then your body just washed up in the mor-"

"Nate." I huffed at him and he started laughing.

Luca sighed. "Aaron obviously can't look after you all very well." He commented with a frown and I glared at him.

"Your opinion on 'looking after' is actually 'imprisonment' so you can't say anything. Besides, none of us are minors anymore it's not his responsibility to control what we do. Most of us take responsibility for our own actions instead of looking for someone else to blame like you." I fired and he looked taken aback.

The only sound was footsteps and gulls for a few moments.

"Hangovers amirite?" Alex eventually commented and I sighed as we reached the wall of the port.

I stayed standing angrily with my arms crossed on the wall while the others made their way down onto the beach.

Shit, I am moodier than usual.

I watched Luca just lean with his arms crossed against a boulder, while the others started climbing over the large rocks and small ledges.

"Fuck! Asshole!" Hunter's voice sounded from around a rock, and Alex squeeked a moment later after the sound of something splatting.

"No going in the water!" Luca called after them, and sighed.

I jumped down from the wall and then slowly made my way along the beach while watching him.

He seemed to contrast against the younger brothers a lot, and I failed to believe age was the only reason for that. He probably won't age well with the rate he's going.

His almost curly blonde hair moved restlessly in the seaside wind as he stared ahead of him with a worried expression.
He looked like he was grieving, wearing a black coat and a solemn face, and I felt a flush of cold guilt travel up my chest.

I hate the way I feel about him. I want to hate him. I want to never look back.

But here I find myself leaning next to him, wanting to pardon him of everything he's done and go back to the way things were.

Ugh, I'm so pathetically desperate for affection.

He didn't say anything as he almost glared at the sea, but I could tell he knew I was there by the way his head tilted towards me.

I blushed at my inability to speak before staring at the sand with furrowed brows.

What do I even say.

"I'm sorry." He eventually spoke up, and I felt my heart pound in my chest.

You're stronger than this.

"It's going to take a lot more than that." I forced myself to say calmly, and his pale eyes turned to look at me completely.

I feel like I haven't seen his face in years.

He opened his mouth then sighed, and frowned. "I..." Another sharp exhale. "I thought, that it was the right thing to do."

It could have been, I can't imagine what would have happened otherwise.

They would all have left, I'd live with my father. And what he had done to me would still be a secret. Maybe he would have done it again.

Maybe I would have ran away, lived on the streets. Maybe I would have ended it.

"I wonder," I spoke after a few moments of silence, staring at the rocks. "That maybe, I had decided to hate you in that moment, because I needed someone to blame. Someone I wasn't scared to blame like...Matias. Someone I could punish and get some power back from." I pondered, and his green eyes flickered between my own, searching, hoping.

"Maybe I am a hypocrite for pushing you away. But, I also started doing that for a reason."

His expression tightened, listening intently.

"I was attracted to your kindness, and your strength. But deep down I knew from the start why I was really pushed towards you, and when I realised we'd gotten too close it scared me." I took in a deep breath. "You remind me a lot, of someone I used to know. In the end, it's because you care more, and you want to protect me. But the way you held me back, and isolated me from everyone, it reminded me of..." I let out a sharp breath, and stared at the sand.

"...of Finn." He finished the sentence for me and I snapped my head up to look at him. He looked disturbed, almost horrified, but he didn't get angry, just gulped and put his head down.

"I know I try to control too much, I get scared, if things don't go my way. But I didn't mean...to treat you like you were a possession or anything."

"No, I understand, you weren't aiming to be manipulative. But, you stole my passport and forged my signature Luca. You know that's wrong don't you?"

"Yes. I knew it was wrong when I did it. I knew you'd hate me. But I didn't want you to suffer. And I wanted... justice. I didn't want him to get away with it."

I sighed and stared at the waves. I didn't know what to say.

He huffed when I didn't say anything and stared at his lap. His eyes were tired, stressed, and I couldn't even imagine what a smile would look like on him anymore.

He is always so worried, and stressed. I wish he would just take some weight off of his shoulders, just for a little bit. I want to stop his suffering, I want him to feel better.

I couldn't ignore the feeling I had when I looked at him, how I knew I was pleased he was here.

But I couldn't ignore how dangerous this affection could be. And I definitely couldn't ignore the fact he wasn't the only one I felt this way towards.

I let that thought go. I didn't want to contemplate who or how many people I held feelings for.  I couldn't. I couldn't face it yet.

"I forgive you, Luca." I said despite myself, and he looked up at me.

He wasn't stupid, he stared for a while, calculating my sincerity, before seemingly concluding I was sincere, enough at least, and sighing with a smile.

"I hope you forgive me completely one day." He said, and I opened my mouth to protest, before just smiling at him.

I looked down when I felt his hand over mine, then let him entwine our fingers. He smiled at me before lifting our hands up and kissing the back of my hand making me blush.

I forced myself to stand up and pull away from him, before walking over to the others.

"Holy fuck..." Was the only thing I could say when Alex turned to face me. He was completely covered in wet sand.

"Hunter did it. They're having a fight." Caleb explained, with a single splat mark on his chest.

"Who with? Alex?"

I jumped when a sand ball came zooming past me then struggled to look for the culprit. Nate was using a rock for cover with a determined expression on his face.

"Umm."

"Take this asshole!" Hunter suddenly appeared from behind a ledge with an old sun-bleached bucket, and threw the contents at Nate.

"Dickhead!" He complained before running and tackling him.

"Fuck you!" Hunter huffed before getting a chunk of sand in his mouth.

"Uh, they're a bit passionate for a sandball fight, aren't they?" I wondered in concern and Alex sighed.

"I don't know, they're fighting about something, these days you lose track."

Hunter hit Nate round the side of the head with the empty bucket and I hissed.

"Uhh, guys, maybe tone it down a little?" I suggested but it fell on deaf ears.

"What's your fucking problem asshole!" Nate shouted before shoving more sand at his face while straddling him.

"Get off of me! You know exactly what my problem is! Or would you like me to tell everyone!"

"Not that idiot, I mean what's your problem mentally you fuckin dimwit!!" He called before getting shoved off.

Hunter crawled ontop of him and was about to slap him before making an odd choking noise when he was tugged upwards by his coat collar.

Luca lifted him off of him and looked between them.

"What the hell are you two doing?"

"He started it!" Nate exclaimed while nursing his sore cheek.

Luca released Hunter from his grip and he sighed angrily before storming passed me.

I frowned before offering Nate my hand.

"You were antagonizing him a lot to be honest." Alex defended as I lifted him up.

"He's threatening me!" Nate huffed and I frowned at him before gasping when I was slapped right in the face with wet sand.

"Hunter! That's very dangerous!" Luca growled as I wiped it off.

"Oops, missed, I guess." He said and I glared at him.

"Right." I growled before reaching down and scooping up a handful of sand.

"Riley, don't you dare!!" Luca warned before I hurled the ball towards Hunter's face. There was a massive thwacking sound as it hit him on the forehead, and I grit my teeth in concern as he fell back on his arse.

"Jesus..." He exclaimed, blinking a little before glaring at me.

"No, stop!" Luca stood in the way as Hunter gathered more sand up and suddenly got pummeled by sand in the back of the head.

I gasped and my jaw dropped before I looked back to see Nate with wide eyes.

"Uh, I, oops. Sorry." He mumbled in fear and I turned around to see Luca glaring at him.

Caleb starting stepping backwards and Alex chuckled awkwardly.

"Luca, seriously, it was an acci- OOF." He doubled over after being hit in the stomach and I blinked in confusion.

I yelped after being hit in the neck moments later, and cringed as I felt it travel down my shirt.

"No, help!" Hunter ran behind a rock in panic as Luca followed him with a sandball in his hand.

Holy shit.

I snickered before gathering up more sand and running after them.

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Aaron stared at us with a blank expression as we all stood in the entrance way.

"I..." He started, then sighed and went silent.

"What...What happened?" He asked, and Luca pointed at Hunter.

"He started it."

Aaron just blinked, utterly bewildered. He stared at his older brother in a state of shocked confusion.

"I don't understand." He eventually said, with a look of pain on his face.

"Well Luca obviously can't look after us all very well." I threw Luca's earlier comment back at him and Alex sniggered.

"I'll clean it up, don't worry." Luca reassured him before passing him.

I smiled at him as everyone dispersed and went for their rooms.

"Sorry."

I became confused at his reaction when he just went slightly red and avoided eye contact.

"Well, as long as no one is hurt." He said while staring at the wall.

"Are you okay?"

He mumbled something incoherent and then coughed awkwardly before suddenly leaving.

I've never seen someone so confused before, unless there's something else going on?

Okay...

I shrugged it off before climbing the ladder into my room.

Nate was in their cursing to himself and looking angry.

"He's got some nerve." He eventually said as I took my sand covered clothes off and I looked at him in confusion.

"Who?"

"Hunter!" He said, and I rolled my eyes.

"Oh, that."

"He's blackmailing me!" He said and I gave him a sceptical look.

"Threatening to expose your porn stash is he." I teased as I dusted the sand off of my chest and he scoffed.

"I wish!"

I paused and stared at him.

"Then what?"

"What do you think?"

"How would I know."

"Think." He persisted and I took a few moments before turning round and trying to find some tracksuit bottoms.

"Oh."

"Yeah." He huffed dramatically.

"He wouldn't, he's bluffing." I reassured him, trying to act normal.

Wow okay now I feel like I did something real bad.

Where the fuck is my jumper?

This room is too small!!

"Well I'm not apologizing!" He ranted then when silent. "You're avoiding me." He stated after a few moments.

"Am I?" I responded while still searching for my top.

"Do you hate me?"

"What? No."

"You certainly didn't seem like you hated me last night." He carried on and I bit my lip.

"Sush."

"Are we going to pretend it didn't happen?"

"Yes." I said bluntly. "We were wasted."

"Alcohol doesn't make the desire appear it has to be there in the first place."

"Nate can you wait till I've got changed before we talk about this?"

"No because you'll leave."

"You got me." I quickly slipped on my jumper before standing up.

He stood up as well and I tensed. We just stared at eachother in silence and I eventually clicked my tongue.

"K...well, bye." I said before stepping to leave but he suddenly grabbed my jumper and pulled my face towards his.

"O-okay..." I turned away from him slightly as he frowned at me.

"Are you playing games with me?"

"No..."

"Then why are you being so indecisive?"

"Uh, about what?"

"I know you kissed Hunter once." He stated and I made a face.

"Oh. Okay."

"He waved it in my face a few hours ago, are you going out?"

"Umm, nope. This is really awkward could you perhaps-"

"Do you like him?"

"I mean he's alright..."

He opened his mouth to say something then seemingly changed his mind.

"Okay..."

He let my jumper go and I stood back.

"Great...can I go now?" I wondered and then he practically lunged forward making me jump and fall backwards onto the bed.

"You'd kiss me right?" He asked as he pressed me against the bed. "I mean, you don't hate me do you? Am I ugly to you?"

"What? Hey that's a loaded question I can't exactly say no can I?" I complained and he huffed.

"So you don't like me..."

"Bitch, I didn't say that, sure I'm attracted to you but this is a very bad idea." I panicked and he frowned.

"Is anything like this ever a good idea?" He smirked, attitude back and I gave him a look.

"Get off of me hoe."

He smiled before leaning down near my face and I gulped.

"You're not scared of me are you?" He said quietly.

"No..."

"And you like me?"

"...Yes."

"Then..." He leaned down and kissed the side of my neck. "What's the problem..." He muttered before trailing down my neck slightly and I took in a sharp breath.

"Umm..."
He lifted a hand underneath my jumper and trailed it up my stomach, and I closed my eyes as my cheeks burned red.

He licked and bit at my skin making me huff and lose my breath.

He raised his head and stared into my eyes, before tracing his other hand over my cheek.

He then gently nipped at my lip, and I sighed breathlessly before moving my own lips over his and sucking on it.

"Hmm." He smiled against me before running his tongue along my lip and I lifted my head to get closer.

I angled my head slightly before moving my lips in time with his, and letting his tongue into my mouth.

Hot damn...

His hand started moving down, and I gripped the sheets when he slipped it under my breifs.

Unfortunately this made my bag fall off of the bed with a loud thud, and I jumped up in shock making our heads clash.

"Ah, ow." He laughed while holding his head and cringing.

"What are you two doing up there!?" Luca's voice called making my eyes widen and my face go even hotter.

"I just dropped a bag, damn!!" Nate called as he stood up and I let out a breath.

Thin walls...

I tried to defluster myself and pulled my jumper down as he opened the door and then climbed down the ladder without looking at me.

Shit...

Why did I do that.

I took a few moments to catch my breath, and then sighed and climbed down the ladder.

Aaron seemed to be still avoiding me when I entered the kitchen curiously. He just visibly tensed and pretended to be interested in some carrots.

What is wrong with this man this evening?

"Something's bothering you." I stated bluntly, and placed my hand on the counter next to him sternly.

He stayed silent, taking in a breath before looking at me. His gaze flicked between my eyes seriously for a few moments.

"I'm sorry, I don't want to lie or anything. But I don't really want to talk about it..." He sighed.

"But it's effecting the way you react to me and it's making me feel bad." I forced myself to be honest and he cringed.

"Ah, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to. I'm just frustrated over something, it's not really something that's your fault." He explained, and took another deep breath before smiling. "I'll be fine."

I pursed my lips and narrowed my eyes at him.

"Oops, wrong word, I mean I'll be okay." He chuckled, and I decided to let it go.

"Are you okay?" He changed the subject and I sighed.

"Yes, I guess..."

"You spoke to Luca?"

"Yeah..."

"And?"

"We're okay... kinda"

"Kinda?"

"We're fine."

"Oh, I see. Fine." He smirked and I smiled.

I suspected that, despite the fact he was trying to make me make up with Luca, implying I hadn't really would make him feel better, so I left it at that.

I noticed that he was kind of facing away from me, and moved his hand away from mine on the counter.

He's avoiding being near me...

Do I look diseased or something?

Between a few hours ago and now something's happened.

Maybe he really hates sand.

Yep, that's it.

I smirked to myself before deciding to leave him alone and went into the living room.

Ever since Luca came Aaron's been hiding out in the kitchen. I think there's something going on here, they either hate each other or have a reason they're not getting on at the moment.

Which means Aaron must have been really uncomfortably stressed to have called him.

I kind of feel like the older brothers put too much pressure on him, asking him to take us all to an unknown part of an unknown

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