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Rakesh went to office early today. He didnt took lunch box with him.

I dont have guts to take lunch box to office with him. But i have to. He dont like outside food. So sure he will come with empty stomach.

After preparing lunch, i took box and walked till bustop. I went by bus and then walked till his office and waited out side to call him.

"hello" he sound irritated.

"I.. I.. got ur lunch" i stuttered.

"Give that to security" he said.

"Cant you..." i was about to ask him to come and take lunch box but before that he cut the call.

It obviously happens. Sighing i gave it to security and informed him to give to rakesh patil.

I was on my way to bus stop, near the corner of the street i saw vikranth and varun at chatbandar.

I stopped in my track. I hope they will not look at me. I slowly walked across them. After crossing them for some distance i looked back.

Vikranth's back was facing me and varun's face towards the road. He is laughing probably at vikranth's joke. He shifted his gaze while laughing and it stopped on me.

Oh god.. Please dont let him see me.. Please..

He continuously looking to me and suddenly he seems to be realised that its me. My eyes widened. Vikranth was about to turn to see where varun was looking, i turned and increased my speed of walk to bustop. My heart beat raised.

By god's grace bus came, i got into it. Finally reached home. Still heart rate didnt came down to normal. I can hear its beating louder.

I hope he didnt realise that its me.

*****

Avi stayed for 1 wk.. After that she went to her home.

After 2 wks, its saturday.. Rakesh is working from home. So iam preparing lunch liesurely.

Suddenly door bell rang. I stopped cutting onions and cleaned my hands and went to open the door.

On opening the door, i stood surprised.

"Hi.."

"Hello"

Both said at a time.

"Namaste vikranth ji and varun ji please get in" i said with a smile. But their smile seems to fade away upon seeing me.

They both had some shocked look. They both exchanged glances and looked at me.

"Please get in and have a seat.. I will inform him about your arrival.. "i said pointing to the sofa and i went to our bed room.

" hmm.. " i cleared my throat. He had a questioning look.

" your friends varun ji and vikranth ji came for you" i said. His eyes widened with shock.

"They are waiting in the hall.."i said and took dupatta from the cupborad and i wore.

I dont wear dupatta at home. Initially i used to feel uncomfortable with rakesh being around. But later i got acclimatised. Afterall he is my husband.

He kept laptop aside and went to hall and sat on the chair infront of them.

I went to kitchen to make orange juice for all of them and kept the 3 glasses on a tray.

While iam about to go and give to them.. I heard vikranths voice.

"Rakesh.. Is she your wife?? "

Rakesh nodded.

"I thought the other one in that jewellery shop is your wife and she is her friend" vikranth sounded disappointed

"No.. She is my wife. " rakesh said.

"But u do always have a good taste in girls. How come you married her? . "  vikranth asked.

Rakesh sat silent.

"Why rakesh.. Just because she left you? " vikranth asked.

She?? Who is she??

"Is it pressure from your parents?? But as far as i know ur family is beauty conscious" vikranth said

"No its not their wish. Its me who wanted this marriage"

"Whatt!! " both vikranth and varun shocked

"U liked herr!! I mean what did u look in her. U will get anyone. Our whole college girls used to wander around you dude. How come u fell in her trap. She is not even that wor..." vikranth cutoff with varuns grunting sound.

Varun signalled by looking at me. Vikranth looked at me with irritation.

I gave drinks to them.

They took it and i was about to go when varun said " sorry swetha ji. Dont bother his words"

I turned to him and smiled" its not new to me to be called as an ugly girl. Iam well used to it. I came to a stage where it all doesnt matter to me. "

I looked at vikranth and smiled " its true. He deserves someone better. But its not my fault that he chose me. Some people give importance to looks some to heart. Its their choice.  Iam his choice" i said.

"Sorry.." vikranth lowered his head.

"You dont need to say sorry.. I can understand your feeling. Because when you saw me on that day at jewellery shop you do have respect for me as a women and person. But when u came to know that iam wife of your Mr. Perfect and most handsome friend, you were disappointed. So i respect your feelings. " all look shocked.. I smiled and went to kitchen.

" Sorry rakesh i mistook your decision of marrying her." vikranth said. Rakesh sat silent. Varun looked guilty.

I came back and said.." Iam preparing lunch for you all.. please.. have it before going"

"No need swetha ji!" Varun said. Vikranth still lowered his head.

I smiled.. "If you eat my lunch then it means you are accepting my friendship if u are not interested then dont"

Vikranth raised his head and looked at me. I smiled and he nodded.

I prepared and set everything at dining table. I asked them to come.

I made roti, dum biryani with panner tikka masala. I made raitha and as a desert i made gulab jamoon.

They took their seats. I started serving.

"You too join us swetha ji" varun said.

"Its okay i will serve and i will eat after you all" i smiled.

They started eating.

"Its delicious!!" varun said.

"Yah.. Its really superb.. You made me remember my mother.. Thank you swetha ji.. Iam extremely sorry" vikranth said.

I smiled and nodded. How can i not forgive when they realise their mistake.

Through out lunch they discussed about random things.

When varun said " rakesh.. Why dont you join us?? Its been a long time that she left. You also are married why dont you move on"

Rakesh was silent.

I gave a questioning look.

"Dude.. Please let go of the past. " vikranth said.

Rakesh was silent.

"Arey yar.. Please when will you give our dearest rakesh back" vikranth asked.

Rakesh looked at me and then to them and said " yes"

Woww.. Finally he is willing to move on..

But who is she and why did she left??

They finally said bye and went out.

Rakesh closed the door and looked at me.

I am about to go to kitchen to wash dishes " thank you" he said.

I turned with a questioning look but he left to his room.

Why he said thank you?? For being nice with his friends?? For the food?? For baring all that and not arguing with him like all other wife's??

I need to know who SHE is? May be his friends may help me to move him out of his past.

Next week on evening of saturday vikranth came to our house and invite both of us to his house for lunch as its his marriage day.

"If you come with rakesh then it mean you are accepting my apology swetha ji" i looked at rakesh for his acceptance.

"Heyy.. No need of his approval.. If he dont approve i will break his head" i chuckled. But still looked at him. He nodded.

I smiled at him and nodded.

On sunday, we got ready to go to vikranth's home.

I wore blue saree while he wore white  coloured shirt with half sleeves and dark blue jeans in perfect fit. He looked handsome as always. He used his perfume. When ever i smell him i feel giddy and feel butterflies in my stomach.

I braided my hair and kept it on my left shoulder. I dont use makeup because even if i use no change will happen as its a permanent colour.

We went to vikranths house.
Their house is larger than us. But the feel of our home is always better whether its large or small.

"Hi dude.." vikranth hugged rakesh then looked at me "Hi swetha ji" vikranth welcomed us with smile. Behind him there stood a girl probably his wife.

She is so pretty with defined features and fair complexion. She wore a sleeveless darkmaroon coloued gown which reached till her knees. It hugs her curves perfectly. It looks good on her.

"This is my wife priya.. Priya this swetha rakesh's wife" vikranth introduced me to his wife.

"Hi priya ji! " she had some confused look.

"Isnt he lov..." priya was about to say something but vikranth interrupted her.

"Priya say hi to her" priya looked at him and then at me and fake smiled

"Hi.. " forwarded her hand. I took her hand and shaked.

"Happy married anniversary" i said and gave bouquet to her.  She said thank you.

Vikranth took her inside while we waited in hall. In the mean time varun came.

"Heyy.. Rakesh.. Hi.. Swetha ji.. I didnt expect you to be here.. Its nice to see you here" varun said. I smiled.

"Okay i will go wish the married couple. " varun said and went.

After a while varun came and sat on other side rakesh.

"What is you plan for next sunday dude" varun asked rakesh. As rakesh was about to reply he got a call. He stood and went outside to take the call.

"So.. Swetha ji.. How is life going on?  Do you like bangalore? " varun asked.

"Its good. But i havent went any where in bangalore till now" i said.

"Rakesh didnt take you outside?? "

"Hmm.. Actually he is so busy in his work. I too dont want to disturb him" i covered.

"Rakesh.. Is he okay with you? I mean he is not behaving as the one he used to be."

"How he was in the past? " i really wanted to know about him.

"The one we know is so friendly, straightforward and loves to enjoy life. But now he so silent and moody." i nodded understanding.

"How is he with you? Still the same" he asked.

"No he is nice person. " i said.

"I know he is a nice person but.. " i felt tensed.. I cant say that he dont like me and we are just two strangers living under one roof.

"Okay.. Leave it" he said. I nodded feeling relaxed.

"Varun ji.. Can i ask you something" i asked really wanted to know who SHE is.

"Yah.. You are free to ask me. "

"Last week when you came to our house you said that she left rakesh ji.. Who is she?? Why did she left him"

" i dont know whether its correct or not if i say about her to you. But i will if it makes you peaceful"

I nodded.

"Vaishali.. Our college most beautiful girl. She is too active and pretty and studious. She is multitalented. As u know rakesh is the most handsome one in our college. She is our junior. Many people proposed her but she didnt considered anyone. Even rakesh also didnt like anygirl. He used to say i want the best in everything. I will wait for the best. " i realised. Iam not his best. He wants best in everything. My heart ached hearing.

" During final year when we were coming from movie. Few ppl started teasing a girl. We went there and  fight with them to see vaishali crying all alone. Rakesh went to console her. She suddenly hugged him and cried. After that we dropped her to hostel. Then went to our hostel.

Next day when we came across she came to us and thanked us. As she was about to go rakesh asked her mobile number. She gave it. Then onwards they started chatting and night calls. Gradually they started loving each other.

After college we three rakesh, vikranth and me got selected in MNC, still they continued their love. After her final year her parents wanted her to do masters in USA but she didnt want to leave him. So she joined in MNC. They started living together. " i felt like someone squeezed my heart.

" After 3 yrs, rakesh mother suddenly came to  his house as surprise. She spotted vaishali and rakesh living together. She made it a big issue and started shouting and called rakesh's dad and vaishali's parents. She said some harsh words about vaishali's character infront of her parents. She even blamed their parents that they cant even raise their daughter properly. She said that vaishali trapped him and she had loose character who can sleep with anyone and so on. I cant say those words. " i cringed at those words.

Any girl will feel bad. That too infront of her parents. I cant imagine such a situation. I can assume how my mother in laws harsh words will be.

" Rakesh tried to stop her but couldnt be able to because he had fear of fighting with his mom. So vaishali got hurt and asked him to leave his parents and come with her.. but he couldnt decide as he had the responsibility of taking care of his parents as he is the only son of them. With that vaishali left him. " i can understand his feelings but i cant blame vaishali that she left him. As its matter of her dignity and self respect.

" Later rakesh tried to call her and request her. She forgave it and wanted to be with him but vaishali's parents are not willing to send her to him. As they had this fear as his mother called her with such inappropriate names, they dont want him to be with their daughter. Still rakesh went to ask and request their parents but they didnt allow him to talk with vaishali. They changed her number. They blocked all routes of contacting her. They sent her to UK to his uncles house. Later after 2 months we got the news that she got married to her uncle's son.  " i felt so sad. Its so unbearable to leave the one u love.

" Rakesh was heart broken. He wanted to remove all the memories associated with her. So he shifted to infosys, he stopped all contacts with us. He even shifted to new home. Its a big surprise that he got married suddenly and you u know everything after.. " now i understood the sadness behind his eyes.

'I dont like you.. I married you just because of force from parents. Nothing else. Dont get high hopes. Because i wont even touch you. '

' Am i part of revenge??'

'Dont u dare call her ugly.. She might be for u.. But she is so beautiful for me.. She didnt have ugly heart like u.. She do care alot for me.. She loves me amd i feel it. If u cant see us together better u leave us. Never come here'

'Well.. U wont allow disrespect to ur wife but i have to watch u people use foul language to my wife..'

Now i understand his each and every word he said.

He married me to get his revenge.. He faught with his mother as a part of his revenge.. He is willing to give divorce if i want.. I understood his guilty.. I understood his pain.. I understood his broken heart.. I want to heal it but can i be able to heal him..

"Swetha ji! Are you okay? Iam sorry if i hurt you by saying all the past " i came out of my thoughts.

"No.. I mean.. Thank you so much for telling all this. " i said with tears filling my eyes.

"Heyy.. Are you crying?? Iam extremely sorry"

"No.. No.. Its just.. I felt his pain thats it" i said wiping the tears.

Rakesh came and sat beside me.

Priya came and said lunch was ready and we ate it.. But i dont have interest in eating.

"Isnt the food good swetha ji? " priya asked.

"No.. Its.. Just.. Hmm.. I dont eat much during lunch.. " i lied. Previously iam not used to lying but now it became a part of life. May be every one is like me. May be its the circumstances that make us liar.

During lunch, priya and vikranth they are arguiging about who loves more. They are really lucky to have such loving life partner.

After our lunch we bid good bye to them and came to our house.

After changing to casuals. He went to sleep on bed. I stared at his back. Feeling his pain, his sadness.

*****

Can i get his love like his love for vaishali..??

Vikranth and varun made me as a friend. Iam really thank ful to them as they made me their friend but i lost it.

May be iam the reason i lost it.

Hi guys..

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Its such a long chapter..

So how do you feel?

So what do you think about rakesh past?

What do u think of  swetha's behaviour when vikranth insults about her looks?

Who do you love most vikranth or varun??

How do u feel about vaishali?

What do you think the reason for the loss of friendship with varun and vikranth?

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