"Little rush then you run. Tell me you want me but, too busy acting tough. Just a touch and you're gone. Swear that you need me here. But you give in to fear."

Chapter Theme Song: 'Rebel' by Nikki Flores.

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Chelsy

As soon as we were home, I stormed out of the car angrily and ran up the steps to my house. Max rolled his eyes and ruffled his hair.

"Chelsy, wait!" My mom yelled after me but I was too upset to obey her at that moment.

I wasn't in the mood for her lectures right now. I knew she would bring up the stupid boyfriend-ban and considering the sickening fact that Shelly made Nathan and I sleeping together so public, she was going to throw a fit about my broken hymen.

I wasn't in the mood for it. Not when I possibly just lost my boyfriend because of my irrational and utterly controlling brother.

I ran into my room, slammed the door shut in anger and crashed onto my bed, putting the pillow over my head and crying profusely.

Did this mean that Nathan and I were over?

How would I be able to cope with that?

I seriously hated Max for hitting him, he didn't deserve that. All of this was my fault, Nathan didn't want to deceive him, I was the one who practically begged him to be with me after all.

I recalled the different occasions Nathan told me we couldn't do this and I insisted, practically throwing myself at him.

I sat up and pushed my hair back, wiping my eyes and pulling my cell from my pockets.

I dialed Nathan's number and pressed it to my ear.

It wrung a few times but no answer. I cursed under my breath and tried again but got the exact same results.

My door knocked, followed my mother's voice "Chelsy please we need to talk!"

"I want to be alone, Mom!" I cried, holding my forehead and deciding that I should probably shoot Nathan a text instead.

*Please pick up. Let's talk ;-(

-Chelsy

I heard her footsteps move away from the door but my only focus was on Nathan responding to my message. I jerked my legs anxiously as my eyes darted to his room. His blinds were closed.

Was he home?

Did he get back safely?

My phone dinged and I quickly took it up and read the message.

*I need time.

-Nathan

He needed time?

What does that even mean? Did that mean we were over?

I quickly typed up a response.

*Are you breaking up with me? Please don't ;-(

-Chels

Tears left my eyes as I was writing those words. I was never the clingy type but I wasn't sure how I would live without Nathan if he ever decided to leave me. My heart would be shattered to a million pieces.

He became my first love because I realized what I felt with Brad was nothing like this.

I waited and waited and waited.

No reply came.

Night fell and he still hadn't texted back, I ended up falling asleep beside my phone with tear-stains on my cheeks.

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Nathan

I stared at the message Chelsy sent.

Are you breaking up with me? Please don't ;-(

I sighed.

I wasn't going to break up with her, I just figured Max obviously needed some time to accept us. He was shocked and I could understand that, I would have been too but I didn't want to hang around while he was still that mad. I needed to give him space to clear his head.

I rested the phone down on my bed and stared up at the ceiling.

I missed Chelsy already and I was remorseful that I ruined my friendship with my best friend.

He won't ever forgive me. Maybe if I hadn't slept with her he would have easily turned a blind eye to my deception, but the fact that we went that far was enough for him to detest me for life.

But if I was completely honest with myself, I didn't regret sleeping with her. That moment was the best experience of my life and I wouldn't trade it for anything...maybe not even my friendship. As harsh as that sounded.

My door knocked and I got up with a sigh and moved toward it.

It was probably my mom wanting to question me about what happened earlier.

Since she got back I had been avoiding her questions, I just did not want to talk about it right now.

"Mom please-" I broke off when I saw Shelly, her arms folded against her chest with a smile. "Hi, Nathan."

I hissed and attempted to close it when she pushed past me and into my room.

I turned to her angrily. "Out."

"Why?" She sat on my bed and folded her legs and only then had I noticed she was wearing a white robe.

"Do you have any idea what the fuck you just did? Max didn't derseve to find out that way! How could you be so selfish? You ruined everything!"

"Yes I know and I am frigging happy if you ask me," she said, standing to her feet again and approaching me. "Because if I can't have you Nathan Sharles, no one fucking can. Especially Chelsy, it's funny of you to choose her over me!"

Shelly was lucky she was a woman because at this moment I honestly felt like killing her.

I folded my hands in balled fists at my sides, I wouldn't use it on her, but the wall maybe. "I already told you why, she has morals and dignity."

"Yes moral and dignity to fuck her loving brother's best friend," she chuckled, "Some dignity."

Oh, so those words had little to no effect on her this time, well maybe I needed to turn it up a notch.

"She has more than you, she needs not to throw herself at anyone Shelly like what you're doing now."

I noticed her face fell a little and I smirked inwardly.

Success.

I turned away and she gripped my arm and pulled me back. "I don't care if I lack dignity to you! I will throw it all away for you."

I pulled my arm away and sighed. "You will never stop, will you?"

"No, I won't. I just want one thing, and if you give it to me at least I will have something to hold onto..."

I narrowed my eyes and she began tugging at her robe.

My eyebrows knit in confusion.

What the hell was she doing?

As soon as I caught onto what her intention was, I looked away quickly and blinked as her robe pooled into a pile at her feet.

What the fu-

She stood naked infront of me but I kept my gaze on the wall and blew my cheeks out in disbelief.

"What the hell are you doing?"

And even in this situation, she still could not get a reaction or an erection out of me.

"What do you think? Your mom's not here and I know you're hurt about Chelsy, I can ease that pain, if you will just-"

"Put your clothes back on."

"Look at me."

"Shelly, put your clothes back on."

"Nathan am I not attractive enough? What? If looked like a pre-school student like Chelsy would you have rathered me?"

I sighed and held my forehead, my neck was starting to hurt from keeping my head in this position for so long just to avoid looking at her nude body.

"Maybe you should just respect yourself for starters, Shelly. I don't know who told you that stripping yourself in front of a guy makes you more attractive to him. It's sad for you to think that way."

She was silent and I knew she was probably offended or maybe embarrassed? But the words I spoke was truth. The fact that she went to that extent makes me wonder how fucked up her thoughts must have been.

I looked to the ground. "I am going for a walk," and I walked out of the room, shutting the door behind me.