chapter 63✿

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I lay on my bed in tears over the encounter that happened with Luke just a few hours ago. I can't believe he's moving all the way to England. I understand that he wants to be with Liz but for God sake's, he's nineteen years old. I moved away from my father when I was only seventeen, and it was all to be with Luke. I gave up my whole regular life to be with Luke, and now he's just going to go and move halfway across the world?

Ben and Jack both moved out years ago and started families of their own. Why can't Luke get that opportunity? Why can't he be with the girl he loves just like they get to be?

I can't just wait around all year for him to come home every Christmas and summer. It's not fair to me and it's not fair to him. I wouldn't be able to live like that. But, at the same time, I don't think I could live being without him all together. I don't think I will ever be able to move on from Luke. He said I was it for him, well he is it for me. 

I shouldn't have broken up with him. Luke may be leaving soon, but that should be all the more reason to spend time together now, shouldn't it?

How in the world could I have told Luke to leave before my graduation? What the hell is wrong with me?

I shoot up out of bed and grab my bag. I run to my front door and slip on my black vans.

"Wait, May where are you going?" Michael asks.

Michael had called Luke after our whole fight, and Luke explained everything. Michael had sent Calum and Cora home because he said he just wanted to be alone. I was losing my boyfriend, but Michael was also losing his best friend. His brother.

"I need to go see Luke." I tell him quickly before I rush out the door.

I run all the way to Luke's house, and before I know it, i'm standing at his front door. But I can't bring myself to knock. What if he tells me we shouldn't be together? Because that is the smart thing to do. But I don't care about the smart thing to do. All I know is I want Luke. And if I can't be with him forever, I want to at least be with him for as long as I possibly can.

I finally bring myself to knock on the door. Minutes later, Luke opens the door. His eyes are bloodshot and puffy and his hair has fallen onto his forehead. He looks like he's been crying. My heart sinks at the thought of Luke crying all alone in his room.

"What are you doing here?" He asks lowly.

Instead of responding, I smash my lips onto his, bring my hands to the back of his neck. He immediately kisses back. I was scared for a second that he wouldn't. Our lips move in perfect sync. It is the most tender kiss Luke and I have ever shared. I can taste his fallen tears on my lips, and i'm sure he can taste mine as well. I don't know when we started crying, but I also don't know how long we've been kissing. Luke and I always get lost in each other from the moment we touch.

I pull away lightly and rest my forehead onto his. 

"I was wrong." I say as I wipe the tears from his cheeks. I can't stand seeing Luke cry, it tears me apart.

"Come inside." Luke says as he interlocks our hands and brings me inside, shutting the door behind us.

We walk in silence to his room, our hands still intertwined. Once we get to his room I awkwardly sit at his desk chair as he shuts the door. I don't want to just sit on his bed, because I don't know how this whole thing is going to play out. I don't know if I will walk out of here being with Luke or not. He walks over and sits on his bed. He pats the spot beside him, and I slowly get up and sit beside him. 

"Wrong about what?" He asks, referring to the statement I made just moments ago. 

I sigh. "I didn't want to break up. I was stupid to say we should. I won't ever accept that you're moving, and I won't ever understand why. But, i'm going to need to learn to deal with it. And I don't want to just break up and that's it. I want to spend as much time as possible with you before you go. I want you to see me graduate. I love you, Luke. You were right, we can't end this even if we wanted to." I tell him.

He stares at me for a while and i'm scared at what his response is going to be, but I relax when I see a smile appear on his face.

"I love you so much." He says as he leans in and presses his lips to mine.

"So you'll stay until after my graduation?" I ask after we pull away.

"I was never going to leave before then." He tells me.

"But I told you to, and you said okay." I say.

"I just said okay so you wouldn't yell at me more. There's no way in hell i'm missing your graduation." He says with a smile.

"So we still have almost three months together?" I ask. 

I know I shouldn't be happy about only having three months with him, but it's better than nothing. 

But even forever isn't enough time. 

He nods his head. "Yes, baby. We have until July first. And I plan on spending every second with you."

"I wish I didn't have to go to school. That's just wasting my time left with you." I whine.

"I know. But i'll be there to pick you up right after, and we'll spend every minute together. That's a promise. If you aren't sick of me now, just you wait." Luke jokes.

I try to smile at his small joke, but instead I break out into sobs. I don't mean to, I just can't help it. I can't even begin to think of what it's going to be like not seeing Luke everyday. Or not being able to touch him for months at a time. 

Long distance will be hard, but it's what we'll have to do. 

"Hey, hey. Don't cry. I'm here right now aren't I?" Luke says as he wraps his arms around me. I'll miss his touch so much.

"Yeah right now, but you won't be in a few months. What am I going to do without you here?" I cry.

"You have Michael. And Cora, Calum and Ash. You'll be okay, May. We'll talk everyday, that's a promise." He says as we lay back onto his bed. I curl up into him as he strokes my hair.

He was right in a way. I'd still have everyone I love around me. But Luke is only going to have his mum. He is going to have to make all new friends when he moves to England. 

"Promise me something?" He says.

I look up at him and nod my head slowly.

"Promise me that these next three months aren't going to be sad like this. Let's just act like these three months are no different then how everything was before I told you about the move." Luke says.

I don't know how he expects me to promise that. I know for a fact that this move is going to be the only thing on my mind for the next three months.

"I promise." I say, even though I don't mean it. I mean, i'll try my best not to act sad, but that doesn't mean it won't be tearing me apart inside. 

"I just don't understand why I can't come with you." I tell him.

I truthfully don't understand it. I have no problem with packing up and moving. Sure, I'll miss Michael more than I can even begin to explain, but I'd do anything to be with Luke.

"May." He sighs. "Your life is here. Michael is here and your father is here. You guys just lost your mother, you need each other. You grew up in Australia. I can't ask you to just pack up and leave for me, I won't let you. I know you don't think so, but you'll grow to resent me. You will, May." He tells me.

"I would never resent you." I tell him and mean it.

"You say that now. But what happens if we break up for good and then you're stuck in a country that you only moved to to be with me? You'll hate me. And I would never want you to hate me. I couldn't live with myself if you did."

He's right. I can't just move to another country for him. Even though i'm almost one hundred percent sure we will be together for the rest of our lives, nothing is certain. My life is here. I can't leave Michael, especially when our mum passed away not too long ago. We need each other. And as much as I need Luke, I need my brother too.

I nod my head in understanding at what he just said. I don't like what he said, but it does make sense.

"I want to take you somewhere tomorrow." Luke changes the subject.

"Where?" I ask.

"You'll see." Luke smiles.

I roll my eyes at him. He knows I hate surprises, but that is probably why he's doing it. He just loves to annoy me. 

"Luke, can I stay here tonight?" I ask.

"Of course you can, baby." He says as he kisses the top of my head.

We lay in silence for what feels like ever. I'm about to speak up but I hear his breathing slow. 

I look up to see his eye's closed. He fell asleep. I stare at the beautiful boy lying beside me, taking in every last feature of his. How could I have gotten so lucky to have him? But how could I manage without him in three months?

"Please don't leave me." I whisper, even though I know he can't hear me.

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A/N SO THEY AREN'T BROKEN UP! ARE YOU GUYS HAPPY ABOUT THAT? How do you think everything is going to play out, I'd love to hear your thoughts!

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