"If they only knew, how to keep you safe like I kept you. How to speak the words they've never used, I wish they only knew. If they only saw the way my lips would shake when they met yours."

Chapter Theme Song: 'If They Only Knew' by Alfie Arcuri.

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Nathan

Damn.

Was I just about to kiss her just now?

How on earth could I have attempted to make that mistake?

I would only confuse her even more than she already was and drive myself even more insane.

Her lips were suicide and I knew that.

I know what you guys are thinking:

Why not just tell her the reason why you can't be with her?

I wanted to. But she would have gone as far as telling Max that I liked her and that he was the reason she couldn't be with me.

That would cause the issue to escalate in a nasty way. I knew how stubborn Chels could be so I decided not to expound on the reason.

I attended Jerome's party to forget about her and it so happened that she was there too with Brad at that, and then I knew I was never going to stop thinking about her tonight. I saw when she went upstairs with him and I automatically figured she was about to sleep with him. I couldn't make that happen so I went up there, kick the door down then collided my shoes with Brad's face before I pulled her up.

We argued then she told me she liked me. It was shocking and I felt the same but I knew I couldn't be with her so when she asked me if I felt the same, I held back. My hesitation hurt her, I saw it in her eyes and she got mad and left me standing there.

It was after ten in the night, and when I went back inside after her, I saw when she went upstairs to find Brad.

Based on how disappointed and confused her face looked when she came back downstairs, I knew he was nowhere to be found.

I looked outside and notice the jeep he drove was not there.

It bothered me when I saw Chelsy walking off the grounds of the house and treading down the street all by herself.

The place looked so dark and lonely and I was scared something would happen to her.

It bugged me for a good few minutes and I ended up telling Elizabeth that I had to run and asked one of her friends to drop her home.

She wasn't entirely happy about me leaving but she agreed after a while.

I hopped in my vehicle and drove down the street to see any signs of Chels.

Nothing angered me more than seeing a thick piece of shit hovering over her small form like a freaking spider while she lay helplessly on the sidewalk.

I wanted to kill his ass so I got out and wasted no time.

I ended up beating him to a pulp and pulled Chelsy away from the scene and into my car.

I already had to witness Brad being all over her and I hated having to see two similar scenes in one night. It was driving me mad.

It hurt me when she said she was not my type and that was why I didn't want to be with her but that was definitely not the case. I felt like kissing her to shut her up and show her how much she was wrong but I held back.

If only she knew that she was everything I wanted. I needed.

I wanted Chels to be mine, I wanted her so bad. But I couldn't and it killed me.