I immediately find myself turn to jello and kiss back. I get lost in Luke every time he kisses me. It's like the world is put on pause every time his lips touch mine. It's as if nothing matters but him. But, this time is different. I can't pause anything this time. All I can think about now is him being with another girl. 

I pull away and take a step back. "Luke stop."

"You kissed me back. I knew it wasn't over for you either."

"Well of course it's not. But you can't just kiss me and expect everything to be okay again." I tell him.

He takes a step closer to me, so close that I can feel his breath on my face. But, I don't move. He tucks a strand of loose hair behind my ear, and leaves his hand on my cheek, stroking it gently with his thumb.

His face comes extremely close to mine. "I love you. And you love me. Neither of us want this to be over. You know that just as much as I do. You're my everything, May." He says as he presses his lips to mine again. 

I don't pull away, but I don't kiss back.

"Kiss me back, baby." Luke practically begs against my lips. 

That's all it takes for me to give in. I move my lips against his, feeling the rush I always get. I know I shouldn't because this is probably giving him false hope of us getting back together and I know this is selfish of me but, I just need to feel his lips on mine one last time. 

I kiss him back roughly. The kiss is filled with passion. A passion that will never die. We walk backwards until we're at the couch. Luke leans down until he's lying down on the couch, me on top of him. I run my fingers through his hair and tug on it, knowing he loves when I do that. His fingers draw circles on my hips, then he moves to the hem of my shirt, lifting it up slightly. I know this is the last thing we should be doing but, I need him one last time.

I pull away and sit up slightly. His face looks completely distraught as he probably thinks i'm pulling away to stop this. Instead, I lift my shirt up over my head and throw it on the floor. I reach for the hem of his shirt and pull it off of him, throwing it on the floor too. 

Soon, the rest of our clothing is discarded and we are completely naked. He slowly enters me, and i'm in complete euphoria. 

"I love you." He moans.

"Shh." I say back to him. Of course I love him too but, I can't bring myself to tell him. It'll feel too much as if we're together, when we're not.

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We lay on the couch, just coming off of our highs. Luke's chest heaves as I lay my head on it. I forget for a slight second everything that's happened, but then it all comes back at once. I can't believe I just had sex with him. He just had to kiss me. I can't control myself when i'm around him. 

"We shouldn't have done this, Luke."

"Yes we should have. We're not over. That should be blatantly obvious by now." Luke says.

I sit up and retrieve my clothes off the floor.

"Where are you going?" He asks.

I clip my bra on and pull my shirt over my head. I stand up as I pull on my panties and pyjama shorts.

"This changes nothing, Luke." I say and I mean it. Just because we had sex, it doesn't change what he did. I know i'm not perfect either and i've made tons of mistakes that he's forgiven me for but, never once have I cheated on him. When Travis kissed me, I pulled back straight away and made him leave. I don't even think about other guys, and it completely destroys me that he obviously thinks about other girls. Was I not enough for him? 

"May come on. You know how sorry I am. Nothing like that will ever happen again, I promise! Please just forgive me." He begs.

"You say you didn't mean it. And you say that we were broken up at the time but, how would you feel if I went and made out with some random guy right now, and then came and just said 'sorry, it's not like we were together'. You wouldn't ever be able to forget it, right?" 

He doesn't say anything.

I hand him his shirt and pants. "You should go home. This won't happen ever again." I tell him.

He slowly puts his shirt and pants on. I stand up and walk towards the door, Luke slowly following.

"This can't be the end for us." He croaks.

I look up at him as I take his hands in mine. "I'll always love you, but I can't do this anymore. I'm sorry, Luke."

"So you're just willing to throw everything away?" He says, raising his voice slightly.

"Don't make this out to be my fault! You were the one with someone else, not me! Do you think this is easy for me? You think it's easy for me to let go of the person I love most in this world? It's the hardest fucking thing i've ever had to do, Luke. But I can't take the pain that comes with this relationship anymore. It's not only about you and the other girl, it's everything. We fight more than we get along. I can't do it anymore." 

"Where do you expect to go from here?" He barks.

I sigh. "I'll always be your friend. I'll always be around. You and my brother are best friends, so it's not like we'll never see each other again." I try to assure him, holding back my tears as best as I can.

As much as this is killing me, I know it's what I need to do in order to spare myself the pain. 

"I can't. We can't be friends. I don't think I can even be around you if we're not together. It'll just be like ripping my heart out every time. I don't think I could handle that, May." Luke says, tears in his eyes.

"So what are you saying?" I ask, not being able to hold my tears in anymore.

"Maybe i'll look into college finally. A college away from Sydney." 

I furrow my brows. "You can't just run away from your life!"

"Well what do you want from me, May! I can't take this!"

"You can't-" I start before i'm interrupted by a knock at the door.

I sigh as I open the door. I widen my eyes as I see two police officers stand in front of me.

"Can I help you?" I ask. 

"Is this the home of May Clifford?" One of the officers asks.

My eyes widen. "Yes that's me. What's going on?"

"Would you come with us please?" The other officer asks.

"What's going on?" I ask again, my voice shaking in worry.

"We really aren't allowed to say anymore until we get there."

"Anymore? You haven't said anything! Get where?" I ask as I follow them out of the apartment. Luke follows behind me.

The police officer sighs as he turns around to face me. "The hospital."

And just like that, my world stops spinning.

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